Earth 32
Olivia's View

"You okay?" Iris asks knocking on the door.

"I'm fine." I say sniffling.

Feeling used, but I'm

I stare at the phone of me and Y/n on my phone and start to cry again.

Still missing you and I can't
See the end of this

"I just wanted to say that I find you annoying." I say.

"Aw, thank you." Y/n says.

I laugh and she smiles. We stare at each other and I kiss her.

Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips

"It's been 3 weeks Liv." Iris says.

And now all this time is passing by

She's right. It's been 3 weeks since we broke up and since I've left my room. Iris just brings whatever I need to the door and I crack the door to get it.

I had to leave my room today though. I had a photoshoot today. I don't even know if I can do that today.

2 hours later...

"This jacket looks familiar." I say.

"You're always cold." Y/n says taking her jacket off.

"Thank you, baby." I say.

Y/n smiles and I kiss her cheek.

"That would be mine." A familiar voice says.

I look up and see Y/n.

"I... kind of figured that." I say.

"Anyways, bye." I say walking away.

"Wait." Y/n says.

I stop walking and turn around.

"Why are you acting like this? You said we'd still be friends." Y/n says.

But I still can't seem to tell you why

"I don't think we can be friends. It doesn't seem like a good idea." I says.

It hurts me every time I see you

"Really?" Y/n asks.

"Liv, please open the door. You don't have to do this alone." Y/n says.

I unlock the door and Y/n comes in. Y/n shuts the door behind her and I hug her tightly.

Realize how much I need you

"I don't know anymore." I say sitting down.

I hate you, I love you

"You've always been like that." Y/n says with a small smile.

I smile and she sits next to me.

I hate you, I love you

"We could give it another-" Y/n says.

"No." I say.

Don't want to

There's never going to be anymore better than Y/n, but I can't do this to her again.

but I can't put
Nobody else above you

"I just don't think I can keep doing this. I can't keep holding onto you when I'm not ready." I say.

"Not ready for what?" Y/n asks.

"A relationship. You're an amazing person, I'm just not ready for this. I told myself since I met you 4 months ago that I couldn't lead you on and be with you. I did it anyway and now I have to hurt you." I say as tears fill Y/n's eyes.

"I'll wait... I'll wait as long as I have to." Y/n says quietly.

I smile and hug her.

"Thank you for understanding. I promise you that when I'm ready, we'll try again." I say.

"No hard feelings. I gotta go, I have an interview in a few hours. Good luck on your shoot, you're gonna do great." Y/n says.

"Thank you." I say smiling.

I hate you, I love you

Y/n smiles and walks away.

I must be the biggest idiot in the planet to let someone like her go.

I hate that I want you

I see Y/n talking to a girl and they hug. Y/n says something and the girl kisses Y/n's cheek.

You want her, you need her

Y/n leaves and I sigh.

And I'll never be her

Time Skip; Y/n's View

"You look like a zombie." Grandpa says.

"Look who's talking." I say.

Grandpa laughs and I smile.

"Couldn't sleep." I say.

I miss you when I can't sleep

"I made some coffee. Trying drinking some of that." Grandpa says.

"I'm not hungry." I say.

Or right after coffee or right when I can't eat

"Stop pressing shit!" I say hitting Olivia's hand.

"You're hogging the air vent. Why do you need 3?!" Olivia asks.

"My grandpa always said that the drive deserves the move vents." I say.

"I'm sorry, that's the dumbest thing I've ever heard." Olivia says.

I miss you in my front seat

"I'm always here when you want to talk." Grandpa says.

"Thank you." I say.

Grandpa smiles and I leave. I put the hood of my hoodie down and sand hits the back of my neck.

Still got sand in my sweaters

"I hate the beach. Why is there so much sand?" I say.

"Yeah, well, you're at the beach with me now." She says.

From nights we don't remember

My phone dings and I take it out of my pocket.

I sigh and open the notification.

I know Sydney has feelings for me. She's been following me around and always being super close to me. I'm just not ready to move on. I don't think I ever will be.

Do you miss me like I miss you?

"I don't want to keep doing this." I say.

"Did I do something wrong?" Olivia asks.

"I wanna be more than this. I don't want to be friends with benefits anymore." I say.

Fucked around and got attached to you

Olivia smiles and kisses me.

Friends can break your heart, too

"Why are you still with me? I'm so boring?" Olivia asks.

"I'm always tired of people's shit, but never of yours." I say.

And I'm always tired, but never of you

"I don't fucking get it, Olivia!" I say.

"You just expect me to be okay with my girlfriend lying to the public and saying that we're just friends while you pretend like you're dating your ex again?" I ask.

"How would you like it if I did that shit? You wouldn't. Keeping our relationship secret is one thing. Keeping it a secret to "date" someone else, is just wrong." I say.

If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit

"I'm doing everything I can to make our relationship work. I can't when you're doing shut like this." I say.

I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit

Maybe it never was going to work out.

Time Skip

"Text her." Justin says.

"Okay." I say unlocking my phone.

"I can't." I say locking my phone.

I type a text, but then I never mind that shit

"She doesn't care anyway." I say.

I got these feelings, but you never mind that shit

Olivia's View

My phone dings and I grab it.

She texted?! Oh my god. Maybe she really is going to wait for me.

Yes, I'm still in love with Y/n. What's not to love about her? I just can't tell Iris, she's done so much to help me forget about Y/n.

Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me, but your friends don't know

The text probably doesn't mean anything. If Y/n was trying to make a move, she would say it because she's an open person.

If you wanted me, you would just say so

If we switched positions, I'd never stop trying either.

And if I were you, I would never let me go

Time Skip

The thing I miss the most about Y/n is her hugs.

I don't mean no harm, I just miss you on my arm

Y/n puts the ring on my finger and I hear ringing. I open my eyes and turn my alarm off.

Wedding bells were just alarms

I don't know what I was thinking. Why would you get into a relationship, idiot? What was going through your fucking head? I knew I couldn't handle this, but I did this anyway.

Caution tape around my heart

"You ever wonder if we'll be more in the future?" I ask.

You ever wonder what we could have been?

"I don't think about the future. Just the present." Y/n says.

You said you wouldn't and you fucking did

Y/n is such a fucking liar.

Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix

Great, now I hate her again.

Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed

I just need to stop thinking about Y/n.

Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance

"Screw you, Y/n." I say.

"Ah, but you won't." Y/n says.

"Wanna bet?" I ask.

Y/n chokes and I laugh.

I can't stop.

I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing

I go downstairs and sit next to dad.

"It's okay to have feelings." Dad says.

But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings

"You didn't even really like Y/n." I say.

"That's true, but I liked how happy she made you." Dad says.

"You'll have to move on eventually. Just don't move on too fast." Dad says.

When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on

"No relationship that I've been in has worked out." I say.

Everyone I do right does me wrong

"Technically the only reason this relationship didn't work our is because of you." Dad says.

So every lonely night, I sing this song

I hit him and he laughs.

Y/n's View; 1 year later...

I look up and see Olivia holding hands with someone.

All alone, I watch you watch her

"It's the exact same person she did that publicity stunt with." I say.

"I've never seen her look at someone like that." I say.

Like she's the only girl you've ever seen

"Did she ever care?" I ask.

You don't care, you never did

"I'm sorry." Justin says.

"Not your fault." I say walking away.

"Y/n." Olivia says following me.

"I don't want to hear it." I say.

"Y/n-" Olivia says.

"You lied to me. Remember what you told me?" I ask.

"Thank you for understanding. I promise you that when I'm ready, we'll try again." Olivia says.

"You never cared." I say.

You don't give a damn about me

"But I'm happy that you're happy." I say.

Yeah, all alone, I watch you watch her

"You've got someone that makes you smile more than I ever did. Yeah, that's great." I say.

She is the only thing you've ever seen

"I turned down hundreds of chances to be happy because of you. Declining tons of other celebrities offers to go out with them. And so much more." I say.

"You just didn't realize it." I say.

How is it you never notice

"And it killed me every time I said no." I say.

That you are slowly killing me?

"I'm sorry." Olivia says.

I hate you, I love you

"Look at you, lying to my face again." I say.

I hate you, I love you

"Good for you. You look happy and healthy." I say.

Don't want to, but I can't put

I turn around and walk away.

Nobody else above you

I take my phone out of my pocket and dial the number.

I hate you, I love you

"Hey." I say.

You want her, you need her

"I think I'm ready for that date now." I say.

And I'll never be her

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