"I uhhhhh," I began nervously. "Well...I'm not really sure.....he is very nice and handsome....but I..."

There was no way out of this and that statement just dug my grave even deeper.

"You do like him!" Gabi declared.

"Shhhhh!" I hissed.

Why am I shushing her? We're literally talking about the man I love and I do have these feeling for him. But, I'm worried the Marleyans would not be fond of it, plus they may find it suspicious possibly. It has been two years since I've been here though....

"She totally likes him," Zofia stated.

"Stop guys. You're embarrassing her," Falco spoke lightly.

"This isn't right just interrogating her," Udo pointed out. "Who she likes is her business?"

"Thanks Udo," I replied softly and glanced over, seeing Reiner had left the balcony.

Did he hear us? Did I upset him somehow?

I finally stood up from the ground and glanced at the sky. It was getting late and we all needed to head back to the internment zone.

"Come on. Time to head home," I announced and we all headed off.

We arrived at the internment zone and I made sure they all headed home. I smiled and then walked back to my own place. I entered my house and closed the door behind me. Sighing and rested my head against the door, a little mentally exhausted. War was on my mind. War was what I feared. Death to the ones I care about most, is what I feared. I've been able to do my best to save my friends at the walls, but can I save my new ones here. The kids and the Warriors. I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.

I soon hear a small knock and moved away from the door, surprised by the sound. Who would be at my door this late? Nevermind, I have a general idea.

I opened the door and looked to see a very flushed Reiner. I was confused and then glanced down, seeing a bottle in his hand. He clearly had been drinking.

"Reiner?" I asked curiously.

"Does my girlfriend not want me?" Reiner questioned softly, hanging his head down.

"Huh?" I muttered.

"She told a bunch of kids she didn't know if she felt anything towards me....and I thought she loved me...." Reiner murmured. "I didn't know where else to go, Ada."

I sighed. He thought I was someone else in his drunken space and that's why he was spilling all of this.

"Come in, Reiner," I said and I helped him inside.

I closed the door and helped him over to the couch. He laid down on his back, letting the empty bottle in his hand hit the floor. I lightly pressed my hair against his forehead and it felt very warm.

"You need to take better care of yourself," I scolded and walked off to the kitchen.

I grabbed a rag and drenched it with cold water. I walked back over to him and lightly set the rag on his forehead, not wanting him to get sick because he drank too much. Before I could move my hand away, he grabbed onto my wrist and his golden eyes stared up at me.

"I'm a good person....right?" He asked softly.

"Yes," I replied. "Why would you ask such a thing?"

"I've done horrible things. I just wanted to be respected and admired by my people. To help bring my family together but all I did was put my friends in danger," Reiner explained. "Sometimes I wish I was dead..."

"Reiner...."

"But...then I think of her smile," he murmured.

"Her?" I asked with a small smirk. "Who is she?"

"She is far away....A queen...A goddess from a far away land that is seen as our enemy," he informed me and loosened his grip on my wrist. "She is not our enemy. She is our hope....She is so beautiful..."

"She must be something for you to talk about her like this, Reiner," I said, playing along.

"She is....I love her..." Reiner murmured. "But does she love me still...it's been two years...."

"She still loves you Reiner," I promised him and lightly caressed his cheek. "You have nothing to fear."

He didn't respond and just stared up at me. I pulled away and walked back to the kitchen.

"Here. I'll make some food so that you have something besides alcohol in your stomach," I told him.

I began to cook some rice in a pot, along with some vegetables. I stood there cooking it for awhile as I began to think.

Reiner heard what I said at the courtyard and he was upset about it. I felt awful. I didn't think my words would cause this much harm. I'm trying to keep us safe and from any of us getting caught. Should I have just said yes....That I do like him...Not like my answer would have changed the kids' opinions anyways.

I shouldn't blame myself right now. What matters at the moment is making sure Reiner is okay.

I finished cooking and put some rice and vegetables into a bowl. I picked it up and walked over to Reiner, holding out to him, smiling. He took the bowl and stared up at me in awe.

"Are you an angel?" He asked quietly.

"No," I replied and giggled. "But I'll make sure to watch over you either way."

I lightly ruffled his hair, leaving him to eat. I began to clean up the kitchen, putting things away and cleaning dishes. I lightly hummed to myself, not really paying much attention to anything else.

Once I finished cleaning, I felt hands wrap around my waist from behind. I felt someone leaning heavily against me as they rested their head on my shoulder. My shoulder was beginning to feel damp as I felt tears.

"Reiner?" I asked worriedly.

"(Y/n)....You're here...Is it you?" Reiner lightly whimpered.

"Yes Reiner. I'm here," I replied, slightly amused at the way he was acting.

"Do you still love me?" Reiner questioned and began to nuzzle his face into the crook of my neck.

"Of course," I answered quickly. "I will always love you Reiner."

I felt his grip tighten around me, keeping me very close to him.

"I will marry you one day, (Y/n)," he spoke. "I will love you with all of my being for however long I've got left."

Tears filled my eyes but I couldn't help smiling.

Today has been an emotional rollercoaster so I was like, Imma just throw another chapter out there cause the anime is making people sad. Might as well try and do something to help in some way.

I am distressed and as a manga reader, it hurts more when the stuff you read finally becomes reality on a screen.

I literally didn't want to watch the episode, cause I knew.

Hhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I'm not okay!!!

But anyway, I pray you enjoyed the chapter and made you guys day maybe a bit better.

Love you guys! Stay safe and feel better!