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"You alright?" I asked looking up at Trevor's pale face as he made his way back to the table where a chocolate Oreo cupcake awaited him on my behalf.

"Can I see your phone?" He asked.

I leaned over raising an eyebrow, handing him my cell. He starred at the background blankly for a moment or two before handing it back to me.

"I adore chocolate." He grinned.

I looked at my background, studying the picture of Jake and I. What did that have to do with anything?

"May I ask what just happened?" I asked sitting back in my chair.

"I just...saw someone." He said, trying to choose his words carefully.
I glanced over my shoulder and scanned the area. The 'being watched' feeling creeped in for a moment but I quickly let it go
"Oh." I shrugged, "Eat up birthday boy." I grinned
"Have you heard anything from Jacob?" He asked suddenly, picking up his pizza.
"No."
"Oh. Are you going to see him when you get home?" He asked looking off at the street again, sounding almost disappointed.
"Why so many questions about Jake?" I asked swallowing hard. What if I did see him?

I had ignored that thought for days now. I knew there was no way after everything that happened would my mother allow him to come like we had always done, but a part inside of me had a shred of hope that he would be there when I got home.
"I just don't want you to get hurt again Mi..." He said taking a bite with a friendly smile
I forced myself to smile in return, but instead I had lost all appetite.

Seeing Jake would get me no where and would leave me empty and lacking any sort of fulfillment what so ever. In all honesty, I think it would be the end of me.

"Come on." He said wiping off his frosting covered mouth, "Lets get out of here."

"Shh they'll see you." I smacked Travis's arm as we maneuvered through the bushes quietly.

Currently it was 1:02AM. Curfew at this school was 11:30- just a tad late.
We slipped into the dorms, walking ever so silently up the stairs past the deans' room. 
"I'll see you tomorrow?" I whispered as we neared my room, glancing back at Travis.
"Before you go, I still have one birthday wish." He grinned
"What would that be? I thought the Ice skating and snow ball fight was enough?" I raised an eyebrow pulling my hat off while ruffling my hair out.  
It was not until I looked up that I realized he was unbelievably close, one hand pressed against the wall on one side of me. His other hand picked apart strands of hair that fell messily around my face. I froze against the door to my room, unintentionally holding my breath. 
"Don't move." He whispered, his lips nearing mine.
What was he doing? I couldn't! I couldn't kiss Trevor! Mia move away. Just duck in to your room. What would Jake think?

'He wouldn't care' the voice said back.

Regardless.
I watched his lips, my own quivering in fear. My heart was legitimately about to jump out of my chest, which I had absolutely no control over, as well as why I wasn't stopping this.

Did I want him to kiss me?

I drew in a swift breath of air, shocked when his lips actually brushed against mine softly. Trevor pulled away for a moment, both our eyes opening to meet each others. Those sea green pools had never had this affect on me. Trevor in the slightest had never had this affect on me.

He held my eyes lovingly while his hand travelled down the nape of my neck then back up, holding my jaw firmly but with care. I blinked twice before my eyes fluttered shut completely when his lips came back into contact with mine.

His kiss was sweet and slow, his lips molded to mine in a way I hadn't felt before. Unintentionally, my hands had made it up to the top of his jacket, pulling him closer to my body by his collar, which prompted his other hand to follow my body down to my waist. His arm slowly wrapped itself around my small body, pulling us together as one.

And for a moment, I couldn't think of anything but Trevor.

He let out a heavy sigh, sucking my bottom lip seductively. A breathless moan escaped my lips causing him to cling to me tighter. Finally, it came to an end, Trevor groaned pulling away from me breathlessly yet he kept his arm fixed around my body. I stood there in silence taking deep breaths before opening my eyes to the foggy haze of the moment.

Trevor's other hand reached up to my face, his fingertips gliding over my cheek bones down to my plump bottom lip.

"I wanted to do that from day one." He whispered.

What the hell just happened.

"Oh my god." I whispered, the past few moments finally hitting me with full force.

"Mia...I- I" Trevor started as the shock on my face got his attention.

"I have to go." I whispered letting go of him, pushing him away as the tears quickly filmed over my eyes.

"Please don't...don't do this." He murmured reaching for my hand. I shook him off, shuffling through my pocket for my key. "No facades Mia. That was real." He pleaded.

That couldn't have been real. I wasn't his Mia, I was Jacobs- whether he wanted me or not, he had me. I couldn't be with Trevor.

I wouldn't be with Trevor.