Chapter Eighteen : Matthias Pilot

I hear a heard of elephants come down the stairs while I stood here crying, holding her tightly in my arms. Micah, Nikolai and Judah come into my sight and all their jaws drop when their eyes land on me. I probably looked insane, standing here with a girl bleeding out in my arms.

What would my parents say?

Micah walks over with his arms extended and I growl out, "Fuck off." I snapped and I watched as Judah rolled his eyes.

"C'mon Matt, I need to fix her up now unless you want her to die," Micah whispers and I hate how right he was. I hate how concerned he looked and most of all I hated the way he was looking at me right now.

He knows. He knows that I've come to grow attached to this annoying girl and he knows that right now I'm dying inside because I want nothing more than for her to be better but I cant - I wont let her out of my sights because Harrison got to her. He used her to get to her brother and now he was using her to get to us.

Someone removes her sleeping form out of my arms and I crumble, I drop to my knees and I faintly hear Judah calling for Grady while Nikolai and Micah whisk her away from me. More footsteps attack the steps and Grady stands there with a confused looking Dathan, "Kailen's watching the girls...What happened?" Dathan asks but I kept shaking my head.

It felt so hard to breathe. It felt like there was a grown man jumping up and down on my chest, stealing away all my air. Judah takes Dathan out of the room, leaving just Grady and I.

I was gasping for air and tears prickled my eyes once again, "Matt, breathe in slowly and out slowly. You need to calm down." He whispers but that only made me angry. He was treating me like I was a small child. I wasn't, I was just terrified because this sweet innocent girl was sucked into this life and was caught in the cross fire for the second time and I wasn't there to protect her.

I try to calm down but I couldn't, it seemed impossible, and than I saw her small body run to me with her arms outstretched, "Uncle Mattis, where's aunt livia?" Marlowe asks and I couldn't help but laugh a little and I felt myself calm down. I wrap my arms round her tightly and hold her to me.

The day Olivia and I took the girls Marlowe grew attached to Olivia immediately, they were joined at the hip and Marlowe started calling Olivia aunt livia and never once did she correct her.

"Little lady bug, aren't you suppose to be upstairs with Kailen and Novella?" I question, completely blowing off her question about Olivia. One pro about children is their easily distracted and you can change the topic without them even noticing.

She giggles and pokes my forehead, "Yesh, but I wanna see you," She says and Grady laughs when another set of footsteps make it down the stairs.

"There you are! Dont do that!" Kailen snaps, scowling at the laughing girl in my arms. Standing up I hold her to my chest and snicker. All of us Pilot boys don't know what the word smile means.

Kailen bounces a wide awake Novella in his arms and picks Marlowe up out of my arms, throwing her gently over his shoulder, causing her to squeal, "Back upstairs we go," He says, before shooting me a look, "She'll be alright," He added on in a whisper before leaving me and Grady alone.

We stand there in silence and I bring a hand down my face, this was all just too much. All these fucking emotions and there's only one person to blame for them and her name is Olivia Avaon Adelaide.

"You do have to talk about it, doesn't matter if its with me or not, you have to open up." Grady says before leaving me there alone with my thoughts. Dangerous move.

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I push open my bedroom door and see her sleeping silently on my bed, its been two hours and she was still knocked out. Nikolai had to give her a dosage of morphine for the pain meaning when she wakes up she's going to be on cloud nine.

Sitting down at the foot of the bed I look at her and watch as her chest rises and falls, "I'm sorry this happened to you, I promise I'll make him pay," I whisper, reaching over so I could brush some hair that had fallen into her face.

She moves around and I watch her eyes flutter open and when they meet with mine a smile blooms on her face, and let me tell you; it did crazy things to me. Knowing that she was smiling because of me and just my presence made me feel numerous emotions.

"I guess I didn't die, and I feel like I could do anything. Why do I feel like I'm floating?" She asks, my eyes narrow when she starts chewing her lip, she must have noticed because she instantly stopped biting it.

I chuckle at her, "Micah had to give you some morphine for the pain," I state and all she did was nod her head in understanding. She sits up, pushing the covers away from her. They asked me to change her into a clean t-shirt after they finished fixing her up.

It ate me alive, just thinking about why she was still here? She was just shot in the back and arm because of us Pilot boys yet here she is, sitting there with that dazzling smile. Any normal person would be running for the high hills yet she was still here, with me.

"Maybe you should stay away from me," I blurt and I wanted to take the words back right when they left my mouth. The room fell silent while she just stared at me, it would be safer for her.

Her lips pout out, "But you make everything real, you make everything better," She whispers and I know it was just the drugs talking but a part of me really wanted to believe her.

I shake my head and rip my gaze away from her, I couldn't do that to her, constantly put her in danger, I could never live with myself if she got hurt, or worse. When I saw her running down the dirt road with this terrified expression I died, because she was so scared and I wasn't there sooner. And when I picked her up in my arms, all the blood.

Oh god there was so much blood. They shot her without a second thought and I'm just thankful that their pussies when shooting a gun. When she was in my car, literally bleeding out in the front seat I could see my life ending.

Because Olivia Adelaide wasn't just a normal girl, she was special. So curious to the things going on around her and so open minded. She didn't freak and runaway when she found out that us Pilot boys were in a gang. She stepped up to the plate and shot a man in the face while trying to protect Dathan and I.

I hate to say it but I want to be selfish. Just this once I want to be selfish and keep Olivia in my life but I couldn't with fully knowing that Harrison would just go after her again. It wasn't safe for her, this life or me.

"But who's going to protect me? I know you don't want me to get hurt but I'm safer with you than by myself," She argues, her lips pulled down into a frown.

I run her words over and over in my head, I'm safer with you.

My mouth opens and I go to protest when she cries and looks up from her phone, "My house was just burnt down. Kiano and Julio are safe, they got most of our stuff out before it fully went up but we have no where's," She whispers, leaning her head against my chest. I place my hand on her head and rub her back softly.

"Hey man, you know Kiano? His house was just burned down. I told him that him and his family could stay with us since we have more than enough room," Judah says, barging into the room.

Olivia pulls away with a small grin on her face, "Nice to meet you roomie," She says and Judah sent her a questioning look, "My older brother is Kiano, my younger brother is Julio, gosh you'd think you people would pay attention," She adds on but Judah just kept staring at her with a look of confusion.

"I'm sorry, I'm not sure which one is more shocking, you being the little sister of the second best underground fighter, or the fact that your awake," Judah trails off, "Damn girl, Micah gave you enough to knock out a horse. How the hell are you up right now?!" He nearly shouts. I roll my eyes and wrap my arms loosely around her waist.

She giggles and shakes her head, "This creeper was sitting on the bed and woke me up with his loud breathing," She says, throwing my own words back in my face. I scowl and stand up.

I walk to the door and turn around, "I'll be back in a few hours to check on you, bye Olly." I say before quickly leaving the room before I lost my cool. I cant be around here right now because I'm so close to blowing up right now. She cant stay here, that just puts her in even more danger.

Walking straight through the front door without another word to my family I get in my car and hit the road, speeding through every red light back to the arena, I needed to hurt someone.

My plan now is to ignore her, if she believes that I don't care about her or want her around she'll leave me alone and wont put her life on the line. I only could pray that Harrison would leave her alone, but once he found out that I had no feelings or interactions with her he'd find her completely useless.

Harrison isn't after my brothers, he's after me. I screwed up big time when I was first introduced to this life, I guess you could say I wasn't exactly ready. I pissed off the wrong people which led to me murdering his brother.

That's right, I Matthias Graham Pilot murdered the biggest gang leader Harrison's brother Wilfred, on accident. It was the first time I ever held a gun and it went off by accident when we were fighting over it after he tried to jump me.

I was the one who brought this onto my family and I'll never forgive myself for it.