My pulse increase
My heart beats faster
Uncomfortable thoughts
Cloud my mind
I try to push the thoughts away
But there are to many
Caught in the swarm
Suddenly I'm afraid

A familiar feeling
Sleep that only tire
Days go by in slowmotion
Nightmares and memories
Feeling like I'm in a prison
Uncontrolable rage
Reaction to months
Of bottled up anger

Shaking hands
Tears flowing
All the inner alarms
Warning me to stop
The voices and thoughts too loud
A dark place inside
Reaching the end of the road
Diagnosis: Suicidal