Warnings. Starving, depressing thoughts and unhealthy habits
This is gonna be angst and smut I guess. All the boy live in the same house.

Juicys pov
We just got finished recording the slave episode. I start to tear up and I sit in my bathroom. I look into the mirror and feel ashamed. I honestly feel sick looking at myself. I'm so fat and ugly. I look at my face. Cheeks stained, tears red bloodshot eyes, dark circles under my eyes and a broken expression. I don't know how much longer I can keep this happy persona. I know they are jokes. I'm just being a baby. Sometimes what they say really does hurt but I would never tell them that. "Juicy dinner is ready," I hear narrator shout. "Coming" I say in my normal voice. I wet my face to try and calm down before putting on my Veronica hoodie on. It's comfy and smells a bit like Eddie and creepy and gross as that sound it is nothing weird it's just comforting. I walk out of my room and down to the dining room table. I look at the table. Tacos. Must have been eddies turn to cook. I sit down and wait for everyone else. Josh sits at the head of the table, narrator opposite me, ree kid next to narrator, Mully at the other end, then me. "Aw now I gotta sit next to juicy" Eddie jokes laughing lightly after. I fake laugh and fake smile at them. Everyone takes a few tacos but I only take one. "Juicy is that all your gonna eat dawg, I didn't cook these for nothing. Dig in and enjoy dawg," Eddie says quietly to me. I nod and take another thanking him. They are really good but I can't eat more, i don't need to become any fatter. I just sit back and wait for the others to be done. After a while ree kid, Mully and Eddie are done so I take all of the plates they have and put them on the sink. I ask if I can leave. Narrator said I could so I rush to my bathroom. I vomit up all of what I ate. Ugh. I'm so fat. Why did I eat all of that. I'm hopeless. Insults flash through my mind. I force up as much as I could. I flush the toilet then have a shower. I brush my teeth then I sit in my bed on my phone. I scroll through my Instagram until I hear a gentle knock at my door. "Come in" I say tiredly. Josh opens the door and walks towards me. "Hey man, are you okay. You seemed off a bit at dinner?" He asks sitting on my bed. "Oh yeah I'm fine, I'm just tired" I say with a fake smile. "Okay, that's good but you know that if there is something wrong you can tell us, we care about you man" he says walking out. "Thanks josh" I say as he closes the door. My smile fades and I roll my eyes. Pfft. Why would they care about me. I sit in my phone. I come across some edits of Eddie and I smile. He is so cool. I live his accent. I love his deep brown eyes. I love his laugh. I love his smile. I love him. Oh god, I'm in love with my best friend. I sigh. God I'm pathetic. I start to think about what josh said "we all care about you man"

Eddies pov.
I notice juicy acting a bit weird at dinner. He didn't eat much and wasn't talking. I walk up to josh. "Hey uhh could you check on juicy please I'm worried about him?" I ask concerned. "Yeah sure, I'm a bit worried too" he says walk to juicys room. I hope he is okay. He is so cute. He deserves the world because he is just so sweet and innocent. He won't be innocent when I'm done with him. Wtf. After a long time of questioning my sexuality and think about juicy, josh knocks on my door. "He said he is fine but I don't believe him, look I know you both like each other so maybe you should talk to him" he suggests. "He does not like me but yes I will do it," I say whispering the first part. Josh and I both walk out and he goes somewhere else. I walk to juicys door and hear sniffling. My heart aches hearing this. I knock. "Geage.....let me in buddy" I say softly. I hear shuffling and the door unlock and open. "What do you want" he says with red eyes and tear stained cheeks. I walk in and wrap my arms around him. "What is wrong and don't you dare tell me you are fine" I say jokingly. We sit in the bed. " I..I am depressed. I'm tired. I'm sorry for being weak but the jokes you guys make really get to me sometimes, I have these voices telling me bad things about myself and I hate myself" he says breaking down and crying. My heart shatters. "I..I'm so sorry, I will back off on the jokes b..but why do you hate yourself.....you are beautiful" I say looking down in shame. "I'm an ugly, fat f****t" he says not looking me in the eye. "Geage, you are perfect, your smile is breathtaking, your eyes are dazzling, your laugh is adorable and you are hot as fuck" I say looking up. "Never think badly about yourself again, you are perfect and I will prove it to you" I say smirking. He blushes and I lean in kissing him. He moans turning me on more. I disconnect our lips and start to suck and bite his neck making him squeal and blush. I giggle and make his take off his shirt. He is really skinny but also fit. My jaw drops at the sight. "You like what you see or something, quit staring and do something come on!" He says in his sexy accent making me giggle. I kiss my way down his chest and abs. Then trace my tongue along his v-line. He lets out squeals and moans driving me crazy. "Stop teasing Eddie" he whiles. I smirk and unbuckle his jean slowly. He growls and takes it off himself. I kneel I front of him and start to rub his thigh. He lets out a whimper. I kiss the tip then slowly add more and more until I almost gag. He grabs my hair and thrusts into me. I moan onto his cock sending vibrations making him groan. After a while I feel him twitch so I started to deepthroat him. "E..Eddie I'm gonna-" he was cut off my his own moan of my name. He came in my mouth and I swallowed it all. I get back into the bed and lay down both of us panting. He lays in my arms against my chest. I wrap my arms around him. "You are perfect baby and you better believe it" I whisper and he shivers. I chuckle and we fall asleep.

Time skip
The next morning I was woken up by three phones in my face. "Wtf are y'all doing?" I whisper yell trying not to wake up juicy. I hear him groan and he snuggles closer to me making me blush hard. I hear a click and watch as they run out of the room. Luckily the only this one my mind atm is my baby.

So that was interesting. I'm really not good at smut lol thanks for reading byeeee