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all this throwing up, i cannot. i'm doing the most i can without getting disgusted. she act like she doesn't want my help but like.....i don't wanna just leave her hanging. she's in pain so it'll only make sense if i was by her side to help.

when we went to the movies last night she wasn't feeling okay. i kept telling her we could leave but she wasn't trying to hear it. soon as we got home she was in the bed with a trash can next to her. i would've laid with her but she told us she didn't wanna be bothered. we had no choice but to respect it.

now i'm hoping that she comes out of her room.

summer and blue stayed over because it only made sense. the only person that's been in onikas room is her sister. i guess that's self explanatory as to why.

today i want to try and get her to the hospital like her mom said. but i don't want her to feel the way she did when i called her mom. i just know ms carol said if she started to feel too bad, bring her.

i've been trying to stop doing things that may make her feel the way she did before. she expressed that she doesn't like it so it's my job to stop. but in all honesty i don't know what to actually stop.

i know about now i want a kiss or two though. really about to just go in her room. knock first of course. mya and blue are still sleeping but i can hear onika and summer awake. as i opened my room door i could see summer come out of onikas down the hall. she had a mug in her hand and went to the kitchen.

while she did that i made my way to onika. knocking softly before walking inside. at first i didn't see her but when i walked around she was on the floor leaning against the bed.

"baby." i pouted seeing her. she just look tired as hell. really hate that her cycle does this to her. she has vitamin water all around her bed and room. those things are disgusting.

"baba." she reached for me. yay. i went down with her and she laid on me. aw, she willingly laid on me first. that's a step. "it'll all be over tomorrow." she mumbled while i rubbed her back.

"all over tomorrow." i kissed her head. she sniffled cuddling into me as i held her close. it's obvious that she hasn't been eating. last night everyone got wings and all she got was a water. i was so tempted to make her get some food but i didn't wanna push.

we stayed laying there but eventually summer came back in the room. she was getting clothes out and then some shoes. i kind of caught on that she was about to get her to the hospital.

"come on onika."

"hospital?" she questioned and summer nodded. i went to get dressed plus get the girls up. by time we were ready, it was time to go out the door. we all got in my car because it made sense to ride together.

i held onikas hand as we went inside to check her in. it didn't take long for carol to be coming down. we didn't even call her or anything. i guess when the people see the last name they instantly alert her.

"aw my baby. come on let's get you on some fluids." we followed them on the elevator and to carols office. it shook me when she opened a door and there was like a mini hospital room. onika went to the bed letting carol get her situated. "have you eaten?"

"not since yesterday when i left work for myas thing."

"ok i need for you to eat something. what do you want me to get?" carol cleaned her arm with an school pad.

"it's not gonna stay down momma."

"that doesn't matter, you're in the hospital."

"i just want some fries then." she held her arm out for her mom to stick. i cringed some watching the needle go inside. eh. the fact that she didn't flinch not once said a lot. she's strong. "maaa. i don't want an iv."

"we have to get fluids in you onika, i'm sure you've been throwing up like crazy. i really hate that you got that from us."

oh so this must run in her family. makes sense. poor them, jeez. imagine them all at once. god. i wouldn't know what to do besides drop dead.

"want me to go get the fries?" i stepped up. ms carol shook her head though so i figured she was okay with getting them. once she had the iv inside onikas arm she left out.

my baby look so drained. droopy eyes and some what pale. i wanted to kiss all over her. she just look like she need a couple naps.

"you okay?" i started fixing her covers around the bed. she nodded keeping her eyes on me and i kissed her forehead. trying hard not to touch her lips because i know she said she didn't want her mom to know about anything. it's gonna be hard for sure. "you want something on the tv? like the history channel or the animal one?"

"i want you here to watch it with me."

"i am here, i'm not leaving you babe."

"no, here in the bed with me. come in." she moved over to make room and i took my shoes off so i could join her. this makes me appreciate how small she is because i still have a lot of room.

immediately she wrapped herself around me while lifting my shirt. i didn't say anything, just let her do her. even though her hands were cold around my waist. she laid her head on my shoulder and rubbed on me slowly. had to tell myself that it wasn't like that right now.

"i need a kiss."

"your mom is coming." i tried to sit after hearing the office door but she didn't let me. made her grip tighter so i wouldn't move. she whimpered when i tried again so i just gave up and stayed there. hopefully she doesn't say anything.

ms carol came in with a basket of chic fil a fries and polynesian sauce. i love a hospital with fast food inside of it. the best.

"here onika. sit up and try to eat it darling."

"mommmaaa. give me a minute."

"alright then grumpy pants, it'll be right here." carol sat it on the tray stand that's on the side of the bed. so if she wants it she can just pull it over.

i know onika needs to eat, so i made her sit up. it was hard but luckily she's not heavy so i did it.

"baba stoopp."

"no, you need to try to eat onika. at least while you're not throwing up and stuff. come on, now."

she huffed sitting up but leaned back on the bed. i pulled the stand in front of us and picked up a fry for her. could you believe that this girl just ignored me? like didn't even open her mouth for the damn fry. only stared forward with her arms crossed.

"you wanna play with me nic?"

i didn't get an answer.

"ok then. until you eat, i'm not laying with you." i got out the bed making her head snap to me. a deep frown came onto her face and she pushed the tray away. dont nobody care about this attitude. this literally only happens
when she's on this stupid cycle. other than that, onika does not have attitudes for real. "do you wanna eat?"

"no."

"well then." i shrugged and sat in my previous chair.

"ugh, yoncé! you don't do her like that!" mya looked at me like i was such a villain. it made me chuckle because she was dead serious. "you're supposed to be nice."

"i am being nice, she's not being nice to me."

"no. lay with her."

"i-"

"lay with her!"

"ok jeez." i got up and went back to the bed with onika. her little self wrapped around me again but i grabbed the tray. "onika, eat."

"i don't wanna eat baba, just give me a minute please. i'll eat."

"alright. i'm sorry." i kissed her forehead and let her lay back down on me. she sniffled holding me tight as if i was going somewhere. "why you squeezing me?" the cover was over her head so i went under with her. "mm? why you holding me so tight? i'm not going anywhere."

she only dropped her hand from my back to my butt. i pecked her lips twice then pushed her hair back. her eyelashes still look good. the prettiest ever even when she's looking half dead.

"i feel so drained."

"that's why i want you to eat baby. can you do that for me?" i rubbed her face. she nodded before we both came from under the covers. carol was back in the room typing on the computer. damn.

i just ignored it and started to feed onika the fries. she was eating rather slow. at least she's eating though, that's all that matters.

"i need to use the restroom." she tapped me and i helped her go. i had to push the iv machine because she didn't want to. "can you ask my mom for a tampon?"

"ok." i went to ask but she gave me a pad. ok. onika didn't like that though. she sent it back. aw boy. "she said she doesn't want this."

"what does she want then? a tampon doesn't make sense when she's..." carol stopped talking and walked past me. oh my. i know this woman is crazy but is she actually crazy?

i followed her back to the restroom where onika was just sitting there. if i were her i'll just take the pad.

"before marriage?"

"what are you talking about mommy?"

"how do you use a tampon onika?"

"the proper way, i would say."

"you've had sex onika?"

"no! no mommy, i haven't."

this is awkward. i turned away on that note. that seems like a conversation for just them. something i don't even want to be apart of.

"this is embarrassing." summer huffed. they've all been so quiet, i forgot they were even here. blue hasn't made a peep. "she's always complaining about something. who the hell is about to wait until marriage? not i."

now that made me laugh. it's just funny because a mother with so many rules has children that will not follow them. or at least one, because onika does follow them at times.

when carol came out onika called me back in. i shut the door behind me.

"she's so annoying with that."

"are you a virgin? it's okay if you don't want to answer."

"heck no. i lost my virginity in high school, that's long overdue." she mumbled reaching for tissue. i turned as she handled herself, not looking until i heard the toilet flush.

"onika that's like a serious rule." i chuckled a little nervous. no sex until marriage is very serious.....i wonder what will happen if carol found out.

"to my mom all of her rules are serious. i think she knows, she's just been waiting on the right way to approach me about it. told you she has it bad with making people believe she doesn't know something. whole time she'll know and just be wanting you to snitch on yourself. i'm not dumb." she washed and dried her hands then i pushed the iv thing out as she walked.

we got back in the bed.

summer had this look on her face like she was talking to onika with her eyes. she stood up and looked out the door to carols office before closing it. oh they're about to gossip.

"what she say?"

"just a whole bunch of bull. basically saying that not waiting until marriage is a sin. i don't get why she's so serious about something she didn't even do."

"when she finds out that that milestone is passed, she's gonna shit bricks."

"that's why she won't know."

"you're still telling her you're a virgin?" summer chuckled while onika nodded. oh my, this is kind of bad. i don't even wanna know the outcome. "it's not like she's gonna pop your legs open and look. the hymen can break from many different things."

"exactly. she's gonna eventually find out because i'm not with a guy. i hope she doesn't think i'm gonna wait until a guy shows up at my doorstep asking to marry me."

"i'm damn sure not waiting. life is so much better."

"you get it." onika crept her hand up my thigh making me jump. i had a confused face because why do me like that? "isn't life so much better with it?" she looked at me biting her lip before pecking mine.

"i'm gonna take mya to get some food." blue got up with a quickness. summer followed them, shutting the door behind her. i'm confused.

onika kept kissing on me, moving her hands higher until she got to my bra. in the hospital?

"what are you doing?"

"i'm just touching you baba. don't you think life is better with my sex?"

"where is this coming from?"

"i'm just asking. isn't it?"

"yes it is. now stop messing with my nipple." i grabbed her hand before kissing it. she need to calm her coochie. "girl you don't know how ready i am for you stop bleeding. you've been taking me there."

"can i take you there now?"

"no. no onika, you're supposed to be sick."

"i am sick, you're my cure."

here she go with this.

"no. give me kiss though."

i leaned in and kissed her nasty. she kept trying to touch me but i would grab her hands. we're not doing this. it's not even fair because i can't do anything else back.

"eat that food."