Kenny kept being the over protective brother he was while I stood there, arms empty and lips unkissed. 

I sighed and went to the table of snacks. I grabbed my cup and took a sip, wishing the off-brand soda would magically transform into alcohol. I watched as the kids ran inside the house laughing while Kenny shook his head like a disapproving father. Even though I was upset about the kiss, I couldn't help but find the whole situation funny.

He walked towards me slowly. His face was red and he couldn't bare to look at me. He just grabbed his cup and drank in silence. I was also embarrassed, but I wasn't expecting Kenny to be like that. He always acted so cool and indifferent and suddenly he turned into a shy mess. I still had a lot to discover about that boy.

Once his drink was empty, he put it down and stared at his feet.

"Sorry about that" He mumbled under his breath with an embarrassed smile.

"It's fine" I answered without thinking. It wasn't even his fault but as a big brother he decided to take the guilt.

"My sister's friends are staying for a sleepover so I'm guessing I won't get any sleep." He spoke with dread in his voice. I smiled and shook my head.

"They're kids, what can they do?"

"They already kissed! Who knows what else!" He looked at me with worry in his eyes.

"Calm down, they probably don't even know what else to do. At their age I only thought about holding hands" I tried defending them and also ease Kenny's mind. But my words were not sticking with him.

"Trust me, that Ike boy can't be trusted. I know his older brother and I can only imagine the things he has been teaching him" He kept up with his stubborn argument. He turned around and grabbed the empty cups, throwing them in a trash bag.

I gave up and started cleaning the plates behind me. I changed subject quickly.

"Ike's older brother?"

"Kyle from my class. We've been friends since forever so I know that guy pretty well" He smirked with confidence.

"Damn, okay, popular boy" I laughed.

We kept cleaning the garage while chatting. He started telling me about his childhood memories with Kyle and two other boys he was best friends with. He seemed to really like them by the way he spoke about them and their past moments so happily. I gladly listened to his stories but I couldn't help feel a bit jealous. Having such a close group of friends that stick together for so long seemed impossible for me. I had already ruined the small friendships I had at school so finding a new group would be hard.

After we cleaned everything, he handed me some CD boxes and told me to follow him. He carried the big stereo in his arms through the hallway until we arrived at a scratched door with a big sign that read "DO NOT ENTER". He pushed the door open with his elbow and entered. I walked behind him nervously. The moment I stepped one foot in, a strong smell of deodorant hit my nostrils making me almost sneeze. I looked at the room around me. The floor was full of clothes and some magazines while the walls were covered with posters of almost naked men and women. On the corner of the room, next to a small window with cracked glass was his "bed". It was a big mattress with one pillow and two blankets on top. There was also a wardrobe built in where Kenny stored the stereo. He looked back at me. He got up quickly and tried covering my eyes with his hands.

"Please don't look! This is from when I was a kid, I swear I'm not some pervert!" He looked around, trying to figure out what to clean up first. "This is a mess, fuck-"

I was so embarrassed and shocked that I just started laughing.

"I'd be more worried about Karen than Ike if this is what your room looks like"

"Ahhhh-" He struggled to speak. He grabbed the CDs from my hands and turned to the wardrobe to hide his red face. I kept laughing at his adorable panic.

He walked to the mattress and sat down on it. I jumped over some socks and joined him.

"Do you think I'm a pervert now?" He asked sad. I shook my head with a smile.

"Nah. I've seen worse" I reassured him. I hadn't seen many teenage boy's bedrooms but I could guess they weren't much better. At least Kenny didn't try to hide it.

"Is there worse than this?" He looked around disgusted. I stayed silent, it didn't feel like it was my place to talk. He just sighed and let his body fall back. I stayed with my back up and looked at him. He closed his eyes and spoke again.

"Thanks for coming. You probably wanted to leave as soon as you saw this junk I live in but you stayed so, thanks..." He covered his eyes with his arm. "Making you come to a dumpster, drink shitty soda and babysit my sister's friends... I'm the worst ahah..."

"Kenny..." I didn't know what to say. He stayed in silence, letting a frown appear on his face. I wasn't going to let this incredible night end so negatively. "Kenny!" I spoke louder. He opened his eyes and looked at me surprised.

I grabbed him and pulled him to face me.

"You did an amazing job today! You prepared a whole party for your sister-"

"And you" He added quickly.

"And me! And everything went perfect! Your sister had fun, her friends had fun, I had fun, did you have fun?" I asked. He looked down with his cheeks full.

"Yeah"

"Then what are you worrying about?"

"I just thought that because you're used to better parties than this you wouldn't like it. This is nothing compared to the school one, we didn't even have food. I really wanted to make it up to you but I feel like I just wasted your time" He let out everything. I shook my head disagreeing.

"Kenny, all I wanted was to spend this night with you" I said honestly. He looked up to me with his big stupid eyes and blushed. He then smiled brightly at me. I felt my body heat up and desperately tried taking back my embarrassing words but I couldn't get a full sentence out of my mouth. "Look! I mean that- at school we weren't so- it just-"

He laughed loudly at my struggle which made me blush even more. I looked down angry at myself for not controlling my cheeks and my stupid mouth. I felt his hand on my shoulder and looked up to him.

"Hey, I also wanted to spend this night with you" He said softly with a smile. My eyes locked on his and we looked at each other for a while before our faces started getting closer. I could hear my heart beat in my ears but I kept leaning, extremely happy. He blinked quickly and pushed back. I stared at him worried.

"W-what?" I asked, anxious that I had gotten the wrong idea all along. He just shook his head quickly.

"Sorry I just have to ask" He put a very serious face on. "Can I kiss you?"

I burst out laughing. I couldn't believe he even had to ask after how obvious I had been. He just panicked while I cried of laughter.

"How blind are you? Of course!" I answered.

"I don't know! Consent is important, okay?" He tried justifying himself. I nodded agreeing but also not taking him seriously. I calmed down and looked at him again with a big smile.

We didn't move for a bit.

"Sorry, did I ruin the mood?" He asked nervously. I rolled my eyes.

"Kenny just do it"

He smiled and brought his hands to my face. He held me gently while pulling me into a soft kiss. I felt all my insides curl up in a ball and jump around my stomach. We stopped and looked at each other. There was a moment of silence before we both laughed with our cheeks red. He let his hands fall on top of mine. I moved closer to him and we kissed again.

We kissed and kissed until there was no tomorrow. Just letting ourselves loose and freeing our inner most desires. Nothing seemed to matter while we held each other in that dark room. Every kiss felt like the first and every time it felt amazing. The stress of the last weeks dissolving into nothingness while my head focused on just that moment. His hand around my waist, so careful and gentle, pushing me towards him while the other held my cheek. I could only manage to hold his face, not believing that he was really in front of me, grounding myself to the unbelievable reality.

The incredible truth that Kenny McCormick and I were kissing.