I am and always will be nothing special. Playing games will be my only potential.

How matter how hard I try it'll be futile. I try so hard sometimes it makes me go hostile.

You know, sometimes I don't know what to do. But all I want to be is with you.

But there are moments where I feel like nothing special. Every realization is very fatal.

I'm nothing special if you compare the specialness with everyone. Moments like those is when I'm done.

But I can't seem to let it go. Even when I think he last one is the final blow.

I don't know why I feel this way. I don't know, that's what all I can say.

I'm emotional, I just found out that recently. All I want is to live peacefully.

But with all these emotions make it seem like dreams. My life is hard to get, that's what it seems.

I hate these obstacles that I make for myself. Sometimes I feel scared to ask for help.

There are moments where I try to do things alone. Most of my life doing things alone is what I've been known.

But imma try my best to get over it. But it's really hard with all this shit.

...I'll do my best, that seems to be the only thing I can do now. We'll see how this turns out now...

But the power of God will lead me to another path! One that will make me feel better without wrath!

A time where I can truly be happy. I'll have to fight to get it sadly.

But with the lord, he'll give me strength. To help me get though this game called Life, without repent.