the truth is, i hadn't slept a wink. beck was fast asleep on the couch while i lay in my bed riddled with confusion. my idol likes me? he LIKES me? he wants to be with me?
and i want to be with him?
"so many thoughts for such a small brain." i murmured to myself. i grabbed my phone and typed in kai's— no, chris's username.

ME
are you awake?

DADDYCHAN
i am, but why're you?
is this a booty call? 😳

ME
no you dummy
i need to talk to you

DADDYCHAN
oh god
those are not good words

jae took a deep breath in, pondering whether she should really type this next thought.

ME
i REALLY like you too chris
and no not because you're my idol
because talking to you these past few months made me realize a lot of things
like whenever you texted me i'd smile
or whenever you would accidentally call me babygirl my heart would explode
just talking to you, it really fucking means a lot to me
GOD i haven't been able to sleep because my brain is screaming at me
"STOP! you're gonna hurt yourself"
fuck i hate being sappy
i really like you dude
or man
or guy
I DONT KNOW
i just like you..

DADDYCHAN
you're too pure for this world omg
you know i'd never hurt you, right?
you're just special jae, really fucking special
i'll do whatever you need, whatever reassurance it takes
okay?

ME
thank you.

DADDYCHAN
of course babygirl ;)
are you ever gonna tell me about him?
the guy who broke your heart?

ME
it's so much cuter without the wink-
eventually
now just isn't the time okay?

DADDYCHAN
noted :)
so let's talk about the things that chan does to you that you've spoken about so many times ;)

ME
WELL WOULD YOU LOOK AT THE TIME
GOTTA GOOO
BYEBYEEE

DADDYCHAN
NOOOOO

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CHAT: besties 4 lyfe 😜

WONPILLY
HEYYYY

AGUSTDEFINED
oh god
isurhwueheggshehe
holyfuckhi

BABYLEE
hey hey ;))

ME
whew hi

DADDYCHAN
hey beautiful ladies ;)

ME
hmph :,(

DADDYCHAN
you're the most beautiful stop ☹️

AGUSTDEFINED
AWWWWWWW
jae is literally dying i-

WONPILLY
ugh i'm so happy chris FINALLY told her

BABYLEE
fr he's been talking about her a lot :(
it was getting annoying

AGUSTDEFINED
LMAOOO
ugh our food is finALLY HERE

DADDYCHAN
where are you guys eating?

ME
a thai restaurant
let me bless ur eyes rq

BABYLEE
oh god

AGUSTDEFINED
NO

ME
omfg fine
she's so annoying

BABYLEE
aw beck ur adorable ;D

WONPILLY
ur lame

AGUSTDEFINED
gee thanks min

ME
LMAOOO

AGUSTDEFINED sent a photo

ME
WHY DO I LOOK SO SWOLLEN

DADDYCHAN took a screenshot

DADDYCHAN
YOU ARE ADORABLE 😔

WONPILLY
get a room

BABYLEE
get a job

WONPILLY
MF?!?! I HAVE A JOB??

BABYLEE
i will cause you physical pain

WONPILLY
i hate you

ME

DADDYCHAN
w h y
yk what
FINE

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i smiled mindlessly at the notification that just appeared on my screen.

DADDYCHAN sent you a photo

better? ;)

CHANSBABYGIRL took a screenshot

ME
you know EXACTLY WHAT YOU'RE DOING
holy shit
Y E S
how do YOU like ME

DADDYCHAN
STOP >:(
you're stunning

ME
oof tyty :(

DADDYCHAN
of course :^)
so what're you guys doing right now?

ME
we're on our way home
i'm full :(

DADDYCHAN
good!
be safe :)
oh jae?

ME
what's up?

DADDYCHAN
can i have your number maybe?
i'd love to call sometime.
or facetime?

ME
👁👄👁
oh wow

DADDYCHAN
you don't want to?
that's okay!

ME
nono i do i do!
it's just
wow i'd be calling you
holy shit i think i'd pass out

DADDYCHAN
pls don't pass out :(

ME
well oBVIOUSLY I WOULDN'T DO IT ON PURPOSE

DADDYCHAN

ME
STOPAHSHSHEUUE
my number is 2129039951

DADDYCHAN
thank you :)
are you home yet?

ME
i just stepped inside my apartment! it's raining, my clothes are SOAKED

DADDYCHAN
😏

ME
STOPHHSHSHEH

DADDYCHAN
LMAO
so did you enjoy your birthday?

ME
i did, a lot. thank you so much.

DADDYCHAN
please don't thank me, you deserve it! i'm so happy i told you the truth

ME
me too, my anticipation was killing me 😫

DADDYCHAN
AGHHH i could tell 😭

ME
i get it though! you were looking out for you and your members and i have nothing but respect for that.

DADDYCHAN
thank you so much jae :(

ME
of course :)
i'm so tired, talk to you tomorrow?

DADDYCHAN
you know it :)
goodnight beautiful!

ME
AGHHH goodnight chris :)

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