Jules

Song: Last Love Song by ZZ Ward 

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"No, i am not going to tell him Maci." 

"Why not! He deserves to know!" Maci yelled. 

"HE left." I shouted back. 

"He would come back." 

"You don't know how much I actually want to believe that but we both know I would only be getting my hopes up and I can't have that happen. I have a child to think about now!" 

"Your going to have to tell him one day." 

"And I will cross that fucking bridge when it happens." 

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How I am going to tell Ashton? Well, I know I have to use words but how do you tell someone that they have a child and that child happens to be three? I should do this sooner rather than later. I need to control this situation because otherwise I am fucked. 

I walk into the kitchen and I see Ashton sitting by himself. This is it. This is the moment I need to tell him. 

"Ashton, we need to talk." 

He looks up at me with an expression that I cannot read. Great. 

"Yeah, we do," he says quickly. "I think you owe me an explanation."

"Explanation about what?"

"Jules, don't act dumb. Why the fuck did you and Preston decide to get hitched?" 

"You have no room to talk. If I remember right your engaged to Sara." 

"That's different." 

"It's not though." 

"Do you even love me?" He asks. 

"Why does it matter?" I ask. "You are marrying someone else and we will never be together. Ever. So why should I put myself through that shit? Hmm? The day you left was the day that our friendship and whatever fucked up relationship you thought we had, died. It died. So to answer your question, no, I don't love you anymore Ashton. That kind of love died for us. I love you for different reasons." 

"Why did you marry Preston?" 

"Because he asked me to." 

"No shit. Why did he ask you to, Jules? Tell me the truth." 

"I-I got pregnant." 

Dead silence. All we did was look at each other before he said, "Who is the father?" 

Tears start going down my face, "You are, Ashton." 

"That's a lie." 

"It's the goddamn, truth. 

He is shaking his head, "No No No No No."

"i'm sorry." is all I can manage to say because what are you supposed to say in this moment? "Your the sperm donor but Preston is basically the father." No, you wait to see what he is going to do because I have had time to come to terms with this and he hasn't. Well, we will see if he even comes to terms with this. 

His head shoots up and he asks, "Has Preston been playing daddy to my daughter?" 

"Correction, she is my daughter." 

"If you would have told me; I would have been there for you." 

"Ashton, you didn't even answer any phone calls of mine at all. What was I supposed to do? Leave a voice-mail saying I was pregnant? Hmm?"

"You should have tried harder!" He roared.

"Don't act like you care now!" says Preston. 

Both Ashton and I turn to him. Great, I  really should't have said anything. 

"Do you enjoy playing daddy to a child that isn't even yours?" asks Ashton. 

"I am sure a hell a lot better than her biological father. I fucking stepped up unlike you, Ashton." 

"I wasn't given a chance to step up!" 

Preston points at Ashton and yells,"You bastard! You basically told her that you would never choose her. What is she supposed to do? Wait for you? That would have taken decades maybe even lifetimes."

"I would have figured something out if I knew she was pregnant with my child." 

"STOP!" I shout. "THIS FUCKING ENDS NOW!"

Dead silence again but I can feel the tension. 

I finally spoke up again, "Preston, thank you for defending me but I can handle this. Ashton, Preston was there for me when you weren't and don't give me the reasoning that you would have been because the truth is you wouldn't have been and you probably won't now." 

"Do you honestly think that low of me?"

I stare at him with a blank stare, "Yes," I deadpanned. 

"You didn't even give me a chance," he counters. 

"You had a chance with my heart and you broke me. My daughter is my heart and soul and I couldn't allow you to break her like you broke me." 

"So you let her believe that Preston is her father." 

"No, thats not how it happened." 

"Then please fucking explain." 

"She knows who you are." 

"Who is Preston to her?"

I sigh, "Her uncle. Is this all you care about? That Preston has been the main male figure in her life? Shit, you didn't even ask about her well-being or what she even looks like." 

"I'm still in shock." 

"So what are you going to do now?" asks Preston.

"I have to talk to Sara about this." Ashton replies.

"She already fucking knows, Ashton!"

"What?!? No, she doesn't. She would have told me unlike you."

I let out a humorless laugh, "God, your such a fucking idiot. She would do anything to keep her claws in you. Why can't you fucking see that?"

"Jules, you have no idea what your talking abour or any idea about my relationship with her." 

"No, Ashton that is where you are wrong. I have every idea about your "relationship;" It's you who doesn't have a fucking clue." 

"Why would Jules lie, Ashton?" asks Preston.

"Why are you even apart of this conversation?" asks Ashton.

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Hey guys, so that happened. It's not exactly the way I thought it would go but it went. Trust me it is just going to get better from here. So rate, comment and read: )