hiya, so it's currently 9/11 as i write this. 9/11 was always just this huge tragedy that triggered a lot of people, and i always knew what happened but nobody ever talked about it. today it was finally talked about and yeah...

geography class was really depressing today. first we talked about hurricane irma, all the damage its done, and all the damage it is still going to do. i feel really bad for heidi, they're still recovering from that earthquake around 10 years ago and now they've been hit by the hurricane. i just want give everybody in heidi a hug tbh and help them and save them.

then we talked about 9/11. it all just really hit me today. i knew 9/11 was bad but i never spent much time thinking about it. today we got to watch footage from that day 16 years ago. it all happened 11 days before my parents got married. my dad is canadian and my mom is american and the wedding was going to be in america, the state of new york, and a lot of people cancelled because of the tragedy.

but all the people who jumped out of the burning building, to their deaths, who had accepted their fate and lost all hope...

i just think of all the lives lost. the innocent passengers that were on the hijacked planes. the people in the twin towers. we literally saw people jumping to their deaths so that they wouldn't die in the fire. and then all the people who wouldn't jump and instead burned alive. anyone who had been in one of the elevators had died when the elevator dropped and exploded at the bottom. people on the floors below the fire had the possibility of being rescued but the people above where trapped and sentenced to die. and when the building fell...i just wanted to leave the room really badly.

there's so much sadness and tragedy in the world. 9/11 was an awful event and there was just recently an earthquake in mexico and hurricane irma is terrible and hurricane harvey and...everything is just terrible.

in art class my teacher made sculptures of the twin towers out of stacked boxes and he made two paper airplanes, duct taped them to the ceiling, and aimed them at the box buildings. and one of the box towers was accidentally knocked over. i just can't.

everything is so sad and i just don't want to live in this terrible world anymore. everything is sad, and i just want to be happy. i want to cease to exist. everything is terrible.

i'm so sorry to anybody who lost someone in 9/11.