PLEASE DONT BE MAD AT ME AJDHDH ;)

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CHAT: bffs + changbin

WONPILLY
if you scroll up on this chat it's literally just us annoying jae

LEEMEENHO
LMFAO yeah
we love u jae

CHANNIE
we don't annoy her :;(

BABYLEE
um yea we do?? but it's okay 😋

QTMAKNAE
where is jae?? i want her to come over i wanna have our
umm
i don't know what it is in english 😡
떡볶이 date :)

ME
ur so cute jeongin omfg
you guys don't have to speak in english for me,, i AM korean you're aware ??
also- the romanticized word for it is tteokbokki innie

QTMAKNAE
thank you omfg
i couldn't think of it

BABYLEE
miss "i am korean" my ass
you literally only know slang korean

ME
NOT MY FAULT
UR NOT EVEN FROM KOREA 🙄
"what's your favorite side dish"
"bang chan hyung" lookin ass

BABYLEE
ok look..we don't talk about it

MUSCLEBINNIE
LMFAO
wait jae were you born here?

RAPPERJI
YEAH i thought you were from new york??

ME
well i was raised there but i was born in daegu
i moved to ny when i was five

LEEMEENHO
that explains..so much??

CHANNIE
wait i never knew that what

HYUNJINNIES
you should go back and visit some time!

ME
i would love to do that
but work is my biggest concern right now
speaking of- i have to go now :(

WONPILLY
work is being too strenuous on your body jae,, you're gonna get yourself injured

ME
pleaseee, i'll be fine
also..says the boys who work 24/7
byeeee

CHANNIE
you're impossible
bye :(

RAPPERJI
adios

QTMAKNAE
bye!

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maybe seungmin was right, maybe working all the time was a little hard on my body. but i made decent money and..this is what i loved to do. plus- i had ROUTINES to write so those pacing thoughts were none of my concern. getting up from the ground, i did the same old pattern- walked to the stereo, turned on the music, and looked into the large mirror in front of me. "you'll do well." i murmured, "you always will."

as the music started i began to move with it. this routine was hard- i had been stuck on it for days. trying to perfect it..making sure it was clean and there were no bumps or mistakes.

but my thoughts started to travel- i slipped up, but quickly caught myself. "dumbass." i sighed, continuing back to this all too familiar choreography.

i just kept thinking about what seungmin said, i kept thinking about chris, i kept thinking about beck. i kept thinking about how badly i miss new york, how badly i missed my sister. how badly i miss my friends, my parters. what if i wasn't good enough? was korea really my place to be? why is my foot hurting so badly? straighten your legs out dumbass. this next move is a spin- spin. 1, 2, 3. that could've been cleaner. do you know how many dumb things you've said to your idols. oh my god you're in the same building as itzy and day6 and you still haven't seen them yet. these shoes do not have enough traction on them for dance..chris told you that. he doesn't want you to get hurt. you've hurt him enough though..idiot. dude my foot is hurting really bad- shit!

apparently seungmin was right.

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