Giggling I lean at the door frame watching Guren speaking with Sayuri and Mito.
How can he say he loves me? Mahiru Hiiragi is possessing his mind. I know that they loved each other,Guren still doed and they even spend the night together. He never touches me.
Yawning I turn around holding my head as I sigh trying to block Guren out of my mind. Maybe it's better to break off everything but I love him so much. It's gonna be painful to do this but it's the best after all I'm thinking about marriage and family in this rotted world. Being in thoughts I bump into Goshi who smiles as he parts my head '
"Jo what's up?" He asks with curiosity and his smile isn't leaving "Nothing!" I whisper and search in the grows for Guren who is standing with Sayuri and Shigure. Gritting my teeth I turn around grabbing Goshis and Gurens attention "You know he still loves Mahiru, right?" He says outta nowhere taking me by surprise. Nodding in sadness I stop in my tracks " still he is in love with you too" says Goshi before disappearing. I know that but this love is different. The love both shared was strong and could stand everything. The sadness is pushing my back as I walk towards my bedroom, putting on these three words the lock. As u want to walk inside a hand is gripping mine making me turning around to look at Guren. Why do I love him so much? It hurts.
Avoiding to gaze into the purple orbs I look down "Let's break up. I don't see a future for us at all!" I say and feel how his grip is slowly loosen " I don't want an answer. I want a reason!" He says with a furious expression. I don't want to leave his warmth neither. I can't bring myself to say "I don't want to see you again"
Breaking away from him I lock myself in my room hearing his hollow footsteps leaving "Goodbye Guren!"I say and close my eyes. This is painful. Indeed.
Hours have been passing by and the Headquarters has been informed about the situation between us. This is gonna be difficult. Looking myself on the mirror I notice that I'm looking horrible. My smile has vanished. Gurens scent is lingering still in my room making me remember the nights were he was with me talking through the nights. A sudden knock interrupts my flashback. Why am I feeling so weak? Slowly I open the door to see Guren standing there in his night outfit, shorts and a T-shirt and his hair back "sorry it's kinda a routine!" He whispers before leaving me. I understand I can't go back but still I miss him "Guren" I whisper in desperation and see how the darkness is taking him away from my sight. Stupid Guren. Crashing my door shut I sit on my bed. The nightmares still haunting me. She won. Mahiru is still present. I can't believe it. I can't understand it. Why?
Shinya opens the door bringing me tea and sweets. What a sweetheart. Giving me a sad smile he places the plate beside me sitting down before taking my hand in his warm and protective one "please give me an answer!" I say and gaze into his eyes as I feel my emotions overflowing. He sighs before placing his soft lips against my forehead whispering an apology. I can't stand it. I don't want this. Guren. "Sorry Shinya. There's a thing I must do now!" I say still with teary eyes as I run out only in a long shirt searching for him, Guren Ichinose. My lungs are aching due the cold air I'm breathing in but I've been suffocating all this time. If he's happy now I'll leave him. His room is coming in my sight. I feel myself trembling as I stop before his door but before I could knock it was opened by him. He gave me a surprised look. The tension is still between us heavy. His eyes soften before his arms are wrapping themself around me "Don't go show your legs off like that. Stupid (F/N)" He says annoyed and pulls me in. Breathing his scent in slowly I let my hand touch his chest holding onto his shirt "I love you Guren!" I whisper against his skin. He stops his movement immediately "say it again!" He says against my ear "I love you so much!" I whisper against his lips before kissing him. I feel myself melting into this kiss. Guren starts to kiss back and leads me to the bed where he pushes me against the bed. As we broke apart a string of saliva is connecting us "As long as I can stay beside you I'm happy. It's enough for me !" I say soft brushing his hair back "but it's not ok for me anymore. It isn't enough at all!" He says against my lips before pressing a soft kiss against my chin.
Guren is trailing kisses down my jaw and starts to lift the long shirt. Don't tell me he wants to take this further. Closing my eyes I enjoy his touch. His hot breath his tickling my skin he says my name before Interwining our fingers. His lips are attached to my sensible skin making me moan with every touch "Gu-Guren!" I Moan and hold onto the sheets beneath me. Is it gonna get serious now between us ? My blood is boiling whenever I'm with you. Opening my eyes I gaze into his purple orbs which are clouded with lust jut like mine. Panting from the sensation I sit up leaning towards Guren "I won't stoo!" I whisper softly which pure seduction in my voice. Guren is surprised and chuckles before I sit on his lap and start to straddle him. Letting my hands wander off I found them hem of his shirt ready to toss it away any minute. Guren has it taken off without a minute to waste and is sucking at my sweet spot leaving bruises back which will be later hickeys for sure. I'm getting aroused from this. I feel myself throbbing. Guren has taken the opportunity to take my long shirt off and starts to play with my breast whispering seductive nothings in my ear. I try to hold my moan as he sucks at the nibble while folding the other mud of flesh. Leaning back I pant heavily feeling my body heating up due his touch "I can't hold back anymore!" He whispered and pushes me into the mattress taking his shorts off leaving him naked infront of me. I try to look away but I can't take stop to take a glimpse of him. He is big. Gulping I turn my head away feeling the blood rising to my cheeks. Guren is hovering over me kissing my shoulder and neck fiercely as his hand Travels down my hips towards my womanhood "you aren't wet enough!" He says and kissed me sliding his tounge in as he slides his finger inside of me. Our tounges are fighting for dominance which he wins. He is panting heavily now too with a firm grip on my wrist he is fusing my hand towards his crotch wanting me to touch it. Taking a deep breath I take it in my hands eyeing it carefully before taking it inside my mouth. Immediately Guren is moaning my name. Bobbing my head up and down in hope I give him enough pleasure. His crotch is throbbing inside my mouth after a while releasing his sperm. Roughly he pins me on the bed still his cum dripping from my chin down my breast and navel as he slides inside of me. Penetrating me. I cry out as I grab his shoulders pleading to stop for a few minutes. He waits to let me adjust his size before starting to move granting me the finest pleasure I could wish for.