Cameron's POV

{Contains Smut}

I sat at the foot of my bed waiting for Nash. It was 4:55 pm. He would be here soon. My mind wondered off to the three possibilities Matt had mentioned.

Oh, how I would love for him to admit his undying love for me, as corny as that sounds. But it is highly unlikely. On the second hand, him crushing my heart also seemed kind of unlikely. I didn't think Nash would do that, not that there is anything left for him to crush to be honest. And the third one, sex. Now that seemed likely. Not that I don't want it to happen, of course I do. It just would feel wrong I guess. But at this point I realized that all sense of rationality went away when I was with Nash. I could barley get out a sentence around him. I felt that if I did something to disappoint him or anger him I would loose him forever. I hated feeling that way around him.

Suddenly my doorbell rang. I anxiously got up and approached the front door. I could see through the window that Nash stood there. He was wearing a blue button up and ripped skinny jeans along with blue vans. He looked good, no he looked very good.

I slowly opened the door. He looked at me. "Are you alone?" he asked. I felt a sense of deja vu, only turned around. I nodded and let him in. My mom was working a night shift, thank god.

Nash sat down on my couch.

"Would you like anything to drink?.." I asked uneasily. He looked up at me and shook his head. I nodded and sat across from him.

"You said you waned to talk?" I asked, trying to sound causal about it.

He took a deep breath in.

"Look Cam.." he said slowly.

My heart dropped. Option two. This was it. He was going to smash whatever was left of my heart into tiny little pieces. I braced myself. He walked over and sat next to me and held my hands. Before I could respond, or even react, he started talking.

"I know you want to be more than friends, but... I don't." he said.

My heart just shattered into tiny little pieces. I felt a lump in my throat. I was about to cry. Not in front of him, I will not look weak in front of Nash.

"Is that all?" I asked, trying to sound cold towards him.

"No... I think... I think we should be friends with benefits."

Well, this was unexpected. I didn't know whether to feel angry or not. So he would basically just use me whenever he wanted, I wasn't completely disgusted with it, like a normal person would be.

"Okay." I said, not sounding convincing at all. Nash hesitated.

"If you don't want to... that's okay." he said trying to sound nonchalant about it.

"No... I mean yeah. I want to." I said, trying to make him happy. All I wanted was for him to be happy, and if this would make him happy, then I'd do it.

He paused and looked at me. I thought he was going to say something but instead he lunged forward and smashed his lips on mine. He pushed me down and his arms caressed my waist. Our lips moving at a rapid speed.

He slipped his hand down my pants. I gasped. He grabbed hold of my length. I let out a moan. I slipped my pants and my boxers down at once. He gripped at my shirt and tore it off, literally. He let out an instinctive growl. This is new. He started kissing me really hard, I kissed back, trying to match his force.

He slipped off his own shirt. He got off me and stood up. He pulled me up and started kissing me. "Jump" he said into the kiss.

I jumped and he carried me upstairs to my room, our lips never parting. He closed the door behind us. He threw me on the bed and looked at me, in my naked glory. He scanned my entire body.

"God I love you." he said before pouncing on me. We started making out intensely. I pulled at his belt. He snickered and pulled it off. He slipped off his pants and boxers, his length springing out. I took it in my hand, bobbing my hand up and down before engulfing it in my mouth. I heard Nash let out a moan of pleasure as he threw his head back. I kept bobbing my head up and down. Nash put his hands in my hair, gripping it tightly. He moaned my name. I don't know why, but that turned me on more than him naked did.

The way he looked at me made my heart go a million miles an hour. He let out a loud moan as he came in my mouth. I swallowed the load, letting it trickle down my throat.

He brought my head back up, looking at me intensely. He placed a soft kiss on my lips. After some more making out, Nash lined himself behind me. I was on my hands and knees and his hands were on my waist.

"Ready?" he asked while bring my face up to his. I nodded. He slowly pushed inside of me. I let out a loud groan of pain. Nash started thrusting in me, slowly at first. My breathing increased rapidly as Nash went faster. Soon he was thrusting into me really hardly. He was constantly hitting my prostate. I let out a loud moan of pleasure as I demanded him to increase his speed.

Eventually he reached his peak and soon after so did I. I collapsed on the bed, soon after he pulled out and rolled next to me. He grabbed my waist and pulled me into his chest. We laid like that for the rest of the night.

*

I woke up to Nash playing with my hair.

"Morning." I said while yawning. He smiled at me, he was just about to say something when his phone rang. He got up and grabbed his phone from his jean pocket that was laying on the floor. I couldn't help but check out his ass, god it was nice. He checked his phone and he shifted uncomfortably. He then answered it.

"Hi babe." he said while putting on his boxers. He awkwardly looked at me. I looked down.

"Yeah babe." he said while grabbing his shirt from the floor. I could hear Lia's high voice briefly.

"Oh I was at Cam's." he looks at me awkwardly again.

"Yeah sure, I'll be right over. Love you too." he said while hanging up. That hurt. That hurt more than it should have. He sighed.

"I have to go." he said while walking to the door. I sat up in my bed. I felt the urge to cry but I held it in. I nodded, not wanting to make eye contact with him.

"Hey Cam." he said softly. I looked up.

"My mom's having this dinner party, bunch of work colleagues and what not. It's going to be a total bore. She said I could bring someone. Wanna join me?" he asked while not making eye contact. I shrugged.

"Why don't you take Lia?" I said, it coming out harsher than it should have. Nash sighed.

"Just. Be there at 7 tonight okay?" he said. I attempted to get up and let him out but he stopped me as I was reaching for my boxers.

"Don't worry about it, I'll let myself out." he said while walking out my bedroom door. "I really enjoyed last night Cam." he said. And with that, he was gone. I could hear him walk down the stairs and out the front door. i sighed and laid back down on my bed.

What have I gotten myself into here?

//

I had received a text from Nash telling me to dress all fancy like. Luckily I had a suit. I wore it with a white dress shirt underneath and a bow-tie. I wore black vans too. It was about 6:30 as I got into my car and drove to Nash's house. I couldn't really tell what I was feeling at the moment. I had gotten myself into a compromising position here.

I pulled up to Nash's driveway. There were alot of cars parked outside. I paused and waited for a brief moment. I then got out and walked up to the front door. I knocked and Nash opened it. My heart almost exploded. Nash looked good in a suit, he looked really good in a suit. He looked me up and down and smiled.

"Come in. Dinners about to start." I walked in and he shut the door behind me. The house was filled with people. Old people. All dressed in suits and cocktail dresses. His mom walked up to me.

"Oh Cameron honey, you look so handsome!" she said exclaiming while pulling me in for a hug. I hugged her back.

"You look beautiful Mrs Grier." I said politely. She smiled. "Come on. Dinners almost ready." she said while ushering me to the dining room.

There was a long table, and it was decorated rather lavishly. There were only two empty seats at the end. Nash grabbed my hand and lead me to them. We sat down. Hayes started bring everyone their food. I guess he was stuck as a waiter, sucks for him. Nash's hand found their way to my thigh. He looked at me.

"You look really good tonight Cam." he said softly so only I could hear.

"Nash, my dear." I heard someone say. She was an elderly lady and she sat next to Nash. I was worried for a second that she had heard what he had just said.

"Yes?" he said politely.

"You've grown into such a handsome young man. Only sixteen years young! My heavens!" she said while patting him on the back.

"Thanks mam." he said while smiling that Grier smile.

"Your mom tells me you have a special someone. Where is she?" she asked. Nash smiled again.

"She coudn't make it, unfortunatly." he said.

So that's why he bought me here. Because Lia couldn't come. I was just some back up. Well, at least that's how I thought about it.

"That's such a shame. You must bring her next time." the old lady exclaimed. "Yeah I most definitely will. She's amazing." he said while looking down and smiling. His face lighting up in a bright red blush.

To say my heart broke was an understatement. For the next 20 minutes Nash had a full blown conversation with the old lady on how amazing Lia was and how much he loved her. I felt my heart pang over and over again. I tried to keep myself composed, it was increasingly difficult.

I felt the tears swell up in my eyes. I had to get out of here. I quickly stood up casually and walked to the bathroom. I closed the door and looked at myself in the mirror. No wonder Nash doesn't love me. I'm not happy with the way I look, at all. The tears were streaming down my face at this point.

Suddenly, the bathroom door swung over. I guess I forgot to lock it. It was Nash. He looked at me. His face showed no expression or emotion. He closed the door behind him and locked it. He walked over to me but I moved back.

"No." I said sternly. Tears were still streaming down my face.

"Cam..." he said while trying to walk over to me. I suddenly got a burst of confidence.

"No Nash-" I was interrupted by Nash's lips against mine. I tried to protest but gave in eventually, kissing him back. He pushed me up against the sink. He stood between my legs. His hands were around my waist. He deepened the kiss. He started kissing down my neck, probably leaving a mark.

Suddenly my phone started ringing. I pushed Nash off me and got off the sink, I pulled out my phone. It was Matt. I looked up at Nash. There was lust in his eyes. I answered my phone.

"Cameorn, I need you to come over now." It wasn't Matt, it was Taylor.

"Taylor?" I asked.

"Cameron, Matt's in hospital." he said. My heart almost exploded at what he said next. "I'll be there right away."

Tears were streaming down my face. I walked to the door. Nash stopped me.

"Where are you going? What is going on?" he asked.

"Matthew tried to kill himself."