"Are you ready for this?" Tessa asks as we are outside the mental facility where Kate is.

"Yes..." I respond unsure of where or not I'm really ready for this.

It's been one year since everything. Things have changed a lot.

Kate after being booked for attempt of murder, kidnapping and all the charges for being ZET- that are a lot, was charged as a mental ill individual. So she's been here ever since.

This is not the first time I see her. I've been here every single week for the past six months to help her to get better, but today is a special visit. After very long six months and finally finding the perfect meds, happens today.

Today is the last group therapy session that Kate will have, she won't be released due to her crimes but it will lack the time of sentence to only 3 years.

What's so special about this session is that everyone is coming. Harry, Tessa, Louis, Zayn and me.

Anne and Niall already had a session with her but it was a different one that also involved their parents, that luckily are still together. To my understanding the session went very well which lead to this one.

I still don't know what I feel. First I was angry and sad. Then I got mad at the world. But then I just accepted everything that happened and that's when I first saw Kate.

I didn't knew what to expect but thankfully I found a new changed Kate.

She suffered from a very serious delusional disease that came from all the trauma of having 5 miscarriages, a disease that wasn't visible from the outside.
Thankfully, with the help from the doctors, the right meds and mine's, her husband's and Tessa's support, she's doing well.

My thoughts go away when my phone vibrates and see Harry's face flashing on my phone.

"Go inside, I'm just gonna wait for him here!" I say to Tessa and she nods smiling as she walks inside and I answer the phone. But then see Harry crossing the street so I hung up.

Harry.

What happened? You may ask, well...

After all the court drama, Harry left to London to live with his dad. I guess the experience made them closer. Sorry if I sound bitter, but I can't be happy for that because it took him away from me. Selfish, I know.

But in a way made me grow up and let go of some things, meaning I'm now and have been for the last 11 months, living with Tessa and her dad. I know our past was fucked up, but they are all that I've got and they have been a great help, especially when we graduated. If it wasn't for them, I have no idea where I would be now. Maybe I would still work at the bakery and live on a friend's house or maybe I would be in university as everyone I know, but I'm not. I'm underemployed, living in my fake family's house and have no idea where to go next, what to do with my life.

I thought I had my life so figured it out last year, but I was so wrong. And after all of that shit happened, you'd probably think I would be the last person that still lives in this town. Ironic.

"Hey!" Harry says when he reaches me.

I lean in for a hug as I greet him back.

"How you doing?" I ask him smiling.

All I wanna do right now is just kiss him and ask him to stay. I don't care that it has been a year, I'm still madly in love with him, but I'm still hurt. He shouldn't just run away, like he did. The time when I most needed him, he wasn't there.

"Fine, you?" He asks politely

"I'm doing horrible, I'm still hung up on you and living a miserable life. I don't know who I am or who I wanna be. I just know that I need you. And I wish I wasn't as conscious as I am. It would be so much easier to let you go or to let this demons out of me. But my mind just doesn't obey!"

I wished I would've said that, but I just responded "Fine" and smiled to make it more believable and then an awkward silence took over the conversation.

I analyze his figure as we both stay in silent. His hair is longer now, much longer- I don't like it but he's still hot. Actually maybe even more, he looks like he's been working out and he has so much more tattoos now. He still dresses pretty similar to one year ago, black jeans, black shoes and black shirt. It looks like a more sophisticated and grew up version of the Harry I used to know.

While on the other hand, I look awful. I gained a couple pounds, nothing too much, but I don't have the perfect silluette anymore. My hair is back to his roots, totally dark brown and long as hell and to be honest I still dress the same clothes as one year ago, because I don't have money to buy new clothes. Life's been rough on me and I'm too shy and proud to ask Josh or Kate money. They already let me live in their house without paying anything. They're not my 'parents' anymore to pay for the rest.

"How's university?" I ask Harry when I see him checking me out. I don't want him to see all those things I just pointed out to myself.

"It's going very well, Anne sends kisses!" Harry says as he nervously checks the time on his phone.

Before any freak out, there's nothing going on between them- they just study at the same university. Actually they are on the London Arts University, the school me and Anne planned since kids to be in.

Why I didn't go there? Besides the obvious reasons- money, grades,...- I didn't went because I'm too depressed for university. I know how it sounds but it's just like that, I can't handle the stress from school anymore. So I decided to take one year off, without any work or school stress and figure it out what I wanna be. By the way I still have no clue.

Anne keeps saying that she's loving it there and that I should apply for next year, but I don't know. Maybe I should do like Louis, who decided to open his own music store. Oh, they're still together, by the way- Anne and Louis, I mean. He opened a store not far from London but still close to Cheshire so he can come home every single day and see Anne at the weekends. I don't know how they managed but they're doing fine.

After graduation I lost touch with Louis and so many more people, like Zayn and Sam. Actually I think no one has talked to any of them since graduation.
Luckily I got Niall and Tessa, who don't live exactly in Cheshire but are around all the time. Guess I should explain that they're both on a university just outside Cheshire, so they come home almost every single weekend or I go to their campus and have some fun. Sometimes I go there on Monday and come home on the next Monday, that's the only college experience I've had.

What happened to Liam? Well no one knows exactly, he just left with Connor to America a couple months ago and I haven't heard from him ever since. The only things I know about him are from Instagram since he doesn't respond to my texts. I don't know for sure what happened, maybe he's just trying to get away from all the drama.

"We should go inside!" I tell Harry and he nods before following me to the building.

"You guys ready?" I ask all of them once we're on the waiting room.

"I don't get why we're here! Are we setting her free?" Louis asks.

"No, we're just reducing her sentence. So that she can come home for Christmas and birthdays. And maybe for her to go out, but only in three years, if not longer." Tessa answers Louis.

"I know she's your mom, but I don't feel comfortable seeing her around town, walking around like nothing happened." Harry says to Tessa and Louis and Zayn nod, agreeing with what he said.

"You're not going to see her, you don't even live here!" I snap at Harry.

I mean it, though. He's not living here and he's not comfortable with seeing her around?

"Besides, she's better and she will not be immediately released." I respond calmer now.

"That's the point! She was supposed to be here for 10 years and we're reducing it for 4?" Zayn remarks and I get what he's saying, but I'm not lying when I say that she's much better now.

"It's not like that. If, if-" Tessa repeats the 'if' in order to show them that it's not certain. "She still has to come here every single day for a routine checkup and to talk to the medics. Believe me when I say that she deserves it." Tessa concludes with teary eyes.

I know how much she wants her mom back, how desperate she is that this session works.

"Please guys, all we're asking is for you to go in there, hear what she has to say and just forgive or forget." I request with hopeful eyes.

"How can you say that, especially you! You were the one that she attacked the most and you're just gonna stand there asking us to forgive her?" Harry snaps and I frown my eyebrows.

"Exactly. I was the one she did worse things, and I've forgiven her. She's different now. She had a disease but it's cured now. Please." I manage to say before the doctor calls us to enter the room where Kate is.

I'm afraid of what they might say, I really am. I get that she tried to kill Harry and shot Zayn and Louis, that wasn't right. I know, but back then she didn't saw the difference between wrong or right. She actually thought that she was protecting me and taunting me how to become a woman. The way she decided to do it was messed up, but at least, she now gets that what she did was wrong.

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"That wasn't so bad, was it?" I ask them when we all sit at a table from a coffee shop near the sanitarium house.

"You kidding, right? Couldn't you see how uncomfortable we were?" Louis asks and they all laugh.

"That was definitively the most awkward moment of my life!" Zayn says agreeing with Louis and I roll my eyes. It wasn't that bad.

Luckily, they didn't say something that would be bad for her. They all said that they were okay now with what happened and that were no resentments. Most important, they said that they were okay with her being set free, that they didn't mind.

"Thanks, guys, really." Tessa says when we all order and the waitress goes away.

"No problem." Harry answers and I smile at him remembering what he said to me just a few moments ago.

"Wait..." Harry says when we're all walking towards the door to start the session with Kate.

"We have to go!" I say turning around.

"I just wanna know if you're really okay with this? None of those people in there saw what I saw; no one saw the way you struggled when Kate was doing all those things. I was the one that saw you stuck in your room for days trying to figure it out who she was. Are you sure you wanna help this woman?" He wonders and I appreciate that. No one has asked me that yet, they all assume I'm okay with it because I'm helping her getting better.

"I wasn't but now I am. I moved on from that and she's fine now. So I don't mind, really."

"Jade, are you sure? After doing this there's no way back!" Harry insists and I nod.

"Yeah, I'm sure!" I reply before opening the door to the session.

I really am fine. My year is over. I know that with this I'm ready to move on. To find a job, even go to college. Okay, maybe not that one, but who knows. Maybe, me and Harry will get back together or not. It's all up to the future and I'm really looking forward for it. But for now, I'm just gonna start what I should've a long time ago, my life.

(Okay, that's the end. This was the hardest ending to write ever. I'm not even sure if I like it, but this is what I've done. I hope you liked it! I will start a new 5SOS fic in a few days/ weeks, so if you're into that, then check it out once is out. Love you all and bye :) )