She's still seven month and three weeks old in my womb. I know by myself she would be born prematurely but it's ok as long as she would survive and see this world. I am so excited seeing my hime, our hime. I have high hopes that she would be fine. This pain? I could endure it. I'm used to it and I believe this pain I'm experiencing now won't equal the joy that I might experience after.

Yuuya is panicking, as so as Yui and the nurses. They rush me to the nearest hospital as I groan out of pain. Of course it drains all my strength. Thoughts about miscarrying this baby suddenly rushed through my mind. But no! I shouldn't think about those things. I should be positive that this angel would live, and I would do all things just for the both of us to survive. My vision is blurry and I don't know what's happening. I hear the ambulance's siren, the people panicky conversing, and Yuuya encouraging me to hold on. I know they are all in stress about me and my baby's condition. I can feel their tension but I shouldn't be overcome by this. I should fight this pain.

I don't know what the nurse injects in me but it makes my muscles relaxed and my body numb about the pain. Is it anesthesia? I don't know. Suddenly my vision passed out. Am I going to die? I hope not. I really hope not.

Where am I? Am I already on heaven? I don't know. All that I can see is white light. I try to stand up and to my surprise I can. Oh my gosh! Am I dreaming? Or am I dead? Is this what they called afterlife? I look at my amputated wrist and to my surprise, my hand is there. Tears start flowing from my eyes. Yes, I am restored from my previous physical being. I can feel my right eye, my right ear, and my smooth unscarred face. Mixed emotions stir up in me. Should I be happy or sad? Where is everyone? Why am I the only one in here? I start running and screaming but I hear no one. I see no one. Now I am certain. I should be sad. I will just continue screaming until my voice runs dry. Maybe somebody would hear me. Suddenly I bump into someone.

"Who are you?" I ask the lady whom I bumped.

"Thank you for taking care of Yuuya." Her reply is somewhat vague but at least now I'm certain she knew Yuuya.

"Yuuya? Where is he? Do you know where my husband is?" I ask her then notice that she also has the same ponytail hair I used to have during my junior high school years and when I'm performing as SU-METAL. Her smile is so gentle yet she has this aura of a tough woman.

"He is fine, my dear."

"Are you his mother?"

She nods at me and smiles. She also has a pair of dimples on her cheeks just like Yuuya. At some point this makes me shiver. Does this mean I am really dead? No! I still want to live! I still want to see my angel, my hime. I kneel down and start to weep.

"It's ok, my dear." She rubs my back to comfort me. "Everything will be absolutely alright."

"You think so? How? I am dead right? How am I able to fulfill my dream, my desire to have a happy and complete family if I'm already dead? How?"

"Or are you? Do you believe in miracle Suzuka? You know everything is possible if you would just believe. And you know what triggers miracles? Desire. And you know what strengthens desire? Love. Everything is possible with love. You should realize you are full of it my dear. You taught my son how to love again. You taught him how to love himself and be a better person. You taught your friends how to love their passion and dreams. You are their insignia of love and seeing you lose your light of love would really break their hearts."

"Is that so?"

"Yes Suzuka. Now go and show them that you are still full of love. Show them how strong your desire to live because you love them so much and that you are now ready to share your love to your daughter, my granddaughter."

"Arigato, Oka-san." I hug her. Her words really comfort me. Now I know why Yuuya became so depressed when he lost his mother. She was his symbol of love and he was dependent with her. Since the time that I am with him, I replaced her mother. He became a better person and become motivated to live again because of me. I don't want him to be depressed again. I don't want him to lose again what's important for him. I want to live and to love him.

"Oka-san. I want to live and love Yuuya and our daughter. Can you please guide me how should I go back?"

"Just believe Suzuka. Just believe."

"I believe." And I close my eyes and pray.

"Onii-san! Su-san's eyelid is moving! I think she's back on her senses now!"

"Really! Su-chan! Su-chan? Are you awake already?"

I open my left eye and see the faces of Yuuya and Yui full of bliss. I know they are so happy that I have wake up but there is something that I want to know more than their reaction of me recovering.

"I...is my.. dd..daughter alive?" I faintly ask.

"She's stable now Su-san. She's still not as strong as what she should be but there's a great possibility that she would survive. She's in the incubator now. Do you want to see her?" Yui's words cheer me up.

"Yes! I want to see her. I want to see her so badly! May I see her?"

"Sure Su-san. But you should rest first for a couple of minutes. You have been unconscious for two days. I'll also inform the doctor that you have already awakened." Yui will surely be a good nurse. She is so confident and sounds professional as she speaks to me.

"That little girl really grew up to be a fine nurse. What do you think?" Yuuya comments after Yui left the room.

"Yah. I am so proud of her Yu-chan."

After I have taken a rest, Yui and Yuuya use a wheel chair to escort me to the incubation room. I can see in the glass window a tiny baby in a transparent incubating machine. She isn't moving that much aside from her chest which steadily moving up and down, yes, she is breathing, she is alive. Tears start to flow in my eye. I can't contain the joy I have right now. I am officially a mother and I swear to myself I will be the best mom that I could be in spite of this disability I have.

Our baby is so cute. She have the shape of my ears, I could tell, and Yuuya's face.

"I think I see a dimple on her cheek. She really inherits my awesome dimples." Yuuya comments.

"You're silly Onii-san. Dimples are still not evident when a child is still a baby." Yui explains.

"Hahahaha! I was just declaring that she would be as awesome as her dad!"

"Yes. She will be, Yu-chan. She will be." I tell my husband.

"So what will you name her, Su-san?" Yui asks.

"Himeka. It means Blossom Incense. Hime means blossom since she's born on this season of spring, it's the season of new beginnings. Hime also sounds like the word for princess. She is my princess, our princess. Ka means incense or fragrance. It's the last kanji character in my name. I want her to be like me so that when I leave in this world, she would be my living legacy and would replace me in loving you."

"Don't say words like that Su-chan. You would still live longer and we will become a happy family. We will still grow old together and have our grandchildren." My husband hugs me. Tears flow in his eyes as he says these words. I could feel him still hoping for me to live long.

"Let's just accept it Yu-chan. It's better to accept reality than to hope for what's ideal. It would make things less painful. Just think of it that I would just be away for a long time and someday we would just meet there...with your mother." Yuuya looks straight at me. He realizes I do have some point and smiles. His dimples creases not to comfort me but to signify that my words comforts him.

"But promise me Su-chan. You would still live longer as you can. Not just for me but also for our hime."

"Sure, I will my love. I will."