"I had to learn how to stitch up my own wounds."
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"I lost mine." I loudly sighed as I walked out of the OR and took off my scrub cap. "I lost the patient."

I looked around and spotted that I wasn't the only one who was in a bad mood. Burke, Derek, Addison, and Bailey looked the same as I did. "Did you guys?" I asked and all they did was nod.

With one last look at each other, we went our separate ways.

One of the first days, since the incident in my kitchen, when my mind was calm, it probably had something to do with the fact that my day started horribly.

Mark was back in New York, I was in Seattle, and nothing will happen ever again, at least that was what I tried to tell myself day over day, but somehow my brain kept recalling all the things he had said.

The kiss brought back the good

Maybe just one kiss

It was as if he needed to kiss me to forget me. Of course, I wanted to continue the kiss, to do more than that but I knew I couldn't.

This man is Mark Sloan. He's the biggest manwhore in the world, and there was no way he would ever think of me as something more than just a little fling or a one-night stand.

"Earth to Malia?" I snapped out of the zoom I was in when I saw Addison clipping her fingers together in front of my face. "You there?"

"Yeah, sorry. Just thinking about-...stuff." I murmured.

"Well, I made you some hot cocoa, it's because of the bad juju" she explained and shoved the thing in my hands. "Come on, Mals. Chop, chop. We still have lives to save today." enthusiastically called Addison and danced away.

I looked at the cocoa before shrugging my shoulders and taking a sip.

As I was walking down to the pit my mind went somewhere else, and I only snapped out of it when I realized that nobody had actually paged me. Weird.

I turned around and walked back to the lounge. At least today we have some free time. But as I said this I got a page. Looking down at it I saw that it was Cristina. "Why?" I groaned and rolled my eyes, but picked myself up and left the lounge.

"Hey." Derek smiled, I did the same. "We should really hang out, like, go drinking or something?"

"Uh, yeah. That would fun." I gave Derek another smile. I knew that I should've been ashamed of what I did a week ago, but somehow the shame of not talking to Derek, and distracting myself from him has gone away. And I was happy about it since I can't even remember the last time we did something together.

"Tonight maybe, if you aren't busy?" he suggested. I nodded and we both walked to the CT room seeing as Dr. Yang had paged us both.

As we entered a corridor I saw that Derek bumped into someone, that someone being Meredith." Hey!" Derek and Meredith exclaimed with big smiles on their faces. I still couldn't believe they were just friends by the way they were looking at each other.

As Meredith was about ask something Addison came out of the elevator and walked towards us. "Oh hey." she greeted. I gave her a quick glance with a smile.

"Well, this is awkward," I mumbled just so that Derek could hear me. I saw him glance down at me but say nothing. As we all parted ways most awkward way possible, I went with Derek.

"It's not awkward, Malia. We're friends you know, we're growing." Derek tried his best to explain, but it was hard to even hear him.

"Do you even know Meredith?" I sighed. Derek furrowed. "She won't be friends with Addie, she's just not that girl you know. There is no way they will be friends." I chuckled.

"Why?"

"Because they won't. She won't put any effort into it, okay. It happens like that." I finished and we walked inside the room where Cristina had the scans.

We finished looking at the scans and concluded that the surgery needs to be performed today. "Okay, I guess I'll see you in the OR?" I said my goodbyes to Derek and walked away to go and get ready for the surgery.

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𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭
𝐀𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐞𝐬 𝐥𝐞𝐟𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐲 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭
𝐁𝐞𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐦𝐞
𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐦𝐞

𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐈 𝐠𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐚 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝
𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬
𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐝 𝐮𝐩 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭
𝐇𝐚𝐝 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞
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"Alright everybody, it's a beautiful afternoon to save lives, let's have some fun." Derek said the magical words and gave me a quick smile which I returned.

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"We need a drink." I sighed as I took off my scrub cap. "Maybe two." I stared at Derek who looked lost. "Derek, it's okay. It happens okay, we both lost two patients today, it happens, but we have to get over it." I comforted Derek.

After a moment of silence he mumbled in an agreement and we walked to Joe's.

"So, you were the sixth patient?" Addison sat down next to us. Both of us nodded, clearly in our thoughts. "Okay, let's do something to cheer you up." called Addison. "Mals, tell us about your week."

"Uh-...n-nothing much, just the regular." I quickly answered. "I mean, I'm still worried about Scarlett because the money hasn't been going through, but I'm starting to think that it's probably because they finally settled down." I decided to get out of a sticky situation using Scarlett. I truly was worried about her.

"I don't understand, why can't you just go fight for her." Furrowed Addison. "You can get proof that something is going on where they live and maybe, with enough bargaining you will be able to adopt her."

"Addison, have you seen me?" I coughed. "There is no way I would be able to live with a kid and still have a neurosurgeon career, I am too young for that." I laughed at her suggestion. "I am not mother-type, I won't be good at it so why even try?"

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A little cliffhanger in the end. I'm still thinking about the whole Scarlett storyline and where it should go and how it should go.

I want to spoil a little on this not fully thought-out decision of mine, I just want to see what you think of it.

Maybe I could do this book till the end of season 8, and then the next book would be like a time jump to after Derek dies. Like.

Malia Grey returns. Or something.

Of course I can't promise you guys anything, cuz I only yesterday thought of this idea, but what are your thoughts? Is it a great idea?