author note: no they don't have feelings for each other. I hope you guys somehow see that they are both horrible people at the moment. Even da Vinci. You'll see that later though. Luca isn't good with words that's why he never tries. Odina just wants some respect and comfort. They still basically live separate lives. And for the next couple of chapters they still won't have feelings. They're doing this mostly for there mafias. They have a duty and they were literally raised to fulfill there duty to do whatever's best for there mafia.

also at the end they don't touch each other. He just plants hickies on her neck and they have long kisses. That's it. He isn't allowed to touch her in places like that yet. He's good at keeping himself together. Yet finds ways to have fun...

𝑶𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒂 𝒑𝒐𝒗

3 weeks later....

Christmas. It's been three weeks since Carlos death and everyday gets. Me and Luca have went this whole month without speaking. Other then meetings or about the mafia. No other conversations.

I don't even talk to da Vinci that much because it hurt how you knew the whole time. I feel stuck and don't know where to go.

I loved that boy with my heart and it just...broke me?

Maybe that's how Luca felt and that's why he set the whole thing up.

For me to get to know a boy for almost two months just to have him taken like that. But he knew her for years. So it was worse. Da Vinci seems to be on the outs with Luca as well.

My dress is more modest tonight. We already finished dinner and now there are gifts. There's a lot of his family and I haven't seen any of mine in so long.

People say how sick my father has gotten but I don't know if it's bad I want him gone. He's caused so much pain. And nothing more.

The santino mafia is doing so good. And calm. I'm happy though.

I wasn't even wearing makeup tonight and I've just changed into some jeans and a red tank top with a jacket over. It's already eight. The dinner I was quiet a lot. Only spoke when spoken too. That's usually how I always was. Luca didn't speak though. Barely only a couple words.

I move my hand to the cross necklace around my neck that I've been wearing more often. I don't know but I find myself going into the church instead of downstairs.

When I walk in I see Luca sitting in the front row looking up at the large cross.

I know he hears me as I walk down the alley and sit next to him.

He's just in black sweats and black shirt and he looks so..hot but..I wish his personality was better.

I just want him to be a little more open with me. I don't expect much but...it would be better if we tried?

"Even a demon wishes for things sometimes.." he breaks the silence as I just stare outside at the window looking at the stars.

"I'm a sin." He breathes.

"I think we're both sinners..to roam the earth." I'm just as bad as him. It's just because I'm young but I've killed hundreds at a young age. Some my father forced but others I did it out of pure anger or hatred. I feel like I have this demon inside me that I try pushing down but...it's going to consume me.

The difference is...Luca expresses it.

He looks over at me and I look at him.

"I'm sorry." I finally admit.

"I know I'm not your ideal Italian women. And I'm sorry for murdering Marice. I was angry. And I know how much you guys meant to each other. I would never purposely take something that made a guy like you happy." I speak and his eyes soften a little.

"I just wish you would talk to me. You're an amazing leader. And I respect you. And I swore to always be by your side."

"I'm just tired of all of this. And scared. I don't want to ask for a lot. But I just wish you would try empathizing for us to work." I state and feel my eyes water.

He just looks down and I know it'll never work. Even if I cry he would not cry.

"Carlos was meant to hurt you. And he did. I shouldn't have went that far but I wanted you to hurt and I took joy in hearing you cry. As wrong at it is I like when problem suffer just through my own hands. I'm not good and Marice is the last. It's been months. She did mean something but...she's dead." He says the hard truth.

"You're stubborn and so fucking annoying."

Wow.

"But you have helped with this mafia. And I will do the same even if we disagree. I do care. I just don't know how to deal with affect ruin." He admits and this is the most he's let me in for.

I think his words are stuck and I don't want things to be awkward.

I just press my lips against his and kiss him softly.

"Let's just go back to before?"

How do I miss our relationship before. I think we've both relaxed us not speaking to each other won't do us good.

He just nods while kissing me back. I don't know if I'm eating his face out but I kind of missed his touch.

"And can you stop fighting with Da Vinci? it's weird not having you guys always speaking in Italian trying to hide things from me." I laugh and so does he a little.

"I will try to." I think da Vinci know Luca more then he knows himself.

Luca is horrible at apologizing but I think I understand where he comes from so I don't push.

You can tell his intentions.

My hands place on his chest as his hand grabs the side of my cheek.

"You really are beautiful...you know." He whispers.

I just smile and kiss him again softly.

....

Luca hands me one of my gifts and this is the second Christmas I've spent with them. Kind of weird.

But it's nice I guess that they actually have one day to leave every chaotic thing behind.

"Oh my god I've wanted these for so long." I open the box to see the red strapped heels. I think I'm going to cry.

"Open that for later." Luca threatens seriously as I grab another box...

I just nod and put it down.

I end up getting so many dresses and just girl products for skin or body. But it was amazing. His family is kind of harsh but some members are really sweet.

I finally open the box when I'm in my room by myself.

My eyes widen at a thin lace set.

He's joking. Please tell me this isn't some prank.

I pull out a note.

'My room'

He has to be joking.

𝑳𝒖𝒄𝒂 𝒑𝒐𝒗

The door opens to Odina.

She's in a red silk robe and she closes my door gently locking it knowing there are some people who crashed.

She walks up to me as I'm sitting on the edge of the bed.

She looks nervous.

She stands in between my legs and just stares into my eyes as I slowly undo the robe.

Holy fuck.

The robe slides off her body and I see her in light blue lace set I bought her. It barely covers anything and I know she wears lace a lot. I bought it to tease her.

I was going to try make things right tonight but we already fixed that before.

Her cheeks are turning red...literally and she looks embarrassed.

I stand up as I run my hand up her thigh seeing goosebumps form on her skin.

I pick up the bottle of henssy from the stand next to my bed.

My hand wraps around her throat and she already knows to open her mouth. I pour some of the liquid into her mouth and she gulps it down as I take some in my own mouth.

"You look...hot." I smile placing with the string of her panties. I want to pull them off but I can't do that. I can't do anything but watch.

Her body is beyond incredible. I shouldn't touch but I can't help myself.

.....

I'm drunk and she's drunk and now her ass is shaking on my dick as I throw money on her.

Too fucking high for this.

I've realized we only let loose when we're not sober.

I didn't know she can twerk. She's given me quiet a show the past hour.

But we will go back to normal by tomorrow.

She finally stand up and faces me. I grab her neck with both my hands before kissing her deeply. Her tongue is cool and glides with mine so well.

She pulls away before moving into my bed I know she loves bevause it's comfortable.

This would be the fourth time we've shared a bed together.

I get into bed with her and hover over her. She giggles so innocently and covers the blanket over both our heads as I kiss all over her neck.

In second I have her moaning my name as I suck on her neck harshly. For the first time to leave my majoring in her body.