This one isn't a song. Just a note of sorts. A little something. I don't know really.

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The start of last year for me was very dark, I was unsure of myself and I also wasn't really in a good headspace you know? This is when I first started to play around with thoughts in my head. They were much darker at this time though, I'd change the sounding of the words to make rhymes.

I didn't tell anyone about my state. I couldn't bring myself to do so. This was the case for quite a while.

Skip to the middle of the year. I met two people who really helped me, they supported me and honestly I was really happy. I told them about my struggles and how I felt and they accepted me. They accepted me for who I was and not what I seem to be.

Gradually I became more comfortable with them. I'd converse more, I wouldn't be so much of the third person anymore. I had become part of a trio.

At least for a while. That doesn't come yet though.

Let's take this all the way over to October. October was a weird month for me, the start of it dragged a lot. Having been bored out of my mind and looking for things to do. The middle was just as bad.

But on the 21st, I met the person I am most thankful for. Those of you who have been following my work for longer may already know who this is. I'm sure I make it obvious. She's perfect to me. She was kind too, that helped.

It was not long after that, I think 5 or 6 days when she encouraged me to show my writing off. So I made this account, and then came the birth of Prospect.

I chose that as the title because it's what I was. There was no guarantee but there was the chance. And I was ready to seize the chance and make it mine.

It was during Prospect that was I approached by a man I can only now call my brother. Revilo_2002  this man was willing to give me an opportunity. An opportunity I could not refuse, a collaboration in his Hip Hop Anniversary book (check it out).

As time progressed our bond grew, and he taught me many things. He'd watched me grow, just as I had watched him grow.

Between him and the girl I mentioned before, I had everything I needed. And I still do.

Those two people are people I am so so insanely grateful for. It is with absolutely certainty that I say last October changed my life. And it couldn't have done so without these two.

Near the start of 2024, the trio mentioned way back, became a duo. I was feeling a mix of emotions about it and wrote a song. A song only one person except me has ever seen as it was scrapped. I didn't wanna seem hateful to anyone. And I knew it sounded hateful to multiple people.

Over the course of this year, my friendship with Revilo has grown, he's not just a collaborator anymore. He's my mentor. More than that, he's my brother. I can't think of any other person I'd have done this with.

Since October me and Sara have grown incredibly too. That is made very evident in a lot of my songs. There are way too many references for me to go and count. I'd be like a bottle of thyme (please say she gets that reference)

I wanna say thank you to you two. You've both been there pretty much since the start and it means the world to me you know? To be able to have so much support and love around me. To be able to be encouraged to keep going... it's amazing. I really couldn't have done any of this without you two.