JOKER"S P.O.V

I messed up I messed up I messed up all I can here in my head and the voices one saying I messed up the other saying blah blah blah blah blah. both voices driving me crazy "SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP!" I say pointing the gun at my head. "STUPID STUPID STUPID!" I yell hitting my head with the gun over and over and over again. "STOP TALKING BOTH OF YOU!" ooh you made boss man made at both of us one voice say's no you did this you not me all you! the other screamed. I put the gun to my head and pulled the trigger. click. the only sound it made "damn no bullets" I let a sigh of frustration. "GOD!" I scream throwing the gun against the wall. grabbing a knife from the circle around me throwing it at the wall then grabbing another and another till there is a big hole in the wall. "WHAT HAVE I DONE!" I didn't mean to hurt her but god she asked for it she wanted it. I didn't want to but god her neck so choke able, I just want to drag a blade across her perfect skin I wanna see the rose red blood fall from that skin. but I don't wanna hurt her she needs to be protected by me and from me.  I grab a blade and pull it across my wrist in a circle in the circle I carve her eMmA as best as I can. I'm going to get my girl back you see. I knew he would go for her he loves her . blah blah blah he dose not know hot to love he's a monster you see. the other said. the great question of my life is which voice is right?  well the moment of truth will be tonight won't it. "sir the bombs are set ready when you are" slim say's then closing the door behind him. I walk to the bathroom and dye my hair back to green never liked normal color then again what is normal I could be normal what if they are the bad ones and I'm just normal maybe maybe."LET'S HAVE SOME FUN!" I shout. letting out laughter hahahahahahaha. "time to get MY doll back" I say walking out of my room.