Twelve - Never Enough

// I don't know if I've mentioned their home room teacher yet, sorry if I changed it accidentally. And also I don't know how graduation stuff works because I haven't graduated yet and I'm not from the UK or USA so it's probably different here




Saturday




I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock and sat up quickly. "Today's the day", I mumbled to myself while turning the alarm off. I jumped out of bed and walked to my bathroom. I took my underwear off and stepped in the shower. I washed myself, stepped out and wrapped a towel around my waist. I ruffled my hair and brushed my teeth. I rinsed my mouth and walked out of the bathroom.


I pulled on underwear and ruffled my hair with the towel. I pulled on black skinny jeans and walked back to the bathroom. I styled my hair, leaving them a bit messy looking and walked back to my room. I sighed and picked up my phone. "Hello", I said and sat on my unmade bed. "Happy birthday Zaynie!", my best friend yelled through the phone. I laughed and felt myself blushing. "Thank you Tommo", I said and looked at the floor smiling.


"Are we meeting behind the school today?", he asked and I chuckled. "Always", I said and he hummed. "I gotta go now mate, I don't wanna be late", I told him and got up from the bed. "Okay, see you soon buddy", he said and hung up. I pulled on a navy blue collar shirt and buttoned it.


I packed my backpack and headed out the door. I pulled on my white Converse and stepped out of the door. "Zayn", I heard someone call after me and turned around. "Yes?", I asked looking at Mark and Rose. "Do you need a ride?", Rose asked smiling and I shook my head. "No, thank you", I told her and turned around again. "See you soon!", I called after me and headed to school.


Soon I was at the school and walked to where Louis was with Harry and Niall. "Good morning!", I yelled smiling and my friends chuckled. "You're in a good mood", Harry said and I chuckled. "I am", I said and fished a cigarette from my pocket. I lit it and sucked on it. "Why so?", Niall asked and I looked at him. "We're graduating, I'm moving out and it's my birthday", I said smiling. "Oh yea, happy birthday", Niall said and hugged me. "Thank you", I said smiling. "Happy birthday", Harry said and I smiled at him. "Thanks", I said.


"Are you going to your apartment after school?", Louis asked and I nodded. "I am, I just need to get my clothes from Mark and Rose's house", I said and he nodded. "I can help you with that", Louis said and I smiled. "Thanks", I said and dropped my cigarette on the ground. I stepped on it and we headed inside. Harry and Niall went to their class and Louis and I went to ours.


We walked to our home room and sat down. Mrs. Smith stepped in the room and smiled to us. "Good morning class", she said smiling. "Good morning", we said back and she nodded. She checked who's present and who isn't and continued. "You should get your academic dresses from your lockers and put them on", she spoke. "Come back here after you've done it so we can head to the gym together", she continued and we walked out of the class.


Louis and I walked to our lockers which were next to each others and put the outfits on. It was a black gown with blue on the shoulders. Louis looked at me and laughed. "You don't look too good either, I wouldn't be laughing if I were you", I told him and chuckled. "Let's go", he said still chuckling and we walked back to the class.


We waited for everyone to get to the class and headed out together. We walked to the gym and sat down to our seats. After a while the ceremony started with our principal's speech. The ceremony was soon over and I was finally done with school.


We were standing in front of the school in our normal clothes and talking. "Can you believe that this is it? We're free now", Louis said smiling and I chuckled. "Yea, it's kinda hard to believe", I said. "Of course it is", Louis said and laughed. After a while of talking Mark and Rose walked to us and I sighed to myself. "Congratulations guys", Rose said smiling and hugged Louis and me. "Thank you", we said at the same time and chuckled a little. "Did you graduate?", she asked from Niall and Harry. They shook their heads and I chuckled. "They're a bit younger than us", I said and she nodded smiling.


"Do you need a ride home?", Mark asked and I looked at Louis. "Do you wanna walk or?", I asked and he looked at Rose. "Could you drive us?", he asked and Rose smiled. "Of course", she said and Louis smiled to her. "Okay then, we're going guys", I said to Niall and Harry. "See you soon", Louis said and hugged them. I hugged them too and we followed Mark and Rose to their car.


Louis and I got to the backseat and put our seat belts on. "How was your day boys?", Rose asked and Mark started the car. "It was good, I had fun", I said and Louis nodded agreeing. "When are you moving out Zayn?", Mark asked and I bit my lower lip gently. "Today, I'll just grab my clothes and stuff", I said and Mark hummed. "Good", he said and I nodded a bit even though he couldn't see me.


"You can still visit us sometimes if you want", Rose said and I hummed. "Of course", I said knowing that I didn't want to see them ever again. Mark parked the car in front of their house and we got out of the car. We headed inside and kicked our shoes off. "Come on", I told Louis and jogged up to my room. "Why are you always so awkward around Mark?", Louis asked closing the door to my room.


"I'll tell you when I'm out of this house", I told him and stuffed clothes in a suitcase. "Can you get my toothbrush and other stuff from the bathroom?", I asked. "Yep", he said and walked in the bathroom. I closed the suitcase and sighed. "Here you go", Louis said and handed me a bag with my stuff. "Thanks", I said and placed the bag on my bed. I sat down on the bed and Louis sat next to me.


"Zaynie", he said and took my hand in his. "Yea Tommo?", I asked looking down at our hands. "Are you okay?", he asked and I chuckled. "Why are you asking suddenly?", I asked looking at him in the eyes and he sighed. "I found something from the bathroom", he said and my heart started to race. "Yea?", I asked licking my lips and let out a breath that I was holding. "Do you cut?", he asked and I almost choked on my saliva. I cleared my throat and looked down to our hands again.


"I don't know, kinda", I said quietly. "What do you mean you don't know?", he asked and I felt tears fall down my cheeks. "I used to, I guess", I told him and looked at him in the eyes. "You're not doing it anymore?", he asked and I shook my head. "Okay, that's good", he said and I nodded. "Don't cry", he said and wiped the tears from my face. "You should've told me, I would've helped you", he said and I nodded. "I'm sorry", I said and he shook his head. "You don't have to be sorry", he said and pulled me against his chest.


Louis lied down on the bed and pulled me on him. I rested my head on his chest and he ran his fingers up and down my back, trying to soothe me. "It's okay", he told me and I hummed. "I'll tell you everything after I get out of this house, I promise", I told him quietly. "Okay", he said quietly and I sighed.


Wanna pull an all-nighter


And get into something we'll never forget


Wanna stay up and party


The weekend away and not know when to quit


Wanna drive in the night to the end of the earth


And go over the edge


// I'm going to write Liam and Zayn's date on the next chapter because this is already quite long :) Also I don't remember if Louis knew about Zayn cutting, so I'll check and change the ending if he knew



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