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After I'm done with the three teasers this week, I will update for Daniel's Diving and Surfing Into Love as somebody requested it along Nowhere Is Ever Safe for K.

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"You are art in it's purest form, few lines and million metaphors"

"You will never know just how much I want to give up to have you back in my life"

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In the three months that he participated and debuted through I-Land, there is a biggest secret Heeseung couldn't let the company find out about. Those who knew it were his co-trainees Jay and Sunghoon.

Now as a member and potential leader of Enhypen, he have to be much careful about his every move and how he will act around especially to any girls. But when he did visit back in Bighit building in order to see you secretly or just get a glimpse of you in your dance practice room, you weren't there in the first day and the next.

Until it came to a month. Then he will find out with his heart breaking when their manager said what happened to you the night just after he left you for a month of how you were hospitalized because of the sasaengs of some artists in Bighit they don't havs an idea who.

And because of this reason, before you even had the chance to explain it all, JYP decided to bring you back in his own company to avoid further danger on you if ever the sasaengs return for you.

With this new problem arising in between the two aces and stopping the two of you to be together, Heeseung will find himself in his first new awarding music a year after, only to see you being indifferent towards him.

And as destiny brings your fate together in several variety shows like Knowing Bros where you and him were constantly teased looking good in the same screen, soon the angelic side of the fans were gonna start a ship while the devilish side were gonna start a hate.

But can you two---despite being two aces in different companies now and despite all the odds of being an Idols--can find a way to reunite?

To return the spark and learn not to be afraid of love? To not think about the image and come back to what you two had before?

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Ever since you wake in the hospital with your Itzy friends worryingly crying for you and JYP entered the room with Bang Pd-nim, the evidence of trauma in your eyes had ended everything in your trainee life at Bighit. It was like you constantly needed reassurance from anyone to be sure that no one will hurt you.

This even has cause a panic attack whenever you felt claustrophobic around everyone in a public place. It begins as feeling your throat go tight and your rib cage swelling when you were crowded by your fans who was already there before Itzy debuted. It happened again a week later in the elevator on your way to one of the training rooms in JYP.

Hwang Hyunjin of StrayKids was there giving you a nod as you entered, the two of you were the only people in there as it happens. There was a sharp jolt, and then the metal box encaging you came to an abrupt stop. You shrugged it at first, letting the boy take the first lead by pushing on the emergency call button.

Suddenly, as you heard him talked to the maintenance at the dialler, there was a rising sense of panic welling up inside you and not without a doubt, did you reach out for him even though you didn't really know each other.

"W-what's happening with you?", Hyunjin almost pulls your hand away from him but stopped when he seemed to notice something was wrong with you. "Are you okay?"

You tugged at his collar desperately, paling white as your heart thumped wildly in your chest. "No, I'm not", you said catching your breath, "I want to get out of here"

"They'll be here soon", Hyunjin said quickly and shortly, looking at the emergency call button, panicking a little. "I've already alerted them of our situation here"

It was the first time you acquainted yourself with him since you'd gotten at JYP years before and seeing him now look a bit panicky made it worse for you. "Sorry.. sorry.. sorry", you repeatedly says, now adding a fear in your shoulder.

"No.. it's okay. Are you having a panic attack?", he asked, then jabbed at the buttons randomly with one hand and the other were keeping you lean onto him, "Sirs, be faster please!"

You don't know what's happening. If he was right about you having a panic attack; all you knew as the lights go off was that you needed to get out of there, scared for all those sasaengs to come out of the darkness to beat you up again.

With your legs weakening and nearly falling, Hyunjin takes you by the shoulders and forced you to meet his eyes. "Hey, hey! They'll be here in a minute, okay? Just look at me. Don't think about where we are. Close your eyes and think of something else"

"Okay", you muttered, gritting your teeth as you hold more firmly on him. You tried to still your frenzied mind, to bring forth some memory, but your brain refused to cooperate.

Feeling your face with one hand is prickly with heat, and even though it was hard to focus on anything except you, Hyunjin said this, "It will be okay, I'll tell you. Think of the sky. Like you were up in a rooftop and was looking at it in wonder"

You screwed your eyes shut and forced yourself to imagine it which was a little easy as your memories of Heeseung, of you and him spending time in the rooftop sprung up in your mind. The importance of it, the specialness of those moments, and then it turns to a goodbye, a forever one, so sad for you that it was impossible not to cry.

Your heart began to slow and your breathing grow even, and you unclenched your hand from Hyunjin's collar, wiping at your sudden tears. Opening your eyes again, his face was level with yours, his eyes wide with worry.

"Are you okay now?", his voice sounded so concern that you can't look away from his eyes in shock. "I'm sorry. I'm not really good at this kind of situation, so have I helped you a little?"

"Yes", you can only say, frowning when you and him stared at each other and you realized it was the first time you'd allowed yourself to look at the other guy since you returned in JYP.

After a moment, much to your gratefulness, the elevator shaked a bit to move up again and you forced yourself to look away from him, letting out a relieved sigh. You rode up the rest in your floor in silence, both of you shaken, both of you eager to step outside and forget it ever happens.

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What was I supposed to do about everything now? How things had gotten to this point? Why am I not there for her when she needed me the most?, this was Heeseung's repeated thoughts as he ignored Jungwon for a while and for the first time in a week since his debut, his face sagged and his eyes went murky.

"Not now please", he said to him, his voice raspy as he said it. He wanted to say more but most of his heart wants to say is forbidden to say in that kind of place, in the Airport.

He doesn't know which was worse; the knowledge of them nearly being trampled by the unlooked-for surge of fans or the knowledge of her permanently back on her former company before she met him.

All the six of his co-members were quiet tonight in the waiting area. Everyone was bundled with their jackets and scarves, the lights on the window as they tried to catch a nap. This wasn't how supposed for it to all go, they should be excited and not feared for any new trouble if they reach their destination.

Laying Jungwon's head properly on his shoulder, Heeseung thought of the way this Airport was so open and even this late at night, many passengers from every country gets out of the gates, beaming as soon as they see who was waiting for them. It somehow made him feel claustrophobic. What with the looming threat of the ride ahead--the terminals themselves---the press of people where some of them caused him to flinch if they glanced too long and all of this felt like the whole world was watching him.

Except on the roof. Except when he was with her.

It had been three months since they last saw each other. It hadn't been a goodbye for him---nothing dramatic as him crying in the rain for the last glimpse of her. One day, there was a letter from her included in the book full of messages from his fans in I-Land--completely and utterly sweet rooting for him all the way to the finals and then just like that, when he finally caught onto why she is not attending any training session at his return,

It came to his attention she's back in JYP; there was no explanation from the staff, no farewell, and no last picture. It ended the way it started.

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Once again, the demanding training in JYP had kept you busy enough to make you distracted and not thinking of 'him'. What were you supposed to do anyway? Cry everytime you felt alone in your new dorm with the new faces there being intimidated at you the first time?

As you made your way to the Cafeteria where it was famous for it's organic dishes with the Itzy members, you paid little attention to their current conversation about their recent Not Shy comeback and instead thought about how you can get closer to your new co-trainees, missing Hayoon, Chaerin and Nanami who was now far out of reach again just like what you experienced in Itzy before.

"Y/N!"

You jumped slightly, coming out of your reverie by the loud call of your name, startled. It looks like you weren't alone to be the startled one, as Ryujin, Yuna, Yeji, Lia and Chaeryeong stopped walking around you and in unison, did you all look at the source of the voice.

A large part of you suddenly wanted to ask yourself of why this Hwang Hyunjin is seeking you out now all the time he managed to see you everywhere. As if not convinced that he's actually there, you stared at him, asking "What are you calling me for?"

"To talk to you obviously", he replied bluntly, eyes drifting to the five girls with you. With his most friendly smile, he gives them a small bow as a greeting, "Can I borrow your friend for a while? I will just to talk to her about something"

Unbelievably, the Itzy members nodded with smile on their faces and without so much a glance in your way, they all went back to their practice room, with only Yuna lastly saying her sweetest last words of:

"See you later, Unnie! Take care!"

Hyunjin nods at the door towards the garden a few feet away and you walk over there together, heads bowed as some staff passed by in a hurry, shouting about the coming of Twice. Finding a bench overlooking some manmade pond with the kois swimming around in numbers, you waited for him to say something as you sit.

Unable to find words, Hyunjin leans forward to rest his elbows on his knees, his long blonde hair braid in one side caught your eyes. He doesn't react when you unconciously reach out for one of the small braids and you two remain there just like that, the silence stretching in between.

After a moment, he sighs, though still not looking up to face you. "This is a little weird, right?"

Letting go of his small braid, you let yourself looks heavenward and says, "Which is weird? You seeking me out since you helped me at the elevator?"

"Yeah, that and this moment", he says with a small smile along his eyes, reminding you of Yeji's eye smile, "Really, though, a large part of me want to ask myself why it feels good to talk to you. Is it because you are a foreigner? Or I'm curious about what I heard about you?"

Beside him, you pick at your own hair, now changed from violet to pink, unsure what to say. Unsure of everything about him. "What did you heard about me? Good things, I hope?"

"Oh, don't worry all of it was good things especially from sajang-nim and the other trainees here", he says quite thoughtfully, looking down at the fish before adding, "All of them were quite regretting giving you to Bighit but now that you're here, it seems they determined not to let go of a talent like you"

Now that he said it, the total truth that separated you with 'him', this whole Idol career seems like the worst possible idea. You know this might not be the end for you and Heeseung, but rather the point of something deeply sad, something irrevocably and horribly final. Not unless you both want to give up the career you built in order to be together.

Glancing back at your shirt, the JYP printed big on the front instead of Bighit which is the one you want and just as you turn away to stand away, you catches sight of Hyunjin staring at you and your mouth goes dry.

He looks at your surprised expression and smiles, relieved that you'd noticed. "You're sort of dangerous, you know? Not in a way from your experience with 'them' but to something else"

"Me? In what way I am dangerous?", you asked confused, sitting back on the bench with him.

He doesn't answer: he doesn't even look at you before he forced you to go down with him under the cover of the bench. Through the small trees lining before some of the doors and in the mirror walls, you can see some staffs with some of the StrayKids members calling for him. Above you the sky has gone gray and flat.

Flashing his eyes back at you, he rubs at his forehead then rakes a hand through his hair and seconds after, he laughs, a humorless sound. "I can't trust you to be honest with me once I say what I meant you're dangerous in a way, Y/N"

"We will never know until you tell me what it was", you pointed out, scooting further and further from him. "So what is it, Hyunjin? Can you tell me now before we were found here in a suspicious position?"

"I'm finding myself attracted to you, Y/N. Actually I already had before you were even sent to Bighit", he admitted without any thought as his gaze grew heavy on yours and you played oblivious on how it troubled you. "It seems like quite too coincidental that you ended with me in that elevator"

Clearing your throat, you looked away from him so he didn't see how much bothered you were at the blatant confession. "Stop looking at me like that, Hwang Hyunjin!", you forcefully said and sighs, "And stop joking around please. I'm not ready to jump again in another dangerous fall"

Your words took him by surprise, that much was obvious. He shook his head in disbelief before looking away. For a long time before somebody entered the garden, you two just stay there like that, back to each other as still as the clouds in the sky. And when he gives no indication to answer you---you swallowed hard and comes with a decision to leave him.

But just as you turn to walk away you heard him call for your name once again, the word like the opening of some door, like a beginning, like a wish for something you left behind to end.

"Can you please give me a little chance?", he says and so you nods, earning a little smile from him.

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With the year of 2020 coming to an end, a surprise from JYP had come just after all the music awards was finished and after they won all the rookie of the year awards, Heeseung was cooking himself a ramen in their dorm, nearly scalding himself when Jungwon and Sunoo shouted about the upcoming girl group, mentioning all the names together one by one until it reached her name.

For the past few months, he'd been waiting for any updates from her and even so much creating a stan acc in Twitter to follow some legal fansite for Y/N. But if he was being really honest, that was only the part of it. The other reason was he's hoping for any variety show that she would visit and he'll volunteer to go there to the manager, just to see her again.

Now that he's here before the door in the makeshift Classroom of the Knowing Bros, dressed in a School uniform, he collected himself and tried to stop the frenzied beat of his heart as he heard the host talked to her first and hearing her voice for the first time nearly led him to just open the door, risking it just to hug her again.

As if cued by the end of her introducing herself, the director flicked his fingers for him to prepare himself and when the door slides open, Heeseung sauntered his way inside keeping the act as instructed of someone being charming.

"Good morning classmates. I am your new charming boy here, Lee Heeseung!", he introduced himself winking at them awkwardly with a convincing smile.

It occurs to him that she is near the table or was standing there now taking notice of him and while Heechul is busy commenting on him, about how Bts Seokjin winked at him before, he had the urge to turn around and look nearly overwhelms him.

When Ho Dong talked in his usual jokester tone, he finally glance and placed himself near her, and this time, it's to find Y/N's eyes fixed on him. Getting scared to where they are currently, she looks away, using all her concentration to keep herself acting as the scene moves forward, though every part of her is itching to say a word to Heeseung.

The way he looks right now, so tall and handsome in his uniform, reminds you, Y/N, of his first photos that you printed in the first day of his debut. Swallowing hard and managing a smile throughout the show, you only let your eyes travel to him when he was asked to dance at his senior's songs of Black Swan.

And when he finally reaches the end of the song, Heeseung looked over his shoulder and flash a secret smile at your way, who---despite everything, despite in the public show, smiles back reflexively and Heecheul noticed it, though he doesn't say a thing, seeing another rookie idols falling in love to each other but can't be together.

"Come back again next time, you two!", all the host of Knowing Bro's waved at you in glee, as Heeseung let you first to step outside.

And though you had seen him before happy, there's something different in his eyes when the door finally closed and the staffs focused their attention on the host, the look on him in particular took your breath away.

Especially at his pull on your hand and to your surprise, he kisses you then. Not like the kiss in the rooftop which was chaste and short and sweet. This kiss is something more urgent like he was running out of time, something more desperate: he presses his lips hard against yours, and you closes your eyes, risking it just for him, kissing him back until he suddenly breaks away.

"This is not what I would expect of Enhypen Heeseung", you commented and he gives you a soft smile yet still alert for anything in the background. "I've known him more to be gentle and my angel"

"I miss you too much to be gentle. Plus, I know this moment will be short and all I wanted to say can't be spoke out in one go, so there it was, a kiss"

In spite of yourself, you can feel color rising to your cheeks as you says, "This is quite dangerous for you to do knowing that we were just starting our Idol life"

He steps back abruptly and for a frigtening short moment, you think he's going to walk away. Instead, he looked left and right before placing a small piece of paper in your hand, his shoulders sagging, "Call me please. This is my new number. Once you saved it in your phone, burn it to be safe"

From a distance comes the sound of his name being called, and a moment later a man wearing the ID saying he is the manager of Enhypen appears. He stops short when he sees the two of you standing close to each other, clearly surprised.

Heeseung's eyes are still on you anyways, "One minute please", he says without looking away, and the manager hesitates, like he might reject, but then turns around with a reminder:

"Remember who you are and what you are now, Heeseung"

When you're alone again with Heeseung, you forced yourself to meet his eyes again. Something about the manager's arrival has broken the joy at seeing him again, and now keenly aware of the show in the studio before you coming to a complete close. Still, Heeseung doesn't move.

Anytime now, someone would see the two of you staying there, staring at each other. Time is running out, any second if he still doesn't say anything, both of you would be put in further issues with your management.

Shifting from one foot to another, his eyes saying he's trying and his hands trembling in effort not to reach out, he says. "Did you miss me all these months, Y/N?"

Neither one of you moves, and you realized before you reply that you're holding your breath, wanting for him to stay, "All my time back in JYP was spent missing you and wishing I could be back with you"

"Thank you", he says, giving you a grateful look and he holds out a hand, "Promise me that you'll call me in my number, okay?"

"Okay", You take his hand and he hover it in the air, halfway between a grip, and a shake, your knotted palms with him swaying and locked in a promise until he lets go.

As he turns to cross the way on where his manager had disappear to, your stomach churns as you completely lied to him in that whole moment and as you move to go where your own manager is, your heart jumps in the dressing room as Hyunjin greeted you there with a wave.

His smile knocks the wind out of your throat, that look of his, the joy in his eyes, the depth of his attraction towards you. It stops you cold, split your heart right open, and the rest of it crumbled for Heeseung. You shouldn't have promise anything. You shouldn't crumpled the small paper of his number in your pocket and throw it in the first thrash can that you see.

You shouldn't talk to him again lest his sasaengs comes back for you like they promised. That much is clear to you now that Heeseung will never be a safe choice for you in this Idol life.

A few minutes later, when Heeseung was done politely thanking the staffs of Knowing Bro's, he can see your own small entourage getting out of the back door. Your back is to him and he frowns at the sight of the boy he knows is from Stray Kids, walking just beside you.

There's something protective in the way his hand rest on your shoulder, and the sight of it makes him get inside his manager's van, his heart falling down his chest in dismay and something else.

At the last moment, almost as an afterthought, he takes one last glance outside the tinted window, you were laughing with the guy that is not him. And then before he could do something, he looks away and know that something had ultimately changed between the two of you.

For good.

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To be continued...

Cry for for now. If this received a lot of comment, I will decide whether they should have a happy ending and what to do about Hwang Hyunjin.

Besides, we all know how hard it was to pine for a guy who's an Idol in a different company, right?

I have more plans for this short series. Can you tell what do you think of this new stage in the Two Aces in One Company?