Time Skip 2 years I'm sorrryyyyyyy

John POV
Alex and I have been dating for almost 3 years now, but I'm scared. The past few months he comes back to the dorms late every night. Whenever I try to ask him about it, he completely avoids the question.
I stopped taking my meds.
Didn't tell him.
I glance down at my watch.
2 am.
I can't handle this anymore.
I slide down the wall, my knees close to my chest.
Heart wrenching sobs tore through my body.
I feel a coldness wash over me and I let my dark thoughts overwhelm me.
He's cheating.
He wouldn't, he loves me.
He never loved you
But-
Who could, you will always be a dirty useless, unloveable creature.
Y-your wrong!
Deep down you know I'm right.
He never loved you, he never will.
I burst into tears and internally yell at myself for being so stupid. "Honey, I'm home- oh my god John! What happened?!" Alex says as he rushes through the door to hug me. I push him away and sob harder. "Jacky, love, please tell me what's wrong!" he whispers, tears now pricking his own eyes. "A-are you cheating on me?!" I manage to choke out. He looks at me in horror, tears streaming down his face. He slowly cups my cheeks and brushes away a few of my tears. "John Laurens, I love you more than anything under the sun. I would do anything for you, anything to see your sweet smile.I love you with every ounce of my heart. I wouldn't dream of cheating on you."
"What about the late nights, Alexander?! What about avoiding my questions?!" I yell, now standing up. "John," He whispers. "I got another job"
"Alex, I told you I can pay the-"
"You can't pay for this."
"What...?"
"John." He shakily gets down on one knee and takes my hands. "I know the timing isn't good but I loved you from the moment I met you. Everytime i see you, I fall in love with you  all over again. Before I knew you, I didn't think I had a purpose in life. You were the first person who stuck around, you were the first person to love me for the broken pieces that I am." He says, pulling a small velvet box out of his pocket. "John, you are my whole world, you gave a purpose in life. Will you make me the happiest man in the universe and marry me?"

Wait for it...

Wait for it...

Wait....

Sorry, I had too.

3rd Person POV
Time stopped.
John stared down at Alex in shock. "John, I-I'm sorry if this was too soon, It's just that I love you, I-I love you so damn much, and I w-want to spend the rest of my life with you." Alex stuttered nervously. John continued to stare at him, Alex's words not processing through his head. A moment passed and John still hadn't moved. "I'm so sorry John...I should go..." Alex mumbled, beginning to stand up. Without warning, John tackled Alex to the ground and began to cry again. Within a few moments, he was laughing into Alex's shoulder. "John, are you-mmph!" Alex was interrupted by John crashing his lips into his. "Of course I'll marry you, you idiot! Ugh- I love you so much! I'm so sorry! I stopped taking my meds and automatically assumed the worse. I love you so damn much!" John said with a burst of energy before kissing Alex again. "I love you John" Alex giggled, lightly pecking John's nose. "I love you more."

this needs so much editing:) guys plz excuse the shit angst 5th grade me wrote smh

-Kai

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