i'm honestly not upset but i do have an issue with lauren. she's been trying us for a little minute but of course onika is so crazy she doesn't really pay attention. i think she know that she's not scared of anything so she doesn't really put too much of her focus on bullshit. because that's all lauren is. but that's also bad because things happen and then she's in her feelings about it since she didn't already notice it.

that's why i'm here though. to help her realize things when she doesn't.

she's been being extra close since that happened and i'm not even mad at it. we talked, she cried, i made her feel better. it's all cool. the topic of us being official again even came up. it made my heart jump with joy. but i didn't want her to just jump into it because something happened. so we agreed to give it a little time and if she still feels the same way then we can make it official.

but i love her. we've been through something outrageous already and i don't want something small like this to turn into something big like what i did. that would kill me.

"come with me."

"where?" i looked at her and she didn't look like she was going anywhere important. her hair was everywhere and she had on sweats with a tank top. so it confused me. onika doesn't really go out looking a mess.

"to my building, i have a meeting."

"no offense but you're going like that? is this important?"

"not really.....i'm just breaking the contract with lo."

"no." i sat up quick. she's never broken a contract and i don't need her doing that because of me. i'm not even upset! onika never does that. "no don't do that."

"it's for the better bey, it's not that serious." she mumbled going to the mirror to look at herself. i guess she realized how much of a mess she looked so she started to brush her hair into a ponytail.

"onika you can't do that."

"why can't i? that girl has caused enough problems. it's only a matter of time until we're fighting in my yard again. i have enough on me bey."

"onika it's fine, you don't have to do that. you've never done it before...."

"there's a first time for everything." she went in her drawer and started to change. i just watched her. breaking that contract will put a label on her and she knows it. "are you gonna come with me?"

"yea but...don't do it."

"beyoncé im doing it."

"nooo. you're making me feel bad nic, don't do that. you wouldn't have ever done anything like that, don't do it now. think about what the media will say." that's the only thing that'll get in her head, so i had to use that. she's big on her reputation.

"ion care no more. if i keep her then my reputation will most likely get worse. what's wrong with breaking a contract anyways?"

"ask yourself that nic. you're the one that never did it so....don't do it cause of me."

"it's not cause of you." she took her shirt off revealing her bra. it's like hearts jumped out my eyes literally. i got off the bed going to her. "it's not bey."

"it is though. if you wouldn't have felt like i was upset, you wouldn't even be going on with this."

"no....i wanna be with you and i don't want any issues in between. so i'm doing this for my sanity. i'll go fucking crazy if i mess up during our relationship beyoncé, you know how i am. so it's best that i have nothing to do with her."

i sighed because it made sense but still, she's never broken a contract. that's one, a lot of money and two, something she's never done! i can't stress that enough. it would really hurt me to know that she did something like that.

"can i have a kiss?" i puckered my lips at her and she pecked them quickly.

"come onnn, we gotta go."

"onika don't break the contract, just transfer her." i thought of something. she could transfer her to another part of her company. although onika does everything on her own, she still has people under her. but she don't have a fucking assistant. heavy eye roll.

"i'll think about it."

"for how long? because we're about to leave now."

"bey. just come on baby, please."

"ok...let's go."

walking inside her building, we went upstairs where all the offices are. she led the way, with my eyes on her ass. it's so fat and just grabable. so i pinched it making her glare back at me.

"stop playing."

"i'm not playing, i'm for real. i think i deserve some ass when we get back home." i skipped beside her and held her hand. she shook her head at me before smiling small. at least she smiled. "wait." i stopped her from walking. "im serious. so that means that i can do what i want because you're giving it to me." we need to get this understood now.

"beyoncé this isn't the time."

"ok well agree."

"im not agreeing-"

"agree, please."

"ok. you can do what you want, let's go."

that made me happy because she's never agreed.

"i just don't think...it's a smart idea to keep her working in my area."

"onika you've never broken a contract..." her agent spoke in a low tone and she shrugged. i could tell it was annoying her to hear that. that's how i knew she didn't really wanna do it. because if she was fine with it, it wouldn't be getting under her skin like this.

"and y'all keep saying that shit for what? i've never had to deal with no psycho shit like this either!!" her face scrunched and she sat up on the table. i placed my arm across her lap so she wouldn't do anything she would regret. she's actually angry right now. "y'all can't tell me this shit is normal! i'm thinking the bitch is okay and over dumb shit but she still going! knock the bitch off the papers or everybody in this bitch is fired!!" she stood up making me do the same, stepping in front of her.

i grabbed her face so she could look at me.

"calm down, let's go talk outside." i whispered and had to pull her out. she didn't care what anyone had to say anymore, she was over it. "onika."

"i don't wanna talk, just knock her off."

"onika think about what's going on...you're upset because you don't really wanna do it. that's not your final decision and it shows. that's why we keep bringing up the fact that you've never done that. yea it may seem like it's not a big deal, but it is to you. you know it is. so act like it and stop trynna be nonchalant about stuff."

"i'm not-"

"you are. go in there and make the decision you really want to."

"i was making my decision-"

"you weren't-"

"stop cutting me offfff." she whined stomping her feet and crossing her arms. here she go. i sighed gesturing for her to talk. "i was making my decision, why don't y'all believe that?"

"because it shows onika. that's why. we know that when you're sure about something, you take it and say fuck what anyone else has to say. like when you agreed to letting her work. you believed that she wouldn't be a problem so you said fuck what everyone else had to say. but you chose to knock her down and now what we say is upsetting you. onika don't break the contract."

"it's not even that serious."

"it is to you. you trynna convince yourself that it isn't."

she didn't say anything anymore so i mushed her back in the meeting room. we sat down while she just glared at everyone. lauren was sitting there like she didn't care what would be happening.

"any final decisions?" the agent asked and onika shrugged. ok then. she wanna be stubborn.

"she's just gonna move her to another location. to prevent further issues in her area of comfort, she feels like it's best to move her. so she'll still have her job, just not working with her."

"okay. can we get a signature?" he pushed the paper to onika and she just looked at it. i sighed snatching the pen as well as her hand before making her grab it.

"sigh the paper, now."

"you're not my mother." she rolled her eyes before signing it. i didn't even bother saying anything back. just waited until she was finished. "let's go before i have to slap the shit outta somebody."

i got up when she did, following her out.

"you said....that i could do whatevveerrrr i wanted." i smiled straddling her lap and she sighed looking at me. she better not still be upset because it's not that serious. "are we still on for the deal? or you're upset?"

"i'm not upset, i never was."

"whatever. are we still on?"

"yea. i said i would." she sat up making me smile. my arms went around her neck and i kissed her, slightly smiling at all the things i would be doing to her.

she's about to fall deeper in love.