A million word will not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried-
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"Ahhhhhh!" I belted, sitting on my bed. I inhaled and exhaled deeply as my chest rise heavily up and down. My hand gripped tightly on the bedsheets like it was my only hope that I wasn't going to fall in a deep, dark unending pit. My breathe was still ragging when I noticed it was still dark, I don't know the time so I turned on my lamp on my bedside table so I could see the time, it says 3:15.

I jumped when the door swung open, unveiling my daddy with an annoyed- look on his face. "What the hell is wrong with you?"

I sit still, still clutching on the sheets but this time, tighter, then I let go of it and ran to him, I hugged his legs only to be pushed to the cold marble floor.
I looked into his honey eyes, petrified of what he will do next.

"God, Royalty don't touch me!" His teeth gritted together as he told me those words before he turned back to the door and slammed it shut. Then I heard the sound of key turning into it's hole, I held my chest in realization. With my other hand, I pound on the door scared if anyone or ghost would take me.

Why did he lock the door? It only made the situation worse

"Daddy please open up." Water had started falling from my eyes, I placed my forehead against the door as I continue to pant, heavily.

Instead of him to unlock the door, he didn't. So I scooted more close to the door, letting myself curl into a ball.

*. *. *. *.
When my sore eye unfolds the next morning, I found myself in the same position I fell asleep, curled into a ball, my neck hurts because I was resting on it.

I slowly tilted the door handle and was glad it was opened.

That meant, daddy must've opened it when he found out I was asleep.

Poor me

My vision hazed as the memory washed through my body, I don't think I'll be able to forget what happened just few hours ago, I meant my dream. After I brushed my teeth, I heard the door of my room creaking open, I stood still in front of my mirror scared to look at it, I shivered when the door to my bathroom also opened, where I was.

Daddy helped me bath upon all what had occured, he didn't comment about it. When we were done, I slipped on my white feminine shirt under my navy blue school gown uniform. I put on my shoes and I was ready for school, I went downstairs where I was sure dad will be.

"Good morning." We didn't speak when we were at the bathroom so I thought it would be rude if I don't greet him. Even though he didn't spare me a look but clenched his fist for whatsoever reason. He was holding the bunch of keys to the house, if it were plastic, it would have crushed a decade ago.

I got into the backseat of the blue corvette, making sure I was hiding myself behind his seat.

"About what happened..." He trailed off, his voice deeper than usual. For some reason, I was glad with the look on his face, it doesn't look like he was going to yell at me.

Maybe he is about to apologize

Yeah

Wait, what... Apologize?

My daddy would prefer to drown than to apologize, he never apologizes to anyone, talkless of me. I'm speaking the truth from what I'd experienced. I zoned out of my thoughts when I heard him clear his throat.

"Don't let it repeat itself, you hear me?"

My face broke into a frown.

Not like I was smiling before

What was I even thinking? I made him furious again when I promised not to.

"I... I- sorry, I was just afraid when-"

"I don't think I asked for your comment... You ruined my night." He seethes, then again I made sure I wasn't day dreaming when he whispered, "you ruined my life."

I know that if I cry, it will anger him more so I kept it in, I stayed quiet and tried hard to hold in the threatening liquid blurring my vision. Morever, I've heard more than that from Grace but I was still stunned. Daddy doesn't really talk to me, he doesn't really talk when I'm around, I don't know if it was only when I'm around.

But, he just told me I ruined his life.

Can my dad be more harsh?

I only wanted to apologize for ruining his night, because I don't understand how I ruined his life,

"So-"

"Damn Royalty just shut the hell up I'm trying to bear with you okay." He shouts at me making me flinch. I slowly nod my head and sits it between my laps.

My wish will never come true from what I've experienced and currently experiencing. It's just that...

The truth really hurts... everytime