word count: 2354
published date: 170714
edited date: 170704
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jungkook's pov

"so she's in the hospital now?" seokjin groans on a skype call with all the hyungs. i nod my head and continuously check my phone for any updates from yerin or mr. choi. "no wonder why she wasn't at school. they can excuse you if a family member dies," jimin mumbled. the hyungs were asking for an update or why yejin hasn't been in school so why not just have a group video chat.

"she's coming back next week though. dana knew about the whole thing too, yejin decided that she should know. apparently, yejin did all the lessons and homework she missed out on, thanks to dana. when yejin comes back, she just needs to take her exams and then she has to take the fitness test but that won't be possible with how fragile she is now," i say as i read the text mr. choi sent. seokjin runs his fingers through his hair and mumbles, "only if i would've gone to check up on her. this probably may have never happened."

"she gets discharged today, right?" taehyung asks. i nod my head and show them a picture of her in the hospital bed, "she gets to go home today but that doesn't mean we should ALL go visit her at once." namjoon nods, "she needs to rest. let's just go one by one, or in pairs. we can also give her gifts and stuff." seokjin gets up from his chair and brings a large teddy bear, "i got her this last night." yoongi gasps, considering it was kumamon, "seokjin hyung!" namjoon grins as he takes out a big ryan and brown bear, "they're from my own bed but still. she deserves them."

the rest of the boys and i talked about who will go with who and what day they will. "i'll go with jimin in three days," taehyung grins. "i'll go with hoseok in two days." hoseok smiles at yoongi brightly at what he just said. "i'll go with namjoon the day after tomorrow. dana and jungkook deserve to see her first. considering that she is her best friend and jungkook is her boyfriend," namjoon yawns as he drinks his coffee.

i guess we have a plan.

- a day later -

yejin's pov

"you feeling okay?" yerin asks as she hands me a cup of water along with medicine. i nod my head, "i feel better than i did before the incident or whatever." i take my meds and look down at my wrist, "how can i cover this up? it's gonna leave scars." yerin sighs and hands me a bottle of cream, "use this daily. you better if you want them to slightly fade." i thank her as she takes the empty tray out of my room.

"you have guests!" yerin yells.

the quiet knock on my open door revealed a smiling dana with a bouquet of flowers, "i was so worried about you!" she cries as she puts flowers on the desk and walks over to hug me. i smile at her and hug her without trying to get my wrist in more pain. "hey," jungkook whispers as he sets the flowers down on my desk and sits on the chair, "you doing fine?" he asks. he was playing with his fingers as he talked. "yes, i'm doing fine," i slightly smile.

i have to end things with him, soon.

"yejin-ah! i'll be back, i need to go to mo-," yerin yells and pauses, "i need to go to my restaurant and help out with rush hour. dad's across the street just getting food so he'll be back in a few minutes." i sigh as she changes the word "mom" to something else. jungkook's eyes widen and look back down at the floor. "i brought all the movies you loved when we were younger, you wanna watch?" dana asks as she breaks the silence. she opens up her bag and it's filled with dvds. i snicker and nod my head, "of course i do. oppa, can you help me up?" i ask as dana runs to the living room to get the movie ready.

jungkook stands up and scoops his arms under me, "i missed your voice." i bite my lip and run my thumb over his lips, i was going to say something until he gently put me down on the couch and wrapped me in blankets. dana sits on my left and jungkook sits on the right, "what movie is this?" i ask. dana shows me the dvd cover, "beauty and the beast." a big smile is plastered onto my face as she turns around to turn the lights off and uses the electronic controller to close the curtains. dana snuggles against one of the pillows as the movie starts playing. jungkook leans on the other corner and pats his side, mouthing, "come here." i nod and lean on him as he starts to caress my body.

not going to lie, i lost a lot of weight this past month. i don't look healthy at all. my wrists are definitely skinnier and my skin was paler now. "she's so pretty," i whisper. jungkook kisses the top of my head, "you are too." the blood rushes up to my cheeks and i hide my face into the blanket.

the front door opens and reveals a confused father, "why are all the lights o-. oh. hello, kids. and the beast." dad smiles as he sets the grocery bags on the counter. we all wave to him without looking away from the scene. he sighs as he puts the groceries away, "sorry to disturb you but i got an email back from new york. they wa-." i shoot my dad a glare and shake my head. i stand up but as soon as i do, jungkook rushes over to my side. my head shakes as i wobble to my father. "they don't know i'm leaving. well dana texted me she got a callback but jungkook doesn't know i'm leaving. no one does besides our family and dana. i need to leave without any notice or else it'll be hard to leave." dad nods and kisses my cheek as he helps me back to the couch

the rest of the night consisted of movies and yerin walking in with food in her hand to give to us. "i'll see you soon but do know that you will have visitors the entire week," jungkook chuckles as he packs his things up. "yeah, that's true. i'll call you later, see you later love," dana smiles as she kisses my cheek and waits at the front door for jungkook. "i love you, goodnight," he whispers as he pecks my lips and follows dana out the door.

"okay, let's talk," dad smiles as he sits me down at the dining table. he takes out his laptop and shows me the email. vogue. "vogue!" i squeal as he opens the already read email.

"i'm gonna be a writer! oh, my gosh, dad!" i scream as he hugs me tight. "congratulations, princess." yerin comes out of her room and claps, "your resume and the article you sent was really good. when do they expect you?" she asks as she sits down.

the email talked about how they read over my resume and my article, mostly about how they enjoyed it. i skimmed over the email until i found the date, july 3, 2017. "a days after the day of graduation," i mumble (let's just pretend they graduate in june instead). "why so soon?" dad mumbles as he reads over the email once more. i shrug my shoulders and get up from the chair, "i don't know but it's better than a month."

i thank yerin for dinner and my dad for letting me know about vogue before i enter my bedroom. thank god i still have decent grades in school. and dana since she gave me her notes and homework i missed out on, along with the lessons too.

my sleep schedule is coming back, i think. i don't know but i feel better. oh, that reminds me, i go back to school on monday.

- two weeks later (sorry for time skips) -

"this is so fucking stupid!" i scream into the book. my sudden outburst causes the boys and dana to look at me. i slam the book down on the desk and storm off into a random room. i close the door behind me and sink to the floor. the room was dark gray with record players and records along the walls. "yejin-ah," namjoon mumbles. i back away from the door to let him open it. namjoon closes the door behind him and locks it. he has books in his arms. my eyes roll at the sight of books and look away. "i know you're stressed with all these final exams but that doesn't mean you can walk away from it," he mumbles as he brings me into a tight hug. after he visited my place, we got closer and closer. i nod my head and breathe out, "the whole book is the opposite of what we learned! we learned to do simple way but the book says to never take the short cut and rather do the long way. like, i don't care about it anymore."

namjoon laughs and opens up the book, "you're supposed to be reading over things and take notes of what you don't know. not what you already know. now that's just stupid." i slap namjoon in the chest and look back at the book, "i know. but i already took notes when i was gone. this is so stupid, thank god finals are tomorrow." i get up from the floor and open the door. "you good?" hoseok chuckles. i nod and go back to the coffee table, where i was studying with jungkook.

since finals were tomorrow, we all decided to meet at namjoon's place and study since he was the smartest out of all of us. "baby, how do you do this?" jungkook whispers as the house goes silent again except for seokjin going over his notes with taehyung. jungkook slides his paper over to me and shows me a math expression with a bunch of foreign symbols. i grab my pencil and show him step by step how to solve the algebraic expression along with scientific notations. "thank you," he smiles and pecks my cheek.

"you guys hungry?" namjoon's little sister asks as she shows us bags of lotteria. "yes! food!" seokjin gasps as he runs to get the bags from nahyun. behind nahyun, a thumb sucking nayoung appeared. "lotte unnie!" nayoung gasps as she runs into my arms. "hey girlie, how have you been?" i ask the little girl i remember from lotte world. nayoung giggles and hands me a lollipop, "i've been doing good! this is the same lollipop flavor i had when i first met you." my eyes widen as she puts it in my bra, causing jungkook and nahyun to laugh. "oh, that's not where it goes but thank you," i giggle as i kiss her cheek and take the lollipop out of my shirt. "nayoung-ah," nahyun calls out her baby sister. nayoung looks at her older sister and wobbles away.

yoongi hands me a barbecue hamburger and waves me over to the dining room. "how does nayoung even remember you?" namjoon mumbles. i scoff and turn to him, "she's the one that came to me when you lost her. in lotte world, where stalkers could've been." namjoon bites into his burger to shut him up. "wait, you lost nayoung in lotte world?" dana laughs. namjoon nudges her shoulder and sighs, "i was out with the boys but nahyun was busy so she made me take nayoung with me." jungkook gasps and points to namjoon, "i remember! that was the day i asked yejin where the viking ride was! and the day i called her hyerin or something. also, the day namjoon said yerin had a nice ass and legs!" dana gasps and slaps namjoon's arm, "bitch. but i can't lie. my best friend has an amazing figure." namjoon stays quiet throughout the conversation since it was getting awkward... exposing him.

"it's getting dark. we should go home," jungkook suggests as he throws his and my trash away. "yeah, let's go," i yawn as i get up from my seat to pack up. "i'll see you guys tomorrow morning at dunkin donuts, goodnight!" namjoon waves as the rest of the group does the same while we leave the house.

"you're getting chubbier, i love it," jungkook smirks as he holds my hand. i nod with his statement, it's true. i love it too, personally. after the incident, i was so skinny but now i'm going back to my regular frame. "i didn't want to tell you this but i got scouted for a company," he starts off, "but i don't know if i actually want to be a part of it." i shake my head and hit his arm, "take it! you have the visuals of an idol and the voice of justin bieber. well similar to his, but korean. i mean you're going to be a successful idol, it's pretty obvious." he shakes his head, "if i do that means i won't have time for anything." i pretend to act sad and sigh, "oh," was all that could come out of my mouth.

of course, i was sad that i was going to have to leave, but the fact that i'm leaving with no notice made me feel guilty. "will you support me if i become an idol?" he stops in our tracks and turns around to face me. i look at the ground and back up at him, "of course." in my mind, thoughts of him forgetting about me were fogging up. "you okay? you look... blank," he mumbles as he hugs me tight. tears were threatening to fall but i nod, "i am. i'm just stressed over finals."

i'm gonna miss him.