37. Stargazing

Attendance check, I guess?


Ahh... the vapor rub is making me high. Let's sniff sum more. 😌👌


Anyways...


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SAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 😭


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It took a few minutes until the two reached the castle. A cue where Y/n had to wake him up. So he did, walking out of the carriage first before her.


She followed ahead, not wanting to stall the time meeting this said 'queen' they were talking about.


Y/n never heard that the king ever had one, not any controversy pertaining to a future queen either.


Now Y/n began to wonder how long she's been away from here. Is the time period different here from back in the world quirks existed? If so, then it's understandable how things have been here.


For months, a lot of things had changed that she's wondering what happened and why were the transition so fast.


Reclaiming wall maria this early just after the breach of trost was also a surprise.


But it is possible. Especially because Eren was there to help out. She started thinking about him now, wondering how he's been. One of the people she cared about through out their years as trainees. Probably one of the most well hidden secret she's ever had. Not even Levi knew of it nor did anyone knew about it because surely, it might flip their entire friends' shits if they ever knew.


Thinking about it, how did they even started?


It might have been that one night Y/n started stargazing on a tree trunk, watching a number of boys sneaking out of their quarters when they were still at the beginning of training.


At that time, Eren kept falling off balance and recieved quite an outburst from the commandant, Shadis. So that night, together with Armin, Reiner and Bertoldt, they went to help him practice.


Y/n just watched him kept flunking off and hitting his head on the ground that she was already covering her mouth to stop herself from laughing. After a few more, her laughter finally subsided, getting used to the unending fall and now her gaze subbed to pity.


"You know, if you keep letting your head get beaten like that, I don't think you'll still have the proper mentality to balance yourself." She said from the trees.


The four looked around, surprised from the girl who spoke and started searching through the dim night. She sighed and jumped down the tree, finally revealing herself as she walked closer.


"It's odd that you can't even balance. Even a kid could do it." She said.


"I'm trying! I tried their advise but whatever I do, it just kept on flunking!" Eren complained.


"Can you stand in one foot?" She asked.


The young brunette frowned, still hanging uoside down from where he fell. "Of course I can!"


"Can you walk on straight lines?" She asked again.


"Yes!"


"Then it is probably not you." She shrugged. Pulling him back up with his collar.


"W-what the hell are you doing?" Eren asked surprised.


"Well, if you kept hanging on that way, your blood will go up to your head. That's going to be bad."


Reiner stepped closer. "I've never seen you before. How come you're here?" He asked.


Armin nodded to agree. "Yeah. The training started few days ago and I also didn't see you familiar." He said.


"I just recently got here. By tomorrow, I will oficially be joining training." Y/n explained.


"How come? The Commandant would probably not accept any trainees this late." Bertoldt wondered.


"Ah, no. I am already your classmate. I do have a valid reason for my absence so you don't have to ponder about mine." She said. "Therefore, we must think of a way to help this person to balance himself properly." She then turned to Eren who she still held through his collar ensuring that he wouldn't fall.


"You know we're all close to nearly the same age. You don't have to be so formal." Reiner told her.


Y/n blinked twice. "I... shall keep that in mind. But it is just the way I speak, more or less I may not be able to contain myself from doing so."


"That's a good start. I'm Reiner Braun?" The tall blonde asked. Then he pointed to his taller friend. "This guy with me is Bertoldt Hoover."


"I'm Armin Arlert. It's nice to meet you."


"I'm Eren Jeager." The green eyed boy ended meeting eyes with her again.


"I'm Y/n." She said.


"Y/n what?" Armin asked.


"Y/n Ackerman."


Eren gasped. "You couldn't possibly be related to Captain Levi, right? Or Mikasa?" He suddenly asked, eyes seemingly brimming with nonexistent sparkles.


The girl helped him down from where he's hanging and shrugged. Another fan of his? She wondered. "He is my brother. And I don't know anyone named Mikasa." She answered.


"Really?!" Armin now asked in disbelief. "I can't believe it. We're actually facing Captain Levi's younger sister."


"That would be an understatement. Considering we'll be seeing each other's face for three years." She explained.


"Oh yeah, that's true." Eren laughed in a silly way, awkwardly scratching the back of his neck.


"By the way, what were you doing here?" Reiner asked.


"I was a bit lonely so I went to do a short stargazing." Levi was currently on an expedition and left her in the Commandant's office to clean. So the first days in military training, she was stuck fixing the commandant's files while sulking. She looked up the sky again, feeling the cold air that passes by her shoulder, sweeping away the extent of hair that gently flew towards her back. The dim moon complimented her complexion and gave a nice glow to her e/c eyes.


Eren simply watched her in daze, not until she turned back to him, catching him staring at her. He blushed and looked away.


"We all better go back. It's already too late. If we don't we probably won't be getting any sleep." Bertoldt suggested.


"Yes, we really should." Armin agreed and everyone followed.


Y/n started walking back with them until they were able to get back outside their quarters. She then gave a looked at Eren one last time and gave a tap on his back. "As I've said, I do not think that you are the problem, Jeager. But if you really can't get past this one, maybe this year is not really for you." She said thinking of it as her words of encouragement before leaving. But instead of encouragement, her last statement just made him a bit hopeless.


It started that night. And the nights added more and more when he found out that she at least stargazes twice a week in span of three days. He accustomed himself to her schedule. He'd usually ask about Levi's ways of taking care of a sister. Thinking that Eren wanted to know the 'Levi's sister-ing 101' because he might have a little sister, she literally gave him a guidebook for it which he laughed about.


Soon he asked things else. About her day, how her physique was, how she's feeling and more. His concern for her exponentially grew until it unexpectedly became an action of how a lover would do. Although Y/n never really gave consent nor rejected it, Eren labeled it himself.


If anything, Y/n didn't hate the idea at all. She let things go as he wished. They'd sit on that branch holding each other's hand, leaning on his shoulder or lap and he would steal a kiss on her cheek(for wall maria's sake they're still probably 12 when they became lovers so let's not go overboard for a while).


Those nights were so different on the day. Because during those times, they were never intimate. They never made it obvious and treated each other casually. Because the two had extremely scary guardians watching over them that if found out, they'd end up like Romeo and Juliet-- but they'll die not from poison, but by the hands of each other's guardians: Mikasa might probably kill her and Levi is really going to kill him... no questions asked. So they were fine with it as long as they get to spend the night together stargazing.


"It's not like we're actually not going to see each other in the morning anyways." Eren once told her. "But Krysta keeps hugging you a lot."


"I like hugging her too." Y/n replied.


"But it's not just Krysta! Almost like everyone else does." He complained. "What if because of that, they'd start confessing to you."


"Eren." The girl gripped his hand tighter. She then looked at him and grinned. "My brother is Levi Ackerman. Aside from a suicide maniac like you, and another scary Mikasa Ackerman, who else is not afraid of him?"


"Why are you referencing from Jean?"


"Because it is the truth."


Yes, they were able to keep a secret within three years and it almost felt really odd how they did it. But it seems that they're really that good at hiding things.


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Eren Jeager was surely devastated when she pretended to be the traitor. The cause of his mother's demise. The epitome of their past traumatic experiences. The one who took their peaceful home away from his grasps.


It felt like she betrayed him with the biggest lie. Worse than cheating. But the cause of every single torment that happened to him. Why he's determined now to kill titans.


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Y/n stared shocked at the blonde female...


Historia Reiss stood in front her throne. Her white gown sprawled into the extent of the floor, following behind her.


"Krysta?" Y/n tilted her head questioningly.


"Bow before the queen!"


Although confused to this turn of events, Y/n quickly knelt down. Unsure what was going on.


"Y/n, raise your head." Historia softly called out to her old friend.


The girl did so as she was instructed, finding a sad smile pasted to her expression. The look of longing and confusion can be seen in her eyes. The queen soon ordered everyone to move out except Y/n's escort to ensure safety.


Soon as everyone left the place, there was a few seconds of silence until the young blonde spoke.


"My name is Historia Reiss. The new queen. Y/n Ackerman, we have a lot of catching up to do." She said, gesturing her hand to have her stand up.


Y/n followed. However, as soon as she did that she felt a stinging sensation on her cheek and her head tilting aside catching her off guard looking back to that girl in front of her.


Both girls stared at each other. Not until Historia's dxpression betrayed her, tears began to stream down her eyes. "That's for lying!" She shouted.


"I do deserve that." The h/c haired female looked down with a weak smile.


However, just whe  she thought she recieve a slap once again, warmth enveloped her instead. The queen, embraced her tightly as she cried. "You idiot! Why did you have to lie?!" She asked.


Heart racing, Y/n didn't know what to do. Krysta-- no, Historia, crying like this made her chest clench from pain and guilt. She hurt more than just her friends, betrayed them with lies.


"I'm sorry." Y/n hugged her im return, holding back her tears. Krysta, being one of her closest friends in the barracks made this reunion more painful. Who'd have thought that even after what she did, A queen would actually give her an embrace after coming back home into the walls.


"You're going to tell me everything, Y/n! No more lies! I'm the queen now, no one is allowed to lie to me!" She demanded.


The h/c haired female chuckled. "Yes, your majesty." She replied. Indeed, it's going to be a long day ahead of them.

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