Chapter Forty

"What do you mean 'you miss what we used to have'?"

I let out a small sigh, stepping back from Louis, "You wouldn't understand."

"Yes I would Mimi. I would understand."

"No Lou, you wouldn't. Can you just drop it please."

I hear him let out a huff, "Fine."

I look up at him, shocked, "Why are you so mad about this?"

"Because! You're meant to trust me! You aren't meant to hide stuff away from me like that!"

"Oh really? Hello pot, kettle calling. I could say the same for you Louis," I hiss, my hands balling into fists at my sides.

"What are you talking about?"

"Oh don't think I don't know Louis. I know that you and the boys are really hurt about me losing my memories. I know this because you are usually so carefree and open and then someone brings up my memories and all of a sudden it's like there is this giant brick wall in my face when I try to talk to you."

I watch as Louis' lips fall into a hard line, "Maybe because it freaking hurts to think that the girl you care about doesn't remember you!"

"What?"

"Nothing. Just forget it. Just...don't talk to me anymore Mimi. I can't take it. I can't take hiding how I really feel about you," he sighs before brushing past me and walking quickly up the stairs.

As the anger slowly falls away, I finally feel the hurt and the shock of Louis' words as they hit me in the chest. Stumbling back, I find the banister before lowering myself onto the bottom step. How could he...? How could he stand there and yell at me like that?

How could he stand there and yell at me like it's my fault that I don't remember him? It's not like I purposely forgot my memories. I would never do something like that. Well not intentionally anyway. But I honestly can't believe him.

I feel like someone has stabbed a knife in my heart multiple times and now they are twisting and turning the handle, digging deeper and deeper until I can no longer feel. Bu the thing is, I will always be able to feel the hurt and the pain that his words have caused me. You can't just hide something like that.

It shouldn't hurt this much though, should it? I shouldn't hurt me to the point where I can barely breathe. It shouldn't hurt me to the point where I feel like my whole body is numb and I can't move. It should hurt me to the point where it feels like my heart has been shredded into millions of tiny little pieces and chucked onto the floor to me trampled on.

It shouldn't feel like that but it does. Just a million times worse.

Sure, I've only known him for about four weeks but I still felt like I was closer to Louis than the rest of the boys. We've always had this weird connection that I could never explain. It was so weird, waking up and seeing him there and then instantly feeling like there is this string pulling on your heart. 

That feeling you get when you know you are forgetting something was even weirder. Just seeing his bright blue eyes made me get this terrible, gut wrenching feeling in my stomach. It was at that moment that I knew I was forgetting something important, something that meant everything to me, but I didn't know what it was.

I still don't. I have no clue. But that connection is still there, no matter what Louis puts me through. No matter how harsh he is with his words, no matter how broken my heart is, at the end of the day, that connection is still there.

"Hey Mi...Why are you crying?"

I look up to see Liam who has just walked out of the kitchen. I feel more tears well up in my eyes when I see him standing there, acting like he cares. He doesn't. None of them really do. They just feel sorry for me. To them, I'm just the poor girl with the lost memories. The moment I get them back they will probably tell me to leave. I don't blame them though.

I mean, who would want to have me living in the same house as them. Certainly not them. I mean, my own mother didn't even want me there so why would these boys want me here? Exactly, they wouldn't.

"Mimi, love are you okay?" Liam asks me as he sits down on the step next to me and wraps an arm around my shoulder.

I stiffen under his touch, almost choking on the words that are about to come out of my mouth, "Don't touch me."

I see a look of shock cross over Liam's face before he slowly removes his arm from its place on my shoulders. I let out a small sigh, instantly feeling guilty for treating him like that. He doesn't deserve it. Liam has been nothing but nice to me. I shouldn't be treating him like this.

I mean, Liam is like a big brother to me. The way he cares so much about me. The way he is super protective. It's really sweet actually and I'm glad that sort of relationship. I guess I just don't deserve it because of the way I'm acting.

"I'm sorry Li," I sniff, resting my head on his shoulder, "I just...I'm just not having a good day."

"Hey, it's alright Mimi. I understand," he says in a light tone before he presses a kiss to my temple.

"You sure? Because I feel like I've been a rotten friend these past few weeks, especially just then."

"Mimi, it's okay. I understand that you are focused on getting your memories back and that the only reason you probably snapped is because, for some reason, you are upset. And you haven't been a rotten friend okay?"

"Oh, okay."

"Now, why are you upset love?"

"No reason," I whisper as a fresh wave of tears hits.

"You can tell me anything, you know that right?"

"Yeah I do Li," I mumble as I pat his knee with my hand.

"Then what's wrong?"

"It's Louis."

"What about Louis?" he asks me quietly.

Well here goes nothing.

"It's just...I think I have feelings for him but I know he doesn't feel the same way."

"Well that's bull dust Mimi."

"Yeah? Well explain why he just basically told me that he doesn't want me in his life by telling me not to talk to him again?

Poor Mimi :(

STUPID LOUIS! BEING A DOUCHE BAG JERK!

Soooooo, I have chosen the winners of my little competition that I held. Here they are, as well as the jokes that I really liked... :)

Im_Urmi with my absolute favourite joke of them all:

Today is Jim's birthday,
so his wife decides to surprise him, she takes him to a Strip Club.  

At the club -

DOORMAN: Hey Jim! How are you?

WIFE: How does he know you?

JIM: We play Golf together!

BARTENDER: The usual beer Jim?

WIFE: And how does he know you?

JIM: He's on the Bowling Team!

HOT STRIPPER: The special Lap Dance again, Jim?

The Wife storms out...... dragging Jim with her, into a taxi! 🚖

TAXI DRIVER: Hey Jimmy boy....You picked an ugly one this time...Same Hotel?

Today is Jim's funeral.

simple_stories1 with this funny joke:

What do you get when you mix together alcohol and ninth grade literature?

Tequila Mocking Bird

And last but not least @fandomofmanythings00 (so sorry that it didn't properly tag you, it wouldn't automatically do it for some reason) with this joke, that I actually laughed pretty hard at at the end:

This is this cat
 This is is cat
 This is how cat
 This is to cat
 This is keep cat
 This is an cat
 This is idiot cat
 This is busy cat
 This is for cat
 This is forty cat
This is seconds cat 

 NOW GO BACK AND READ THE THIRD WORD ONLY IN EACH LINE FROM THE START 

Good job guys! Just send me a message when you read this and we can have a little chat about when the chapter will be done and what not :)

Sorry to the guys that entered but didn't win :( It was actually so hard to choose from all of the jokes but don't worry, that chapter will be put up at the end of the book. I might even do another little competition in little while. Who knows... ;)

QOTC: Which of those three jokes is your favourite?

ILYSM!

SWAG ON!

~ TJ xoxoxoxo