OK A LITTLE NOTE. I GOT THIS IDEA WHEN I WAS REALLY TIRED AND SLEEPY BUT CANT SLEEP, ANG SOMEHOW THOUGHT OF THIS CHAPTER

MINHO'S POV
Jisung and I {and the rest of skz ofc} have been bestfriends since forever but I can't help but to fall in love. he is just the most perfect person in my eyes, his beautiful eyes that shine so bright, his smooth milky skin that bounces right back when you tap it, his fluffy, soft, silky smooth hair, his tiny waist- I CAN JUST TALK ABOUT HIM ALL DAY LONG.

anyway. I wanna confess my love for him so I was thinking maybe after school I can ask him out and confess, I'm hoping to have a chance with him because he did say he is bisexual. I know  I have my hopes way up, but you know, you should never lost hope

It's currently morning, I'm heading to school... well WE'RE heading to school because the whole STRAYKIDS stay together in 1 house. We got to school and we got out, it was still kind off early so we can do anything until class. So I decided to ask jisung to meet me after school

"uh hey jisung" I said as I stopped by his locker. he was just putting books in his locker

"oh, hey hyung. do you need anything?"

"can you meet me after school? I have to tell you something"

"oH, perfect I have to tell you something too"

"ok, meet me by the gates"

"ok-" ugh the bell just rang

"I have to go now hyung, class will start soon" jisung hugged me before he ran off

SKIP TO THE MOTHER FUCKING END OF THE MOTHER FUCKING DAY 

I am now waiting for jisung by the gates like we planned, I finally see him running to me

"hey hyung, sorry did you wait for a long time?"

"no don't worry I just got here"

"so what are you gonna tell me?"

"uh- listen, I have liked you a lot for a very long time now. what I'm saying is I love you. like really love you, so damn much. I'm sorry" I looked at my feet, scared of his reaction

"uh- hyung-"

"before you say anything about my confession I remember you want to tell me something? what was it?" I said still with my head down

"uh... I was gonna say I have a girlfriend now. it's uh yeji... and I'm sorry too" I looked up because I don't know what he meant because he just suddenly said 'sorry'

as I look up I see him... just walking away...

"well. that went well" I let out a bitter laugh as I begin to walk home. I don't really go home with the guys in the car. I usually walk because it's relaxing

AT THEIR HOUSE (MANSION)

I walking straight to my bedroom not really feeling like doing anything with the guys...

FEW HOURS LATER, DINNER TIME

"hey minho, dinner is ready" I looked up and see chan hyung by my door

"I don't really feel like eating, I'm not really hungry"

"are you sure? I made your favorite"

"yup, I'm sure, thanks hyung"

"you're welcome... I guess...?" chan walked out, confused as heck because usally minho is the first one at the dinning table

AUTHOR'S POV shut up

Chan walked out minho's room and head down stairs

he was greeted with confused faces, wondering where minho is

"hyung, where is minho hyung?" felix asked confused as fuck

"he said he wasn't... hungry?"

"hey jisung, did you know what happened to minho hyung?" seungmin said whilst the rest turned their head towards jisung in a snap of a finger 

"no. why do you guys always assume I know what is going on with his life?"

"because you too are bestfriends...?"

"so? doesn't mean I need to know every situation he is on, like damn, I have my own life too, you know?"

TIME SKIP,NEXT DAY, LUNCH TIME AT SCHOOL, BACK TO MINHO'S  POV 

I was just looking down at my food, eating, not really in the mood to talk tea with my friends 

I heard and felt some one sat at our table so I looked up and see jisung. I started to eatfaster to finish so I can get away from jisung

"uh guys can I tell you guys something?' jisung said whilst trying to get the other members attention

"yeah sure" they said but I just kept my head down because I fell like I already know what he is gonna say

"I have a... girlfriend" I looked up to look at my friends reaction and I just saw them looking at me... yes they know I like jisung

"her name is yeji..." changbin turned his head at jisung and said/asked

"HWANG yeji?" 

"yeah...why?"

"the one that used to bully minho?" 

"yeah..." jisung said nervously rubbing his neck as he looks down

"Uh guys I have to go now. I'm done with my food" I said as I stood up and walked away ignoring their calls

I speed walked to the garden because that's my some what happy place. that's where I go to calm down, that is where  I go when I'm sad or feeling extra depressed hahaha. why did I even got any hopes up, I knew he would never love or even just like a depressed, weak, stupid little cunt a.k.a me. all I can do is laugh the pain away 

TIME SKIP, AT THEIR HOUSE

right now I'm in my bathroom holding a blade. I just smiled it down thinking about the things I can do to my wrist with it. at this point I treat my blades like my own bestfriends

I slid one long, deep cut I'm my wrist, loving the painful feeling. I just watch the wound as it has started to ooz out blood. my smile got wider but I know, you know, WE know that, that smile is empty. I was too busy watching the blood to notice  some one barging in my bathroom

"HYUNG WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?!" it was jisung. I just smiled at him as he took the blade out of my hands as he started to look for my med kit 

"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS AGAIN?! I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU TO NEVER CUT AGAIN"

"I'm just tired of everything jisung"I looked at him and see him already looking at me. 

"no, NO THAT IS NOT THE ONLY REASON YOU DUMB ASSHOLE, I TOLD YOU TO NEVER DO THIS KIND OFF COMMITMENTS EVERY AGAIN. WHAT IF I LOSE YOU DUMB BITCH, WHAT IF WE LOSE YOU HUH?"

"you're gonna be fine, you have yeji now. your beautiful girlfriend" I looked at him with the empty smile not falling of my face

"sO IS THIS WHAT THIS IS ALL ABOUT?! ME-"

"WHATS GOING ON HERE?!" the members walked in

"REJECTING YOU, SO YOUR DUMB STUPID SELF TRIED COMMITING SUICIDE AGAIN?! ARE YOU BEING THE MOST STUPID PERSON RIGHT NOW?!?!!??" jisung said as he continued the sentence that chan interrupted. not gonna lie, his words hurt. the love of my life calling me stupid and dumb but I can't do anything anymore because I can't feel anymore pain so I just weakly smiled at them 

"guys, can you go out now? I'm getting tired anymore. you too ji" I smiled my way through the sentence. I'm feeling light headed already so I just wanna sleep it off

"WE ARE NOT DONE TALKING LEE MINHO, JUST GET OVER THE FACT THAT I DON'T LIKE YOU AND I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND, STOP BEING A DUMB ASS BITCH"

"I was trying to get over things but you took it away"

"what the fuck do you mean?"

"you took away my blade"

"so the fuck what?!"

"I can get over you by you letting me cut, so please give me back my blade-"

"WAIT- MINHO WHY ARE TRYING TO KILL YOURSELF AGAIN?!" changbin step in

"nothing hyun-" before I finished my sentence jisung spoke again

"you kNOW WHAT HERE, TAKE YOUR BLADE. KILL YOURSELF, ALL YOU WANT IS ATTENTION, THAT'S WHY YOU'RE 'DEPRESSED'. YOU WANT IT SO BADLY RIGHT? HERE" Jisung threw my blade on the ground and I picked it Up

"thanks-" I was cut off again by one of our friends

'jisung that's too much"

"so what? let him be. he wants to kill him self? let him" jisung said the 'let him' part with pure blank face.

"but that's your bestfriend" jeongin said hiding behind chan because he is so scared right now

"let him be~~ he wants to kill himself so badly then let him be" jisung rolled his eyes at me and left my room, they all looked at me, worried but I just smiled at them. 

"I'm really tired guys, please get out so I can go to sleep" I said with a small forced smile

"how can we be so sure you won't commit anything?"

"one of you can sleep here if any one of you wants to?"

"I'll do it" hyunjin raised his hand

"oki"

NEXT DAY, END OF SCHOOL OTW HOME, AUTHOR'S POV

I don't know if any of you remembers but remember what minho said in the beginning? that he is the only one that walked home, what the members don't know is he packed all his clothes and stuff and threw them off his window.. you'll see where I'm going with this in a few

MINHO'S POV

I got home first, which is perfect. I put the letter I wrote for them when I was in class and put in on my bed. I got my airplane ticket I booked and took all my stuff I threw out my window and perfect timing my uber is here. 

yes, I'm leaving, I'm moving in with my cousin in Canada. I was planning on really killing myself after Jisung said all those things to me, but chan hyung made hyunjin sleep with me so I wouldn't do anything. so I decided to just leave