𝑶𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒂 𝒑𝒐𝒗

1 month later....

"You've been good to me you know." I whisper sitting in the tub with him.

It's weird but we act normal?...yes we still fight but things have settled and I'm happy.

I'm still not pregnant but this women gave me some things for the sex and it'll be weird but I guess people believe in these remedies more then a doctor.

I know I'm suppose to try and be pregannt before I'm nineteen. A child does solodfy a lot. So it having Ariette and dante blood. Being able to be a mafia leader for two mafias is a lot. He or she would be powerful...and have a lot to take on.

But we need two kids...just so it's not too much. One for the Santino mafia and another for the Italian mafia.

They don't have to go through arranged marriages though. They can love whoever they want. Our alliance is just a unification for people to fear us mostly and make the mafias stronger.

I'm scared to be a mother. I don't know if I'd be good enough. And now looking at it...my mom wasn't exactly as perfect as my seven year old self thought. I understand now why my father was always like that. Everyone knew how in love he was with her but...I guess that things happen?

"That's al you'll say?...good?" He laughs.

He's sitting behind me and I'm in between his legs playing with the stupid bubbles. We're too comfortable with each other. I don't think anything wrong with it. But he even let me wax his hairs down there.

Well didn't let me but I got it out of him. He did the same for me but I'm used to it. He tested up and groaned saying never again which was funny.

He doesn't even realize he likes being treated like a baby. He likes the affection but he's horrible with words. So he gets tangled and uses his anger to push me away.

The alliance is going strong. And I'm happy almost?

"Amazing? " I change and he just stays quiet.

"Do you want to leave the city?" He asks out of no where.

"What?.." I laugh.

"I mean I have business in Milan with just shipments but I can take you around the city since you've never been." He says. He was just suppose to go by himself. A day trip.

"Yeah...that would be nice." I smile and I can feel my cheeks just heat.

"I leave to Puerto Rico again next week." I say.

"Really?"

"There's so many buisness offerings. I just want to seal some deals. And I don't think Antonio is handling too much." I admit.

"You shouldn't have him as your right hand Odina."

"Luca.."

"He's your brother...no one knows that yet. But they'll start putting things together since too many people know now. You don't even realize how much of a dangerous position you're putting him in. They'd come for him to get to you. And if you fall..."

"Then you fall as well." I finish for him taking it in.

"Can we talk about these type of things when we're actually working." I whisper.

"Yeah." He doesn't argue but he wants to keep speaking. He's gotten better at listening to me. 

But...

It's how he still does things without telling me. He would tell me days after he's done things that's affected both of us. It's hard.

I place my hand on my neck thinking to grab my mothers necklace then forget...

I gave it to that girl.

But I shake away her face. Knowing Luca doesn't want to talk about her and we'd just fight.

I put my head back onto his chest and his hand moves up and down my arm as we just sit in the warm water full of bubbles.

....

Lucas head lays on my chest. His whole body is laying on me weighing me down. He's heavy.

But both my hands still massage his thick black hair.

He's sleeping and I just can't sleep.

Something is going to happen I feel it. Whenever I get this content bad things always happen.

2 days later...

"I don't know how you're not pregnant yet. It's been almost four months." He says as I look at these remedies or whatever .

"She said to pray together for a child. That would bring us haleness and stability but...we've done that. Now we just have to do these things maybe I'll hopefully be pregannt by next month." I say.

"She said not to ride and let the semen stay inside me for like two minutes. And for you to be as affectionate as possible throughout the entire time. Because it's not just sex but it's...love." The word stings.

I don't love him. I feel like i never would and he would never love me. Not like...

Marice.

I almost forgot about her. What is going on with me lately?

He sits on the edge of the bed completely naked and I stand in front of him trying to remember what to do.

"And all these women give you advice on things like this all the time?"

"There like councils. They're lovely and even if they're harsh they help a lot. One thing I love about this Italian mafia is them and their generosity." I admit.

"Oil on my dick?"

"No...it's like a ...treatment I don't know just trust me." I groan and he chuckles. I had to fill the room with essence. Kind of like meditation it's calming though.

"So just make love to your body?" He asks.

"She said not to hold back. To make love to all of me but that wouldn't work because we haven't confessed any of our emotions to each other."

"So you love me?" He asks and I shake my head no.

"I don't.." I admit.

"Me either." He says honestly and I just nod.

I take whatever this is and make a huge cross on his chest.

I move the oil thing down to his...man hood and slowly give him a handjob. He just stares with a smirk clearly enjoying it.

"Do I get to do anything to you?" He asks.

"No. Just fill me up....completely. And don't pull out for awhile." I say slowly lowering myself onto him.

Always forget how big he is.

"Man on top?" He asks and I nod.

He flips us over so that now I'm on laying on the bed. He's over me and he starts to move in and out of me slowly.

I place my hands on the sides of his arms as he kisses on my neck softly.

"Fuck..." he groans and my mouth falls as he pushes into me to go as deep as possible.

I look down and can't help but watch it slide in and out of me...

I look back up and his pace fastens.

"Oh my god-/" I moan as he places his hands on the top of my thighs spreading my legs a little more for better access.

"Feels so good princess." He whispers and I just nod enjoying the slow deep strokes.

This feels much better then his roughness...actually no.

....

"I'm close..." I moan as my head tilts back.

"Okay well hurry."

He's joking?

My nails dig into his chest as I come undone under him. He keeps goings though and I just rest my hands on his chest as he pumps in and out of me.

He's been going slow and barely left my eye contact which made me melt.

He places his hands on the sides of my neck and just stares at me.

I moan softly as he sucks on my bob before coming up to kiss me.

I smile as he moans my name as he comes inside me. So much...

I'm panting and so is he. He starts kissing on my chest and neck before kissing me for damn long.

"Please give me a baby." He whispers and I roll my eyes as it's been long enough.

He slowly pulls out and I can feel it just come out of me. Great. And now I have to change the sheets.