I slammed the door
Tears on my face
I quickly locked it
Turned up the music
Sank too the ground
I took a shaky breath
I rose to my feet
In search of relieve
I found my razor
My beloved blade
'How can it be
Something so small
Can be so scary
And yet so soothing
So repulsive
And yet I can't stay away'
These questions rang in my head
As I tore my skin again and again
I felt so relieve
And yet so guilty
But why the guilt they asked
'You have no one left'
I started with one
But one became two
Two became five
And five became ten
Ten became fifteen
Fifteen became twenty
Twenty became thirty
Thirty became forty
Forty became fifty
And by that time I was dead