This will contain smut. It will have suicidal thoughts and self harm I'm sorry if this triggers you and if you suffer from depression you can talk to me I don't judge people and I have my issues too. Thanks for reading enjoy 💝

Juicy pov
I stare into the mirror feeling numb. Why are you so ugly. Your not funny. They don't need you. They hate you. F****t. That's what broke me. I'm gay and I haven't see told the boys yet. I'm scared to. I have a huge crush on Eddie but I can't tell him he'll never love me. I pull out my razor. Every insult I hear is another cut. Soon I get too caught up and cut really deep. Oh no. I wash of some blood and wrap it up. I walk to my bed. I have 18 missed calls from Eddie and 12 messages.
Dude are you okay
Are you mad at me
I'm sorry
You always answer you phone are you okay
Omg I need to talk to you
this isn't funny dawg
I'm really worried
Please respond
That's it
I'm coming to your house
I'm on my way
Please be okay

I panic. oh god what do I do. Why does he care. I'm nothing to him. I put on one of the hoodies he left here last time and combed my hair. I go check the bathroom and make sure I put everything away and cleaned up. I hear a knock at the door and my heart speeds up. I walk to it and open it and Eddie pulls me into a hug. "Gauge are you okay I was so worried about you why didn't you answer are you mad at me" he asks. I stop him and tell him to come in and sit down. "I'm sorry eddie I left my phone in my room, I'm fine but I don't know why you care anyway" I say the last bit whispering. I hear him gasp. "Of course I care about you, you are the kindest, funniest, cutest person in the world" he says making me blush. "Cute?" I ask. "Did I say that shit well now you know "he says also blushing. "Thanks but you really should lie to me eddie" I whisper and look down. He puts if thumb under my chin making me look at him. Omg my face is probably so red rn. "I would never lie to you and you know why..... because I..I love you. I dont know if you feel the same and I'll leave but first" he leans in and kisses me. I immediately kiss back. When we pull away. "Don't you ever think badly about yourself, everything about you is amazing and everyone loves you" he says. "Okay, I love you too I'm so happy you feel the same but I need to show you something promise you won't be mad or get grossed out" I say. "Are you about to whip your dick out" he asks. We both laugh " no it's something serious" I says "okay sorry" he apologises. I sigh and take off my (his) jumper. Unwrapping the bandages. I look up to see his reaction. He starts tearing up "why man" he asks "I don't know I could handle the voices I'm just so ugly and fat an-" I get cut of. Eddie smirks "do I need to show you how beautiful you are" he whispers seductively in my ear. Ishiver and nod
⚠️smut no ones pov
Eddie takes of juicys shirt and pushes him back on the laugh. He crawls on-top of him and starts kissing all over his body starting at his neck. Juicy moans loudly and Eddie smirks. He sucks and bites on his neck then goes down then goes down to his chest leaving marks all the way down. "Your so hot" Eddie whispers out. He makes his way down to his abs. Then to his jeans. "Wait, this doesn't seem fair how come I'm about to be naked and you have all your clothes" juicy asks. Eddie nod and takes off his shirt and jeans. Juicy stares at eddie drooling at the sight. "You like what you see baby" Eddie asks in Spanish making juicy harder. Eddie unzips juicy's jeans and starts pumping him. Juicy's head tilts back and he lets out a few moans making Eddie harder. He puts his fat cock into his mouth and starts to suck. Juicy moans more. After a while eddie feels juicy twitch in his mouth then takes him out. Eddie flips juicy so he is on all fours and hold his fingers to juicy's face "suck" he says and juicy does. He takes them out of him mouth and slides a finger into him. Juicy arches his back and moans. Eddie enters a few more. Once he got bored with this he takes them out and looks at juicy. "I want you to beg for me" he says. "Please eddie I need you inside me, I love you and need you, please fuck me" he begs. Eddie nods "alright" he slides his dick in and waits for him to adjust. Once he hears juicy moan he starts pounding slow at first then faster and harder. "Harder eddie" juicy moans. And Eddie does. Juicy screams eddies name. "I'm bout to cum" juicy moans out. "Me too baby cum for me" Eddie groans out. "EDDIE" juicy moans cuming on his chest and couch. And Eddie cums inside of him and slowly slides out. "Now do you believe your beautiful?" Eddie pants. And juicy just nods. "I love you so much" juicy says snuggling into Eddie. "I love you too he says picking juicy up and takes him to bed. They snuggle up and fall asleep together. Aww

Sorry I'm bad at writing smut that was really cringe. I give up comment on what you want next thank you guys for reading love you guys bye.