Ymir sits next to me and I tense up a little. What is wrong with me? I hate this girl because of 6th grade but now I learned she liked me...what now?

"I know you used to like me," I say without thinking and Ymir noticeable tenses up. "Oh, I should go," Ymir says and starts to walk away. I grab her hand and pull her back towards me. I feel electricity go through me as I make contact...her hands are so soft.

"Don't go," I say and let her go as she sits back down. 

Has Ymir always been this beautiful? There is something about this feeling she gives me, frustration, Kind of hot? Oh ew what am I thinking?

"What is it Y/N?" Ymir asks and I just look at her lips. I don't know what's wrong with me but I need to know what her lips feel like. But I manage to push down those feelings to ask, "Did you like Mikasa?" 

Ymir shakes her head and explains what happened between her and Mikasa...the same thing Mikasa told me. "I'm so sorry Y/N, I didn't mean to hurt you. I know you liked Mikasa and you still do." Ymir says and I notice she looks hurt while saying that.

"I-" Is all I can say. Do I like Mikasa still? I search Ymir's eyes, God she has gorgeous eyes. "It's ok, I should go," Ymir says and I sit there dumbfounded by my thoughts. 

Once Ymir is gone upstairs, I sink down into the couch and sigh. I can't have these thoughts right? 

I spend the rest of the night thinking about Ymir and my confused feelings.