"I really don't think this is a good idea" I say to Andreas. We're in a cab on our way to the club to meet everyone for a well deserved night out. Players and wives included.

"What makes you think that?" Andreas asks. It's been a few months since Jesse and I decided to get back together, however I feel like lately he isn't interested in me. Maybe our fling has ran its course. 

"I just have a gut feeling and let's be honest Daniela's here and she hates me so she isn't going to make tonight plain sailing for me"

"Why would she hate you? She has no reason to" Andreas looks at me confused. 

"Her three year old has more respect for me than she ever will her. Noush asks for me over her mum, I'm not a parent Andreas but if I was that would be enough reason for me to hate someone" I say knowing I'd hate another woman being so close to my husband and daughter, if I had one of course.

"Do you ever wonder if she knows what's going on? Is that still back on?" Andreas says and I know what he's talking about, he's just avoiding saying Jesse's name around the cab driver.

"Yeah it's still on, I think anyway we haven't really spoke a lot lately. Sometimes I think she knows but then I'm like if she knew surely she'd confront me because she seems like the type" I say, judgemental maybe but that's how I see it. "Would anyone really let that go if they were in her position?" 

"If she knew you'd know about it. She isn't one for holding back. She says exactly what she thinks" Andreas says and I know he's only trying to have my back but it doesn't make me feel any better.

Arriving at the club I see the flash from all of the paparazzi who are waiting, it's a prime spot in Manchester of course they'll be here. Taking a deep breath before I get out of the cab I can't wait to see all of the rumours about me and Andreas tomorrow morning.

A few hours later I'm absolutely hammered. I've never drank this much ever and I'm having the time of my life. Every time someone offers me a shot, I take it. Hearing S&M by Rihanna start playing over the club speakers I let out a scream before dragging Andreas to dance. Forgetting where I am and who I'm dancing with I throw out my best moves grinding against Andreas. Paying no attention to anything around me I don't see the angry look on my brothers or Jesse's face. Before I know it we're all heading back to the hotel to continue the party.

"Who's up for spin the bottle?" Daniela asks holding up a pack of cards and an empty bottle. Looking at Sam I can see she's thinking the same as me, this won't be a good idea and it won't end well but apparently everyone else disagrees with me and Sam. Next thing I know we're all sat in a circle. Jesse opposite me. I'm so angry with him for ignoring me but I know now isn't the time or place to confront him.

I watch as Daniela spins the bottle and I don't take my eyes off it as it lands on Jesse. Biting my lip I listen to Daniela read out the card 'Spin the bottle and kiss whoever it lands on'

"Christ I don't think this is a good idea anymore. There's too many couples here" Sam says leaning over to whisper to me.

"It never was a good idea" seeing the bottle land on me, my stomach is in knots. I've got to kiss Jesse in front of everyone, or rather he has to kiss me. Talk about awkward.

"Go on Jess! If you don't I will" Paul says laughing. It's no secret the lads on the team fancy me but this is too much. Feeling myself shake with nerves I sit on my hands as Jesse crawls across the circle before kissing me gently. Closing my eyes I try to block out everyone.

"That was shit" Luke says as Jesse moves back to his place in the circle "the rules say it has to be a real kiss"

"That was more than enough" Chris says before Luke spins the bottle and it lands on Chris. After he downs three shots the bottle lands on Daniela.

"I'd rather have a truth than a dare. The only person I'd kiss would be my husband" I look at Sam confused, is she for real? She's the one who suggested the game in the first place.

"Fine" Sam says rolling her eyes "what's the most sexually adventurous thing you've done?" Sam asks reading the card from the top of the pile. 

"I'd have to ask Jesse but probably when we made love on the beach in Hawaii" I roll my eyes hoping no one sees. The girl is so stuck up it's unreal. The game continues for a few rounds with Luke kissing Daniela, Sam being dared to take her top off, it all seems lighthearted until I see the bottle land on me. Shit.

"Perform a strip tease" Daniela says with the smirk "right up your street that isn't it Montana"

"What is your issue!" I say grabbing the card not believing Daniela. She wasn't lying. Fuck, now I've got to do a strip tease in front of my brother. Hearing everyone clapping and cheering I know I can't back out. "Fuck it. Sam unzip me please" as Sam unzips my dress I try not to look in the general direction of my brother or Jesse. Blocking everything out I do my best to not think about what I'm about to do as I slide my dress off my shoulders letting it fall to the floor. Making sure my modesty is covered with my hair I unhook my bra throwing it into the middle of the circle. Holding the waistband of my thong I pause looking at everyone watching me "That's all you're getting" I say before getting dressed as quick as I can. I've never been so mortified even if everyone is clapping or in Jesse's case, enjoying it.

"Kiss the person you're closest to" Sam says reading a card as the bottle lands on Andreas.

"This is easy I can't say it isn't awkward though" Andreas says making his way over to me "sorry Montana" before I have a chance to say anything I feel Andreas kiss me. I wouldn't say he's a bad kisser, in fact quite the opposite but it's wrong. He's my best friend. Pulling away from Andreas I realise I'm done with this game. I've kissed two of my brothers friends in front of him and I've done a strip tease. It's enough trauma to last a lifetime.

"I'm going to bed" I'm drunk and I'm mortified I need not to be in this situation anymore. Standing up I feel Jesse and Andreas grab me as I wobble. Maybe that last drink was one too many, hopefully I'll have drank enough to not remember this night.

"I think Andreas has it under control babe" I hear Daniela say as both boys try to walk with me. Who even enjoys being that bitter?

"Yeah see you both in the morning" Jesse says and even in my state I know he's jealous. Jealous of my best friend.

"Enjoy yourself last night did you?" Jesse asks as he stands next to me at the hotel reception desk the next morning. I'm too tired for this shit I just want to get home and sleep for the rest of the day.

"No not really" I say with an edge to my voice as Jesse shakes his head in dismay. "What's that look for? I didn't want to play that stupid game anyway! If I remember rightly it was your wife who wanted us to all play!" I say referring to the game of spin the bottle.

"It definitely didn't look that way to me. I've never seen someone so keen to take their clothes off or to kiss someone. What was he like in bed then?" He's either hungover or having a bad day. The Jesse I know would never speak to anyone like this let alone me.

"What are you talking about?" I say having a feeling where this is going. Seeing the hotel receptionist listening to our conversation I feel Jesse grab my wrist and pull me outside. Feeling my back hit the wall Jesse leans over me.

"You and Pereira. He was all over you and it was obvious where it was going to end up" shaking my head, Jesse couldn't be further from the truth.

"Do you seriously think I'd sleep with him? He's one of my best friends" I say gobsmacked.

"You've slept with me and I'm married, that didn't bother you did it" Jesse says and I feel my anger reach boiling point. Without thinking I don't realise what I'm doing until I see Jesse holding his cheek.

"Don't you dare! That is as much on you as it is me!"

"You seemed off your face at the end of the night. If I didn't know better I'd say that you'd been taking something. Jesus Montana I though so much more of you"

"Don't you dare! I didn't take anything! I've never touched drugs in my life and I thought you knew me better than that. If anything I'd say my drink was spiked the way I was feeling this morning but no, I'm an adult so I'll just admit that I drank way too much for what I can handle" unlike Jesse I can admit that I went too far last night. 

"Why would someone spike your drink? Aren't we all supposed to be friends?"

" I could think of a few people who would want to. Anyway why didn't you call me?" I say trying not to shout but feeling the anger take over me. "It's been at least three weeks! You clearly don't care about me as much as you say you do if this is how you're willing to speak to me!" I'm so angry with him right now, I'm literally shaking.

"It was Dani's birthday and things got difficult. So you didn't sleep with Pereira?"

"If you really don't know the answer to that you're not the person I thought you were. How dare you speak to me like this!" I say raising my voice. I'm absolutely furious. Seeing a camera go off in our face I know we're fucked. This is never going to look good when it's all over the internet. 

"Shit!" Jesse shouts running after the photographer without any luck. I'll give it an hour and the photos will be everywhere. Deciding I've had enough I walk back inside the hotel to get my bags. I can't deal with Jesse or this drama any more.

"Montana we aren't finished!" Jesse says standing in my way.

"No that's where you're wrong Jesse. You don't get to treat me like shit then behave like this when I've done nothing wrong! So yes Jesse, we are finished. You're a cocky little prick and I'm done with you and I'm done with your shit. I think you might have some explaining to do to your wife" I say trying not to cry in frustration "It never was going to end well was it?" I say not giving Jesse a chance to respond. I need to get away from here before the shit storm hits.