❗May include mentions of an eating disorder❗

This is positive thoughts

This is negative thoughts

(Seungmin pov)

Come on, you're going to make it! You are-

You aren't, after what happened last year.

I sing and dance in the practice room, making sure everything is perfect. I can't mess this audition up again, not after what happened last time.

🌸|Flashback|🌸

 "Thank you for auditioning with us, Seunghyun. Kim Seungmin, please come up."

 I froze in fear. It wasn't now that I would be auditioning to the executives of JYP Entertainment, was it?

 "U-um, hello. My name is Kim Seungmin. I'm sixteen years old a-and today I'll be singing 'Rising Sun' by TVXQ."

 You already messed this up, huh?

My singing was shaky, my dance steps delayed and broken.

Why would they choose someone like you?

At the end, I anticipated their response.

It was bad.

 "At JYP Entertainment, we don't accept lazy people like you, especially those who need to go on a diet," the old, wrinkly man said , giving me a judgmental stare.

My eyes brimmed with tears. After all my hard work, they rejected me (who rejects THE Kim Seungmin? Clearly someone who is blind talent-wise ). They spat nails directly at my heart. I run out of the audition room.

🌼|End of Flashback|🌼

 "Seungmin, Seungmin?" Felix called after me. 

 "Yes?" I answered, my voice croaky.

 " I heard you singing, and it was so good. Anyways, I think we should start going now. " Felix replied, revealing his angelic smile.

Yeah, your singing was so good!

No, it wasn't. You sounded like a dying frog. He's just trying to be pitiful.

🌺|In the car|🌺

 "Seungmin,I made you some brownies because you've been working so hard!" Felix exclaimed, putting one of the brownies in my mouth.

Oh my gosh, these brownies taste so good!

Yeah, and these would taste even better if you were on a diet.

It turned into sugary,  sickly smush in my mouth.

 "Oh my god, you look so cute when you eat!" Felix cooed, pinching my brownie-filled cheeks.

No you don't. You look like a fat, ugly pig. Wait, that's an offense to pigs.

I continue to worry as we drive into the moonlight.