Hitting a wall

A/N: A tumblr request about self harm by hitting a wall and comfort for that


"(Name)? I think we need to talk" Midoriya said as he appeared in the kitchen in his boxers and a big t-shirt.


You'd been awake for a while now, it was rare for you to wake up before Midoriya, but it happened sometimes. You'd been sitting in the kitchen with your cup of tea for a while now, without actually drinking it, so it had cooled down quite a bit.


"What about?" you smiled, but it didn't quite seem genuine, and you kept your eyes on the teacup.


Midoriya sat down on the opposite side of the table and you looked up at him. You weren't really sure what emotions you were seeing on his face, besides the obvious worry. A hint of disappointment or anger perhaps.


"You know what. You've been spiraling again" he said softly and reached for your hand, that was wrapped around the teacup.


You let him take it, and move the cup aside. He was drawing circles to the back of your palm with his thumb as he talked.


"You barely eat anymore, and I've noticed the bandages on your hands when you've been hurting yourself. At first I thought you'd just hurt yourself at work like you said, but I now know that's not the case"


"I'm okay, you don't have to worry about me" you said, again with a smile, and again it didn't seem to be genuine.


You had your bandaged hand on your lap and you were pretty much digging your nails into your palm. For a second, you wished he didn't care so much, for a second you thought it would be so much easier to just let him go. It would be easier for him too.


"You know you don't have to lie to me, you know you don't have to keep up this facade with me. I know you think you have to handle everything alone and that you don't need to ask for help, but I want to help you"


You hesitated for a moment, before raising your injured hand on to the table. Midoriya took it with his free hand and observed it for a moment.


"I don't think it's broken, but your knuckles are all bruised and bloody... Does it hurt a lot?" he asked.


You just nodded and said. "But I'm used to it"


"You shouldn't have to be" Midoriya said quietly and turned your hand. "I think we should change the bandages"


MIdoriya stood up, still holding your hand and led you to the bathroom, you didn't say anything, you just followed him. He sat you down on the edge of the tub and started looking for some disinfectant and bandages.


The disinfectant stung a bit, when he wiped your knuckles clean. He was very careful when putting the new bandages on. Stuff like this was pretty familiar to him from his days at UA. He had punched his knuckles bloody a few times when training, so he knew what to do.


"Izuku?" you said quietly.


"Hmm?" he raised his gaze from your hand to your face.


"I'm sorry, I don't want to cause you worry or anything, you know that, right?"


"I know, but I do still worry, it's what I do"


"Yeah, I know" you sighed.


"I just hope that you find enough peace someday that you don't feel the need to hurt yourself" he said and pressed a gentle kiss on top of the bandages.


"Me too"

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