(This is what her bear looked like but smaller btw)

I woke up with a massive headache from last night. I looked at myself in the mirror and I look awful no amount of makeup could fix me right now. My eyes were so puffy, you could tell I was crying which is embarrassing.

I heard a knock on my door.

"come in."

"Oh hey Kendall I came to tell you breakfast is ready and Alessandro is expecting you." Said Lev the driver.

"Ok I'll be down in a minute."

I threw my hair in a bun and went downstairs where all my siblings were seated.

Alessandro patted the seat next to his indicating for me too sit. So I did. Everybody just stared at me.

"Good morning Sorellina." Spoke Alessandro.

"Why are your eyes so red and puffy? Have you been crying?" Spoke Alessandro.

Everyone snapped there head towards me again for the second time.

"Yeah she bawled like a little baby yesterday." Damion said.

Ugh can't he ever just shut up.

"Yeah! Because of you, you asshole!" I shouted back at him.

Everyone looked stunned.

"Kendall language." Said Angelo and Alessandro at the same time.

"Why did he make you cry love?" Said Angelo who was also sitting next to me.

"Because he threw her little bear she got out of a happy meal out the window" Enzo said with a chuckle.

May snorted a bit. My god I'd love to kill every person at this table right now.

"Damion why would you throw her toy out the window?" Said Alessandro.

"Because she wouldn't finish her food."

"Very well then." Said Alessandro.

That's it? He took the one thing away from me that I've never had, and no one cares? They are all just sitting at the table eating their food.

You know what. I'm going to get Fluffy back. I don't care if it makes them mad or if I break the rules. I'm tired of being told I can't have things because I'm too old.

"Kendall is something wrong? You haven't touched your food." Said Angelo.

"She probably just wants to be an attention seeking whore." Said May pouring maple syrup on her pancakes.

"May. Do not disrespect your sister." Spoke Alessandro coldly.

I'm pretty sure it sent shivers down her spine because she fixed her act almost immediately.

"Sorry Alessandro, sorry Kendall I'm just a bit tired..." said May in the fakest tone ever. Yeah, I bet your sorry b*tch.

"Can we go to the beach? I heard it was supposed to be really sunny and hot today and I really want to get a tan!" Said May giving Alessandro puppy dog eyes.

"Hm, that doesn't seem like too bad of an idea."

"Yeah, we haven't had a family day in a while." Said Marcelo.

"I can't swi-"

"Oh, you won't be going if you don't finish every single bite on your plate, missy." Said Alessandro.

"But-"

"No buts we are going to go get ready and then when we come back you better have eaten every single bite or else you won't be coming."

Everyone got up and handed there plates too Matilda who gave me a sympathetic look.

I ate about half of a pancake. I felt like throwing up. Why can't they just understand that I'm not used to having big meals? They probably think I have had a normal life. Ha. I wish.

Everyone came rushing down the stairs in their swimsuits and May was chatting like crazy. They seemed so happy. Until Alessandro saw me.

"Alright Kendall when we get back from the beach your plate better be spotless." Said Alessandro firmly.

"Just let her come with us, I think your being a bit too hard on her." Said Angelo

A bit? Yeah definitely. I gave Angelo a small smile of appreciation and gratefulness in which he returned.

"No, she's very small and skinny she needs to eat. And if she can't, she won't get to enjoy and do the fun things with us." Said Alessandro as he was reaching for his wallet.

Everyone walked out the door smiling and talking. Oh, how bad I wish I had a family. A real family. One who doesn't treat me like shit. I feel like if I tell them what happened to me in the past, they will either treat me like broken glass, think I'm crazy, think I'm lying or maybe they won't just care. Which is why I won't tell them.

Hey, look on the bright side if I went, I'd have to wear one of Mays bathing suits and they'd probably be so skimpy and they would see every imperfection on my body.

Then an idea popped into my head.

I'm going to get my bear back and no one is here to stop me.

I went straight to Damion's room and looked around for some cash I could take to pay for the Uber rides. And under a gaming controller there was a $100 dollar bill. I don't feel bad for taking it maybe just a tiny bit but he's the one who caused this in the first place.

I ordered the Uber, and they texted me saying they were outside.

"Kendall? Where are you going honey?" Asked Matilda.

"I need to get my bear back Matilda.. please don't tell Alessandro!"

"Kendall... I think this is a bad idea. If Alessandro finds out, you broke some rules he will freak."

"I know but I need the bear... promise you won't tell?"

"Ah, fine child but I was and not a part of this. Okay?"

"Of course, I wouldn't never rat you out, you are like the best friend I've never had!" I said while stepping out the door.

"Hi is this, Emmanuel?"

"Yes, Kendall, right?"

I nodded and got in the car. Emmanuel dropped me off outside Mc Donald's and I paid him $20 dollars and a small tip. I looked around on the busy road and right in front of me was Fluffy. Fluffy!

I waited for the light to become red, and I crossed the road and safely picked him up and went back to where Emanuel had dropped me off.

She was a bit dirty and had tire marks all over her, but I promised I would wash her up.

I decided to test my luck and go explore the city.. they'd be at the beach for a while, right?

I crossed the sidewalk and stopped at a very large mall.

"Wow.." I mumbled to myself.

I slipped Fluffy in my back pocket and went through the entrance. I've only been in a mall a couple times, but they were very rare and only to shop for someone else never for myself. I looked at the $75 dollars I had in my hand. I'll just buy one thing for myself I'll still have enough for an Uber.

I didn't realize how much I spent until I had a quarter left in my palm. Shit! How did I let this happen I just bought a couple of shirts, the book Alessandro broke and a bigger version of Fluffy but in purple with small sparkles.

Maybe I can run home..

I found an exit that led out of the mall, but it was black. HOLY SHIT ITS NIGHT ALREADY??!

I'm not walking home in the dark on a Friday night there's going to be a shit ton of drunks.

I see a pay phone on my left and I only had one option. I had to call someone. But who? I didn't have my brothers phone numbers or Mays. Wait Silvia gave me her business card. Maybe she can help.

I pulled out her business card and inserted my last quarter. "Hello who is this?" Spoke Silvia.

"Silvia!! It's me Kendall."

"Kendall why are you using the pay phone at this time of night?"

"I um am kind of lost... I sort of got an Uber here then I got carried away with shopping and I spent all my money... and now the shops are all closed, and I can't return anything."

"Oh lord Kendall, why would your brothers let y out go alone!"

Should I tell her I snuck out? No. it will get me more trouble.

"Well, I mean I am thirteen Silvia, I'm aloud to go out to places alone."

"True, I just don't understand why your brothers would let you."

"Um so how do I get back?"

"I'll call one of your brothers to get you."

"WAIT NO. I mean you shouldn't do that they are really tired."

"I need to call them Kendall, wait by the pay phones and what exit are you by?"

I sighed and said "six."

"Alright hang in there I'm gonna hang up and they will definitely come to get you."

I'm in a lot of shit aren't I.

About twenty minutes later I saw a fancy red car pull up and immediately knew it was one of theirs.

"Come on you dimwit she's in here!"

"Don't call me a dimwit you dimwit!"

Yeah, definitely them.

Ugh of course it was Damion and Marcelo picking me up.

Damion saw me and basically threw me in the back of the car.

"What the fuck is wrong with you!?" Spat Damion.

"You're in massive trouble with Alessandro, I don't think I've seen him that mad in years!" Marcelo chuckled.

"At least it's not me getting in trouble like that again" he added.

"Let me see what's in the bag." Marcelo reached out a hand.

"No! It's my stuff." I said as I slapped his hand.

"Fine Alessandro's gonna look threw it anyways."
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We got home and I don't think I've ever seen someone so mad. Well Gaston but he doesn't count.

"WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?" He yelled not noticing my flinch.

"I-I-"

"I-I" He mocked.

"YOU NEED TO SMARTEN UP. WHAT WOULD HAVE I DONE IF YOU DIED?"

I've already died. Years ago, my whole personality changed, and every last living thing was gone.

"Answer me."

"I'm S-sorry." I said with bright red cheeks as hot tears made its way too my skin.

"Sorry is not an answer. I told you there would be consequences if you broke any rule."

"And you broke the biggest one."

"What was so important that you had to get that almost got yourself killed."

He snatched the bags from my hand.

He pulled out each item one by one.

"Clothes, that stupid book I ripped, a bear and a doll?!"

"YOU MADE ME WORRIED SICK OVER A DOLL?!

He tossed the bag in the trash.

At least I still had Fluffy hidden in my pocket.

"You are being very immature right now."

I ran into the bathroom and locked the door. All I could see was Gaston's face on Alessandro's body.

I pulled out the small bear and washed him with some hand soap as Alessandro continued to bang on the door.

I slipped Fluffy into my back pocket after she was clean and debated on what to do next. Sadly, I didn't have a choice since Alessandro busted the door open. Yikes.

He took a deep breath and said more softer this time "Listen Kendall, I'm just mad you snuck out I was worried sick about you if you needed something you could have asked but it doesn't make it right for me to yell at you like that. He pulled me into a tight but warm hug.

"I'm sorry I won't do it again."

"Good because if you do you are going to be dead meat" he chuckled.

"But this doesn't change about your consequences."

"You still have to learn from what you did so I know I can fully trust you because right now I have 0 trust with you."

"I switched your room to be closer to ours it's a bit smaller and plainer but it's a part of your punishment. I also placed a camera in your room to make sure you're not sneaking out and we have taken off your door."

What? He took my door off. Placed cameras in my new room. I think he's insane.

"I don't want cameras Alessandro."

"I know baby, but it's only for a week until I trust you."

"Please I don't want cameras in my room that's weird." I pleaded.

"I'm sorry but should have thought about that before sneaking off."

"Now get to bed your room is on the left hall next to our hall it's the room with the door off."

I know I shouldn't have snuck away but cameras and no door are crossing the line. It freaks me out when people are watching me. At least the old attic which was my room had no way of getting in unless I lowered the latter. It was very private, and I liked that.

Wow they couldn't even give me a proper bed... just a small mattress? Am I really that worthless...?

Of course, you are worthless you stupid pig! You are nothing and you will always be nothing and nothing more they wanted me they didn't want you.

That voice was taunting me over and over again I couldn't get it out, so I drifted off to sleep cuddling Fluffy.

⚠️Flashback TW mentions of abuse and rape ⚠️⚠️⚠️
"KENDALL YOU FILTHY BITCH GET DOWN HERE!" Gaston shouted.
"N-no I'm SORRY PLEASE DON'T COME NEAR ME!"
I locked myself in the bathroom and Gaston was busting open the door. The weak metal couldn't take much and eventually fell off leaving Gaston with full access to me.
"I WAS MAD BEFORE BUT NOW IM EXTREMELY MAD KENDALL YOU SHOULDN'T PISS DADDY OFF!" He said taking a sip of his whisky.
"IM SORRY PLEASE DON'T HURT ME!" I cried.
He grabbed me by my hair and hand cuffed me too the bed. At first, I was confused until he started ripping clothes off me.
"P-please stop."
"I'm going to enjoy this Kendall you are so sexy darling" he said touching me in all different kind of places no eleven-year-old should ever be touched.
"AHHH STOP PLEASE IM SORRY ILL BE A GOOD GIRL!"