Sunday

I woke up with a bounding headache, groaned and buried my face further in to the pillow. Someone walked in the room and I lifted my head to see who it was. "Liam?", I asked and started to look around. Yep, I wasn't in Louis' room like I was planned on. "Hey, do you remember anything?", he asked and I shook my head. He sat at the edge of the bed, handed me painkillers and a glass of water. I reached out for them and realized that I was just wearing my t-shirt. The arm with the cuts was still under the blanket but he must have noticed them yesterday when he took my jacket off, if he even was the one who took it off.

I popped the pills in my mouth and took the glass from Liam. I swallowed the pills, handed the glass back to Liam and fell back to the pillow. I closed my eyes because the room was too bright and sighed. "Can you tell me what happened?", I asked and he let out a small chuckle. "Basically you just appeared here really drunk and I put you to bed", he said with a chuckle and I opened my eyes so I could look at him. "I'm sorry", I said and he send me a nice smile. "It's okay", he said.

"Ready to have some breakfast?", he asked and I shrugged. "Can I..um borrow a shirt from you?", I asked and he raised his eyebrows. "You have a shirt on", he said. "Long sleeved one", I said and he licked his lips. "You know I saw your arm last night", he said and I felt myself blush. "I know, I just don't want to look at them", I said and he nodded. He got up and walked in his closet. "I'm gonna leave the shirt here, come to the kitchen when you're ready", he said and I nodded. He walked out of the room and I sat up on the bed.

I got up, stripped my t-shirt off and sighed. I ran my fingers over the few days old scars and pulled on the shirt Liam left me. It was a normal maroon sweater. I walked out of the door and headed in the kitchen. "Hey", I said to Liam who sat at the table. He looked up and smiled. "Sit down", he said and I sat opposite from him and looked down to the plate that had eggs, bacon, beans and some other stuff. "Thanks", I said and he nodded. We started to eat and it was a bit awkward.

"Do you wanna talk about something?", I asked and he looked up from his plate. "Huh?", he asked. "I don't know, this just feels awkward so I thought maybe it would be better if you could ask me what you're thinking", I said and he nodded. "Okay, why do you do it?", he asked. "I'm sad, I feel like it helps", I said and he nodded a bit. "It doesn't, you know that right?", he asked and I nodded. "I know", I said.

"How long have you..?", he asked. "For a while, couple of weeks", I said and he nodded. "Because you blame yourself for what happened to your family?", he asked and I nodded. "You shouldn't, it's not your fault", he said and I nodded. "I know, I just can't help it", I said. "When was the last time?", he asked. "Couple of days ago", I said and he nodded. "But you make me feel better", I said and he smiled. "That's good", he said and I gave him a smile.

We finished our breakfast and took our plates to the sink. I leaned my back to the counter and Liam gave me a small smile. "Did I tell you why I came here last night?", I asked and he stood in front of me. "Not really, no, you just walked in when I opened the door and started to talk about everything", he said with a small chuckle. "What did I say?", I asked. "You just spoke about your family, how you miss them and all", he said and I nodded. "Yea, I do miss them", I said and he gave me a small smile. "Yea, but you're gonna be okay, you know", he said and I nodded. "I know", I said and he stepped closer to me so our faces were just few inches apart.

"Can I ask you something?", I asked and he nodded. "Why didn't you go to the police after you found out that I've been abused?", I asked. "I thought you didn't want me to go", he said and I nodded. "Yea, thank you that you didn't, I don't wanna make a big deal about it", I said and he let out a small chuckle. "I mean, it's a pretty big deal", he said and I shrugged. I bit my lower lip and he dropped his eyes to my lips. "Don't do that", he said quietly and I released my lip. "Why?", I asked. "Because it makes me want to kiss you", he said and I blushed.

He placed his other hand on my waist and cupped my cheek with the other one. "I want to kiss you so bad", he said leaning his forehead on mine and I let out a small chuckle. "Yea", I just said and placed my hands on his waist. He ran his thumb over my lower lip never taking his eyes off of my lips. My phone rang and I fished it out of my pocket. "Heyo", I said looking at Liam who had not moved. "Where the hell are you, mate? Do you know how worried I was when I woke up and you weren't here?", Louis spoke and I let out a small chuckle. "Sorry about that and it doesn't matter", I told him.

"Oh, so you're with Mr. Payne", he said and I felt myself blush. "Sorry, did I interrupt anything?", he asked and I chuckled. "Shut it Tommo", I said smiling. "Yea, anyway Zaynie", he said and I hummed. "It's a week until your birthday and I wanna throw you a party", he spoke and I groaned. "Please don't", I said. "Why?", he asked. "You know that I don't like parties, you know that I don't like people", I said and heard Louis sigh on the other line.

"Fine but what if it's just you, me, Harry, Niall and Mr. Payne?", he asked and I could hear the smirk in his voice. "No, Tommo no", I said moving away from Liam. "Okay, whatever", he said and I sighed. "Thank you", I said. "Okay, anyway, I gotta go now, have fun and use protection, love you", he said and I rolled my eyes. "Fuck off, love you too", I said hanging up and turned around to look at Liam. "Louis was worried", I said and he nodded. I shoved my phone in my pocket and fished out a cigarette.

I showed it to Liam before I walked out. I stepped out of the house and lit the cigarette. I sucked on it and breathed out the smoke. After a while Liam stepped out too and I smiled to him. I pushed the cigarette towards him and he shook his head. I nodded and breathed in the smoke. "You should stop smoking", Liam said and I nodded blowing the smoke out. "I know, it's expensive", I said with a chuckle. "Have you tried to stop?", he asked and I nodded. "Yea I tried, but this whole situation has been quite stressful so I started to smoke again", I said and he nodded.

I took one last breath of smoke, dropped the stub on the ground and stepped on it. "Can you take me home?", I asked looking at Liam and he nodded. I gave him a small smile and we stepped back inside. We walked in his room and I stripped my, well Liam's, shirt off and threw it on the bed. I pulled on my t-shirt and the denim jacket. I walked in front of the mirror and played with my hair a little. I sighed and mumbled a 'fuck it' before stepping away from the mirror. "You look fine, don't worry about it", Liam said and I gave him a weak smile.

We walked downstairs, pulled our shoes on and stepped out. We got in Liam's car and buckled ourselves in. "Can I ask you a favor?", Liam asked starting the car and I nodded. "I still owe you one from when you let me sleep at your place for the first time", I said and he chuckled. "No, you don't but anyway", he said and I kept my eyes on him even though he was looking at the road. "Can you try to be without cutting?", he asked and looked at me. "For me?", he asked and I looked at the road. "Uh, yea, i guess", I said looking back at him and he smiled.

"Thank you, if you feel the need to, just call me or something, whenever", he said and I nodded with a smile on my face. We stayed quiet for the rest of the ride but it wasn't awkward, it was actually quite perfect. Liam parked the car in front of my house and I was about to get out when he stopped me. "Wait, can I ask you something?", he asked and I nodded closing the door. "It's your birthday soon, you'll be eighteen and out of school", he said and I nodded again. "And I was wondering", he said and I nodded as in to say 'go on'. "Would you like to go on a date with me?", he asked and I bit my lower lip. "First tell me, how old are you?", I asked with a chuckle and he rolled his eyes smiling. "I'm just 23, I'm not that old", he said and I nodded.

"Yea, I'd love to", I said smiling and he nodded smiling. "Yea? Good", he said and I nodded. "So, Saturday evening?", he asked and I nodded. "Okay, I'll pick you up at like, six?", he asked. "Yea, six is good", I said and he nodded smiling. "Oh how I wish I could kiss you right now", he said and I blushed. "You could", I said and he shook his head. "We have to wait, six more days", he said and I nodded. "I'll see you tomorrow", I said and he nodded. "See you and remember to call if you need someone to talk to", he said and I nodded with a chuckle. "Bye", I said smiling. "Bye", he said and I left the car.

I walked inside, kicked my shoes off and headed in my room. I locked the door, took my notebook from my backpack and sat on the bed. I gathered my thoughts before I started to write and smiled a bit. Six more days until I was free, six more days until I could get a boyfriend. I smiled and started to write. When I was done, I closed the notebook and shoved it under my pillow.

What a feeling to be right here beside you now

Holding you in my arms

When the air ran out and we both started running wild

The sky fell down

But you've got stars in your eyes

And I've got something missing tonight

What a feeling to be a king beside you

Somehow

I wish I could be there now