I walked around aimlessly through the MTC to try and find lando. The last place to look was the gym which is where I was hoping he would be, he could work out all of his anger and frustrations from before.

I turnt the corner to see lando heaving between skulling water. Perfect timing.

I hid around the corner and waited to 'accidentally run in to him' . He came around walking with pace, when we collided I was pushed back. Lando instinctively went to my aid, grabbing my hands and pulling me in. We stood there inches apart. His skin alight from the sweat. My attraction to him sky rocketed. This is exactly why I didn't want to talk to him.

We absorbed the sight of each other for a mere moment before lando tried to brush me off snd walk right past me. I held out my arm, stopping him and ushering him to the closest vacant meeting room.
YN: "we need to talk."
He sighed, clenching his jaw, clearly as uncomfortable as I was.

We distanced ourselves in the room, opposite walls, as much space as possible.
My breaths came out unsteady and suddenly it became impossible to lift my eyes above the floor.
LN: "well?"
YN: "just give me a second!"
I placed my hands above my head, desperate to steady my heart rate.
I finally looked up to see lando with his arms crossed, sweat pouring, face flat.
I owed it to him.
YN: "okay look...the reason why we broke up wasn't just because of our fight..."
He uncrossed his arms now suddenly attentive.
YN: "erm... so...."
LN: "yn it's hard enough being in the same room, let's not drag this on. Tell me."
YN: "Mercedes!" I blurted it out. Not how I anticipated to go about this but it was out now.
He scoffed and started to storm out.
YN: "no, stop! You told me so many times you had no knowledge of a Mercedes deal. And you lied."
Tears were beginning to surface but lando seemed to have no patience for any of this. I stepped closer making sure he knew how hurt I was.
YN: "you lied. And that tore down all respect I had for you."
My voice shook but I stood tall.
Lando stood there dumbfounded and mute. I shook my head. The whole reason I was doing this was so that he could justify his actions, but the more he was silent the more worked up I was becoming.
YN: "you've got anything to say?"
LN: "what do you want me to say?"
YN: "why did you lie?! Or why didn't you take the Mercedes contract?"
LN: "why do you think!"
I let out a frustrated noise.
YN: "I think there are two reasons."
LN: "I like McLaren, I don't want to leave."
YN: "and it has nothing to do with me?"
LN: "don't flatter yourself."
I pinched my lips. He was being immature, out to hurt me.
YN: "right well I told you the truth, that's all, thanks for your time."
I rolled my eyes as I walked out.
So much for owing the truth to him, I didn't owe him shit.
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Now that the gym was free I used it to work out my anger. I had no fitness planned for the day but this wasn't for a physical benefit, this was so I didn't loose my fucking mind.

I hoped on the treadmill and just ran, music blasted through my ears. The rest of the world faded away. Base vibrated through my ears and in to my veins.

I looked down for the first time to see I had run 8km. I moved my legs to the side and finally caught my breath. Calling it a day.

As the hot water poured down my body I closed my eyes relaxing. I couldnt force things to get better with lando, it was a two way street and he needed to try as well. So I decided I wasn't going to even put effort into resolving things unless he did.
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As I left the bathroom about to leave all together, I saw I got a message from char 5 minutes ago.
CS - meeting room 2A now x
Odd, she didn't say anything about a meeting before.
I jogged down despite my legs burning, not wanting to keep her waiting anymore.

I opened the door to find char and lando chatting away about the upcoming race. Both of them stopped abruptly as I closed the door. Lando looked me up and down provoking a glare out of me.
LN: "seriously Charlotte?"
He banged his hand against the table standing up.
CS: "aye grow up and sit down. Both of you. This is a necessary discussion."
I reluctantly sat down. Lando shifting his chair away from me. I scoffed at him. Child.
CS: "alright. The people in this room miraculously are the only ones aware that you two have broken up. I think it's in both of your best interest to maintain that."
I raised my eyebrows, stunned.
LN: "I'm sorry, your forcing us to stay together?!"
CS: "no I'm asking you to maintain the public facade that your still dating."
YN: "it's alright we don't have to, I'm willing to take the PR hit it was my fault I knew what I was getting in to-"
LN: "shut up alright it's not just you."
YN: "it's not?"
CS: "okay let's not start anything."
My elbows jarred against the table as I massaged my temple.
This was a nightmare.
CS: "on weekends I want you guys to be civil with each other, happy with each other, when asked you talk about how in love you are and so forth."
I looked across to lando who looked like he was just about ready to explode.
The air became so brittle it could snap. Knee deep in silence I just wanted to escape.
LN: "okay fine I'll do it. can we go?"
CS: "please."
He kicked the chair behind him and practically ran out of the room, not even closing the door behind him.

I melted down in my seat covering my face.
CS: "so I take it before went really well."
YN: "oh my god! I cannot believe him! He is being a child, a bitter angry child who hasn't had enough sleep!"
CS: "can you blame him? He's hurt. I don't think he has ever been dumped before."
YN: "he is 21 years old. I'm 19 and handling this more maturely."
CS: "your a girl, you mature faster. Again you were the one to end this."
YN: "yeah but it doesn't mean I'm not hurt...he didn't leave me a choice."
CS: "he forced you to dump him?"
I gave her a pointed look. She made it sound more clean cut then this was.
YN: "he lied."
CS: "did you tell him that you were also offered a spot at Mercedes?"
YN: "no because it doesn't concern him now."
She raised her eyebrows at me, mouth slightly parted.
Ha ha very funny, I did the same thing he did.
She grew a smirk.
YN: "shut up."
I teased back before departing the room.

I didn't want him to know because if he knew I might leave he might change how he acts with me. I wanted a raw, non-pressured decision.