We sat on my bed talking about what happened in the past few days while we were gone. I laughed when Vic told me he moped around like a little girl, and I told him I did the same thing. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me forehead.

"I love you" he whispered in my ear.

"I love you too" I smiled. He smiled back and me and I could tell he really meant it. I guess this was the time to tell him.

"Vic, I think we should talk" I started. His eyebrows furrowed and looked at me confused.

"What's wrong?" he asked, rubbing my back.

"I think you should go on tour. Please, don't do it for me,but do it for your fans" I said honestly.

I've been thinking about it for the past few days when we weren't together. I owed it to Vic and the guys, this was going to be a huge tour and they deserved it.

"But, I can't leave you" he whispered.

"I'm going to miss you too, but it will make me feel so much better if you do this tour. We can always facetime, skype, text and call each other, it's not like we're never going to talk to each other again" I replied.

"I'll think about it, I just want you to get better first" he said.

I cuddled into his chest not wanting to talk about it anymore. I felt a lot better that Vic was considering about Europe now, rather than shutting down automatically.

"Knock knock" the doctor said. Seriously, why do people even say that? Just do it!!

I tried my hardest not to roll my eyes at him, and sighed.

"Well Kai, you've been doing really well lately, and I wanted to talk to you about your options now. Once we get you closer to medically stable, we're thinking of moving you to and Eating Disorder program about an hour away from here. You'll be with girls who have the same illness, it's focusing more on the mental piece rather than the physical piece like we do here. The team thinks it will be very beneficial for you. You'll learn lots of coping methods" he smiled warmly at me.

"So you're pretty much sending me to rehab" I shot.

His face a little bit, but nodded.

"Something like that, but think of it as a learning experience" he said, "I have all the information here for you to read".

He handed me a stack of pamphlets and the name caught my eye.

"You're sending me to Newport Beach?" I asked him.

"They have the very best program there. You'll get your own room, and they have lots to offer compared to other programs that have 6 girls shoved in one room" he explained.

I nodded, "I'll think about it".

The doctor nodded before turning around and leaving the room.

"Wow, Newport isn't that far from here, and plus it's beautiful babe" Vic encouraged.

I shrugged, "I've never been to Newport Vic. And what if the girls tell everyone that I'm in there? I don't want the media on my ass anymore than they are now. I read that I'm apparently having a miscarriage, that's why I'm in the hospital".

Vic rolled his eyes, "Was it mine?"

I slapped his arm and laughed, "I conceived on my own, it's a miracle!"

Vic laughed, and held me close.

"Just think about it, I support any of your decisions" he said honestly, and kissed my forehead.

I sighed, I felt a million emotions at once. I wanted to go because I didn't want to be stuck in this room forever. Plus, I would be with people who understood what I was going through, but at the same time I didn't want it to raise more attention. Just thinking about this made my head hurt.

"I'm tired" I whined.

"Take a nap, I'll be here with you when you wake up" Vic said softly.

I nodded and fell asleep to him humming a song in my ear.

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A week later I felt way better, I was allowed to finally walk to the washroom by myself, but I still had to have a nurse waiting outside the door, which sucked. But I finished my meals within the allotted time, and the doctors and nurses were really pleased with me. I was even happy with myself. I had more energy, my hair wasn't falling out like crazy, and I could think more clearly. It took me a few days to think about the Treatment centre, but I said I would go.

Vic and the guys were helping me pack up my jail cell because today was the day I got to go home! I was locked up for 2 months, and I really just wanted to sleep in my bed with Vic beside me. I would only be home for two days then I was on my way to the treatment centre, but I tried not to get bummed out, I just wanted to go home.

"Is everything all packed?" Jaime asked me.

"Yup, let's go!" I said ecstatically. I said good bye to the doctors and nurses and gave a few signatures away, which I thought was pretty funny. Vic pushed me in the wheelchair with the guys behind us carrying all my crap. I still couldn't walk very far without feeling dizzy, but it was all about progress.

"I haven't been in a car in such a long time!" I laughed, climbing into the truck.

"You're stepping back into the outside world after being locked up for so long" he explained, "you have to get used to living the boring 'normal' life".

I nodded, Vic was right, as always. The ride home was comfortable and quiet. I stared out the window taking the outside world all at once, which was pretty overwhelming. When we got home,Mickey started barking and going crazy when I walked through the front door.

"Hi baby, I missed you!" I yelled, hugging him to my chest.

"He wouldn't stop crying at night ever since you left, poor dog. Jaime almost gave him away" Tony laughed.

"JAIME, YOU ALMOST GAVE MY DOG AWAY?!" I screamed.

Jaime's eyes widened and looked at Mike and mouthed "it was his idea", before Mike punched him the arm.

"I'm just glad to be home" I said, letting go of the idea of the guys giving my dog away.

I got up from the floor and ran my hand across my piano. There was a small layer of dust and I knew no one played it since I was gone.

"I wasn't able to play it while you were gone" Vic reassured me.

I nodded slowly, and sat down getting comfortable. My fingers took over and I began playing. I don't know if it was because I was out of the hospital or the fact that I was playing again, but I felt good, happy. I was doing the thing I loved the most and it felt like everyone disappeared and it was only my piano and I.

After unpacking my boxes, I stretched on the bed and rolled over next to Vic.

"I missed this" I whispered running my fingers through his soft hair.

"I miss holding you and cuddling with you at night" he replied holding me close to his body.

We laid there for a couple of minutes in silence enjoying each others company.

"I'm scared Vic. What if the other girls are smaller than me?" I said, honestly.

"Don't think like that. It's not a contest, you guys are there for the same reason, you're there to get better. If someone picks on you though, let me know. I'll beat them up" he said.

"Please, you wouldn't hurt a girl" I giggled.

"You're right, I'll give them a good talk though" he laughed.

We spent most of the afternoon in bed, napping and watching movies. We both didn't want to go out and made up for the lost time enjoying each others company. I was a little scared because the treatment centre was almost an hour away and I felt bad for Vic and the guys driving back and forth. I tried not to let it get the best of me, I didn't want to dwell on what didn't happen yet.

We were in the middle of watching The Proposal when the guys and the MT boys walked in.

"HEY HEY HEY, PARTIES HERE!" Josh screamed jumping on the bed.

I frowned at him, "who let you in?....".

"Ouch, I thought we were friends" Josh said, fake hurt.

"You have the wrong house, you better leave before I call the cops" I said, trying to keep a serious face.

"Nah, I think I'll stay around. Look what I brought!" Josh said, pulling out a bunch of DVD's.

My eyes grew wide when I saw the first DVDV.

"Is that... Sweeney Todd?!" I gasped.

He nodded and grinned, "well if you don't want me to stay..."

I jumped up and lightening speed, giving myself head rush, grabbed the movie out of his hand and ran downstairs. When I popped in the movie and sat on the couch, my whole body felt like it was on fire. That was probably the most movement I've done in 2 months. I heard the guys laugh as they came downstairs and sat around the huge flat screen.

"I'm putting on the subtitles so we're all singing, I don't care. No complaining" I ordered them.

They rolled their eyes at me, and smiled. I was just glad I was home for now and I was with the people I cared about the most.

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Sorry for the long wait, I've been so busy!! Next chapter is Kai at the treatment center yay!!

Oh, and I didn't proofread, sowwy :(