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"Help! Please, help!'

Huh?

Where am I?

The first question that came into her mind, she was finally awake after for god knows how long. Her eyes hazily looking around, the ache on her limbs annoyingly her as she looked around the room.

The flashes of unfamiliar faces were seen before her. She could feel emotions that felt so foreign, emotions she's never felt before.

Anger, sorrow, pain.. betrayal.

Why? Why did she feel this? Who was this people infront of her eyes? Whose memories are they? Their voices were inaudible, their faces were dissaray, the scenarios forecasting before her was things that never situated in her life.

"Stop.. Please..! I'm begging you!"

That cries of woe, her voice doesn't even match Y/n's it was different. Harsh, hoarse and dry as if she haven't tasted water for what seemed forever.

"I'm no slave.. but her's"

Who? Y/n thought watching this dream.. No, this nightmare play before her eyes as she was paralyzed, her own body felt so Foreign at the moment. Its like it moving on her own.

She could feel the pain, as those people whipped her, tortured her. But.. When has this happened? This woman, crying, whimpering and abused was not her. She was certain this was not her. It's like watching someone's life in their own eyes..

"You.. Will all pay.. for the day of judgement. Will bestow upon you.."

She watch as the woman weep, she now felt anger, pure hatred as the woman's point of view she was in. Was seething angrily, the agony long gone as the shakles that bounded this woman's hand were starting to break on its bounds.

"The day where the rumbling will commence!"

All of a sudden her gaze averted to the ground and a feature of a woman was seen. Her hollow eyes looking at the reflection of the water, it was lifeless and the frightening part was. It felt like this woman was staring into Y/n eyes, almost boring into her soul.

She's seen this over and over again, just from different situation. The torture and the sudden pain she felt were caused by many things but whenever she wakes up she forgets everything. All she know is this woman staring at her at the end.

"Your finally up."

All of a sudden a distant inhumane scream was heard.

Y/n's face morphed into horror.

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"How is it going?" Enoch glance over to Chander who walked towards him as they were guarding the tower they were positioned in. Eyes looking around for any potential threat securely.

"Its been weeks.. The Commander hasn't woke up." Enoch replied with a sigh as he turned his gaze away. "Not only that, Captain Levi positioned us in some sort of place.." He said looking at the forest before them. There were inside Wall Rose after the Captain Erwin said to place them into hiding. Right now, their nearby Ehrmich district wearing civilian clothes and is staying vigilant under the roof of the L/N's many clinics.

So far over the past few days, there haven't been reports and futher advancement given by their officials. So far their kept in the dark, with only 10 soldiers to keep standby.

Eventually, the most questioning part of this sudden mission was..

Why are they hiding the Commander? The mystery was there, not only that Captain Erwin seemed more secretive than ever.

"Has there been any updates lately?" He asked turning to Chander who shakes his head in reply. "The Scouts Regiment has been going silent so far. Captain Erwin isn't reachable either." The male sighed before walking forward. "I don't know why all of this for.. but It's getting more confusing as each day pass."

"Agreed. Not long ago did we find the true Female Titan, then a titan inside a wall.. Well will there be any break?." Enoch sighed clutching his head. "If it were Commander.. she would have figured all this out by now."

"You really looked up to her, huh?" Chander said, smiling sadly as Enoch scoffs. "Ofcourse! She.. She saved me when Wall Maria was destroyed!" He defended turning his gaze away. "After I watch her fought those Titan's alone.. to me, she was like a hero."

"I was only a thief.. she saved me." he said looking down on his hand. That's why.. I couldn't let her die. I couldn't do the things as she does but.. I could guarantee she can give us the freedom we strive for. He thought with a small hopeful smile.

"Man--" Chander was cut off when they heard a scream. Not from anyone else but from the floor beneath them, the voice was so familiar as his eyes widened in realizing from whose it from. "Commander!"

He quickly turned to the door and raced outside, a few soldier was alarmed at this as they all got off their position and looked around. Enoch ignored them and went downstairs, walking down the familiar corridors before he finally arrived the door.

"Commander L/n!"

He kicked it open, drawing out his knife as he looked around the room in alarm as he strode inside. The other soldiers came as well as they all checked the dim room, their knives draw as Enoch quickly rush to her.

His eyes widened to see her sat up, body shaking violently, her (e/c) snapped wide open in fear, her mouth was parted as she clutch tightly on her hair. "Commander your awake! Call Dr. L/n now!" Enoch barked as Chander nodded and left the room along with the others who looked relief that she was finally awake.

"..wh-what?.. Who.. Wh..y?" Was the words that came out of her mouth as she looked forward, her face filled with horror and pale as white. It almost seems like she's seen a ghost.

Her throat was dry, her mind baffled and scattered all over the places. Her breathing hard as it felt like she was drowned inside a barrell filled with water as she clasped her neck. Her body felt normal, almost fine..

But at the same time it felt like she was pushed back to her body. The worse part was, she have no idea what she was even scared in the first place. Was it a bad dream? Is it that terrifying that it left her breathless?

The answer was invalid because she couldn't remember anything of what she dreamed about. "Commander! Are you alright?!"

She snapped out of her thought and look up, her body slowly relaxing her as she was slowly calming down as she clutch her head. Her face showing visible confusion.

"I.. really don't know.." she croaked out as Enoch nodded and quickly rush to the nearby counter to fetch her some water.

The door opened as she tiredly look up and was quickly engulffed by the arms of her mother. "It's finally time your awake!" Phoebe cried as Timothy followed behind, the unshed tears clear on his glossy eyes.

Y/n smiled tiredly and embrace them both, not exactly knowing what happened. But even so, her mind was too tired and so was her body to react anything too deep. All she knows at the moment is when she's here safe, then the operation of capturing the female titan either failed or succeed.

She ignored the thought for the moment and embrace her parent's warm arms. It was comforting, the strange fear that once lingered on her chest were lifted. "Gosh, there wouldn't be a day you wouldn't fail to give me heart attacks." Timothy said crying lightly as Y/n leaned back.

She didn't see it coming but she wasn't surprised when a hand slapped her across her face. "Don't do that again!" Her mother hissed before pulling her to another hug.

Not gonna lie, that slapped put me back to reality. Y/n thought a little belwildered as she pulled off her mother's embrace. Y/n took the water Enoch offered as she felt as if she finally drink the divine cold liquid after what seemed to be forever.

"What happened?" She asked, voice still crack but visible. Her parents shared a look as Enoch frowned for a moment. "You.. can't remember?" Timothy asked as Y/n scratch the back of her head gently.

"I..I'm not sure. All I know is I tried protecting the squad and then Eren shifted-- and.." Y/n frowned trying to put everything together but her mind was still jumbled. She was bothered by something and she doesn't know what.

"Commander.. You almost died." Enoch said hesitantly as Y/n hummed at his statement. A confused and surprise look taking over her features, her (e/c) eyes searching her father's eyes for answer.

"Must be the side effects of her fall. Captain Levi didn't told me how high she dived." Her mother muttered. "Geez, why did I have such a stupid daughter?"

"That's enough, dear." Timothy sighed.

Y/n then remembered him. His figure at the time, when he faintly smiled. Did she really die? She could feel her limbs numb and stings a little but.. Did she, really?

"Where.. is he?" Y/n asked meekly as her mother turned to her, as much as she wanted to fangirl over this but it wasn't the time. Although, it was pretty amusing how her sudden voice changed when Y/n mentioned him.

"Captain went off to a mission. There seemed to be a problem with the higher ups and the Military Corps." Timothy replied running a hand up to his hair. "Right now, the aftermath of the loss and juridiction when the operation female titan was captured is in case. Commander Erwin will be facing some serious charges, their strangely looking for you too--"

"Shut up, you nutcracker squirrel." Phoebe hissed smaking her husband's head. "Our daughter just woke up from almost 3 weeks of coma and your already here spouting bussiness. Leave her to rest, or sleep outside." She growled as Y/n ignored her mother's rant.

"I see." Y/n muttered placing her finger under her chin as she begun to ponder. Trying to find any recollection of the matter "See? Now all the living sanity just waltz out of her damn senses!" Phoebe said throwing her hands up in frustration as Timothy looked at his wife with a sweat. "She asked.."

"One more word from you and your sleeping on the shed"

"Enoch, report the current situation."
Y/n said looking down at the cast on her hand with a blank look.

"Oi, you ungrateful brat. I know your Commander and all, dear, but please stop dying all the damn time and breath!" Phoebe said clasping her daughter's shoulder who only sighed and held her mother's shoulder. "I can't count how many heart attacks you've given me!"

"My welfare doesn't matter, Mom. It's even more painful to sit here and do nothing while my cadets may or may not be risking their lives at this very moment." She said as Phoebe looked at her daughter with a pained and tired expression.

Ofcourse she will say that. Until now, the fact she's still a Commander doesn't suit well with her. Phoebe couldn't risk losing a child, not her only child, but thid was what she wants. And as much as she hated it, she couldn't do a thing or two about it. She hated why her daughter became so strong and stubbornly capable like her.

"Your arms are broken dear. You can't go into battle yet." Timothy said, having a twisted knot on his guts. The more his daughter was visible to danger, the more it was painful to see her act so recklessly. And from every passing hours and moments, the fear of another round of danger might come. And he feared it might be the inevitable.

"It's only dislocated." Y/n said firmly before turning to her father. "Pull my shoulder back and push your palm on the lower level." She demanded, there was no trails of jest in her eyes. She was dead serious as her parents along with Enoch stared at her dumbfoundedly.

"Please just rest." Timothy begged to his stubborn child but his words were hear by deaf ears as Y/n only sighed. "I have a duty to overcome, Dad. Please, this is for the safety of others."

Then what about yours? He wanted to ask but he was afraid what might her answer be. Her dedication and determination was really admirable and ridiculous at the same time. Phoebe stood forward and grab Y/n's shoulder and did as she asked which is much to her husband's surprise.

"In 3..2.." she counted softly before pulling roughly earning a well heard crack as Y/n grunts, yelping in pain before she frowned over to her mother. "What happened to 1?"

"The less expected, the less painful." Phoebe shrugged as Y/n grunts for a moment and tried moving her hand but it stunged and went numb on the moment. "Thank you, I thought you'd break my arm even more."

"As much as I do.. I know you'd rush to the battle field even with broken arms." Phoebe admitted, her gaze shifted away as she breathed out heavily. The worry, burden and fear of a mother has consuming her entirely. Especially when she saw her almost dead at that very day, she couldn't help but faint at the sight.

It still annoys her how her daughter can be so ridiculously determine on grasping the impossible. But even so, it was her fault for lighting that passion 5 years ago.

"I'm just decreasing the chances of this incident from ever happening again." She admitted before clasping her daughter's shoulder. "But please, come back.. for me, for Dad" she said voice cracking. Y/n only looker at her with her brows furrowed worriedly before biting her lip.

You know well I can't promise that. She sighed on her mind yet nodded her head anyway. Earning a satisfied and relief look from both her parents as Y/n slowly stood up the bed, ignoring her aching limbs. Face turning serious than ever as she turned her gaze to Enoch admiring eyes.

"Cadet, give me the report." She said as Enoch glance over to her parents, for a confirmation and approval. The two obviously looked hesitant only looked at him before nodding begrudgingly.

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IMPORTANT NOTE:

Ayo, em still alive.

There has been problems with wattpad for awhile.

All the other chapters I've saved and left unpublish on this story were gone when my phone crashed. Right now, em having a mental crisis and is having a severe writers block.

The other fanfiction, I've saved and yet to be publish are also gone. Im even surprise this is still saved, along with my other story.

It seems like the all unpublish stories once were the only one thats gone.

And em completely pissed. I can't even search my story, smh. I'm trying to redownload the app, and other more ways. I fear its trully gone..

I'll try to recollect what I've written here. Again, Im really sorry for the long wait. You may leave this story if your not willing to wait any further.

As again, I'm deeply sorry.

By the way, I've made another account. Just in case this might get deleted out of the sudden. I'll be placing CRASH TO YOU there.

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-KAIRIN