❝i want all that is not mine❞

zayn pov:

walking out i realise my mistake.
all he ever wanted was to love and i never gave it to him.

i didn't understand how to, what to do, or if i even loved him.

now i do though, i miss his cuddles, and kisses.
i miss the way he clung to me like a koala, feeling his beautiful lips lay right on my neck.

the way he tug and pulled my hair as i pretended to sleep while he laid awake.

i miss him.

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[ july 8 // 10:37PM ]

"are you ready?" niall asked as zayn got ready.

they're first date that year as a couple.

"yeah, i'm ready to get this over with." zayn mumbled, wanting the blonde lad to finally stop whining.

niall huffed.

eyes blue and electrifying, hair soft and fit to perfection.

"i want this night for us to enjoy. please have fun with me ok? just for this night out, please?" niall begged, his rosy cheeks and bottom lip matching in color.

it appeared as if the lad was 12 all over again.

"yeah, whatever." zayn replied.

they both appeared at the bonfire right when the fire got bigger in size.
niall was clinging to zayn's side, slim fingers firm around his bicep.

"you doing okay?" zayn mumbled down to the blonde, and niall nodded a bit dazed.

zayn smiled, fondness crawling it's way towards his heart and in his eyes. overtaking the taller of the two.

'finally' niall thought, as he looked up, seeing zayn staring so lovingly at him just like he used to.
they both smiled at each other, going back to enjoy the night.

but zayn had different plans, as he kept drifting his eyes towards the blonde boy, enjoying the beautiful sight in front of him.

how lucky he was, to find an angel with so much love for a man who rarely felt any emotion of love at all.

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now though, he might never get that back.

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