(Luke's P. O. V. )
The day we left the hospital was the most nerve racking day of my life. I remember lifting Jai out of the hospital bed and placing him in a wheelchair. I remember the sweet smile he gave me and the proud look Beau had on his face for me. I thought we were gonna turn out okay.
Though, that was before social services walked through the door. It was about five men that came into the room all dressed in black suits and they looked intimidating. One man grabbed me by the arms and began to pull me away from my brothers. I remember screaming and cursing at them. I remember another man pushing Jai away in his wheelchair and it made me angry because, Jai was vulnerable right now so, he couldn't protect himself! All Jai could do was helplessly watch it all happen and witness Beau being dragged away as well.
I remember being pulled forcefully down the hospital hallways and getting stares from people. I remembering hearing Jai's cries and not being able to reach him.
"What is going on?!" I remember Beau yelling.
"Under law, you have no other relatives eligible to gain custody over you three. You guys belong to the government now but, we found it in our own interest to simply send you away to a foster home someplace else." One man in black said.
"What? Why?! We have a home!" I remember telling them.
"Not anymore son. You boys are going to the train station that will take you to the place you're designated to be." The man said and began to take us towards a van.
I remember being shoved in and being seated across from both Beau and Jai.
Jai was leaning his head against the window and watching the street lights or something. He always notices the little things and admires the big ones. I have no idea what goes on his head now but, that's just the type of person Jai became. Sometimes I wonder why he's become so quiet but, then I remember that the quietest people have the loudest minds. Maybe that's why he's screams in his sleep sometimes. Maybe that's the only time the thoughts in head can be be heard and that scares me because, his screams are loud. I wonder if they're louder in his head?
Beau was looking at his hands in his lap and looked like he was in deep thought. I remember watching him scrunch his eyebrows and then make a confused face afterwards . Almost as if he was talking and arguing with himself.
I remember just staying quiet the entire ride to the train station with one thought on my mind. The thought became so overwhelming that I remember saying it right before we boarded the train.
"If we get onto this train, our lives are going to change forever......we know that right? We're going to be letting go of everything we have here."
I remember seeing the realization and sadness hit Beaus face and noticing the tear slide down Jai's face. I didn't mean to upset them, I just didn't want to be the only one who realized what we were actually doing.
"But sometimes we have to let go." I remember Jai saying. He was right and I wish he wasn't.
I remember sitting on a bench and waiting for the train to arrive and to take us away from this place. As much as I loved growing up here, I needed to leave.
WE needed to leave.
I remember the train finally arriving and I remember the strength it took to actually board it. I remember my heart feeling heavy as the train pulled away from the station and beginning to leave. We were leaving the place we once called home and I've never felt so lost.
I remember the way Beau's lips trembled and a few tears leaking down his face. He tried to wipe them away quickly as if he wanted to hide them but, I stopped his hands from reaching his face.
"Beau, you don't have to pretend to be okay when we all know you're not. Jai and I both care about you. You've always been there when we needed you so, let us be here for you now alright?" I remember telling him. Beau took a shaky breath and I remember Jai reaching over to hold Beau's hand.
"It's okay to cry, the sky does it too." Jai said softly and I remember looking out the train window to find that it actually was raining.
I felt like the sky was crying for me because, for some reason, my eyes didn't let a single tear fall and I'm actually thankful for that. I want to be strong for my brothers right now and I can't do that if I cry. I know that I told Beau not to pretend to be okay but, for me, that's the only act I know.
I remember Beau flashing a small smile at Jai and Jai doing one in return. I smiled at the both of them and I remember thinking,
'Maybe we might actually turn out okay?'
I actually thought everything was going to turn out okay. I remember falling asleep on the train with both of my brothers by my sides and hoping that everything would work out. I remember the long hours of the continuous train ride the next day and arriving in a city downtown. I remember being taken to a building that specialized in foster care and wondering that maybe, just maybe, that this wouldn't be so bad.
Though, that was before we stepped into the building and realized that our new home was a prison. A prison for the broken and lost foster kids.
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Chapter 2 whoop whoop!
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