Chapter 31

"Do you realize it's insane?" She asked rhetorically.


"This is crazy Alex. You should think this through"


I glared at both of them "This is the only option I have left"


"You have a lot but you chose to be a coward" She spat out.


I rolled my eyes and took out a joint. I placed it in my mouth and grabbed a lighter.


"Hey hey, don't even try that here. Addsion don't like it" David took it out of my hand.


I looked at her with a raised eyebrow "You don't?"


She shrugged.


"I thought you are used to these kind of things" I looked at the joint.


"I am but that doesn't mean I like them" she answered.


I nodded and looked at the things on my bed.


"I'm going to bathroom" David stood up and left.


I felt a presence beside me. I looked and saw Addy. She wrapped her arms around me. I did the same and she placed her head on the crook of my neck.


"Are you sure?" She whispered quietly.


"I don't have time to think of any options. It is the best for now." I kissed her forehead


She hummed and tighten her hold.


David and Addy came fast after I asked them to. We were in my room, sitting on floor cause my bed was full of my things.


I told them about my plan and they almost flipped out. They were trying to convince me to think of other options but there was none.


I heard footsteps coming from stairs. David came back with a beer in his hands. I raised an eyebrow at him You should have brought one for me"


He just grinned and sat across me "Addison's asleep."


I turned my head to look at her. She was sleeping peacefully.


I took her in bridal style and asked David to make some space on my bed. I lied her down and kisses her forehead again.


I smiled and forced myself to look away from her.


I could get lost just looking at her anytime. She was just so adorable.


I heard David say something.


"What?" I didn't catch him.


He looked at Addy and then at me "You love her"


I rolled my eyes. "Well duh."


"No, I mean you are in love with her" He voiced again.


I looked at him weirdly and laughed lightly "You're crazy dude"


"You might not realize yet but you are." He said as a matter of fact.


I looked at her again. Maybe I was. Maybe I wasn't. Who knows. I didn't want to find out.


I would definitely ruin everything if I think about it more.


"She's straight" I said nonchalantly and sat on floor again with him.


"That she is."


I snatched his beer from his hand and took few sips. His eyes met mine and in a flash of second, it was in his hands.


"You know" he paused and gulped down the beer. I looked at him "you're a amazing friend but a worse partner. I wouldn't let Addison date you even if she was into girls."


His forest green eyes stared right into my soul.


"You hurt both of them Alex." He finished


I sighed and rubbed my head. "I know, I wouldn't date myself too. Maybe right now I'm not up for a relationship. Maybe I just can't find something.... stable. It's sad and lonely" I chuckled, wiping a tear that came out of nowhere.


He was right. I wasn't the right person to date if anyone wants a relationship.


Now I was well aware of how love felt like, how blissful it was but still a rookie with managing it.


I wish everything was different. I wasn't sure the things happening with me was good or bad.


I got up and took out my suitcase.


"You really are doing this huh" He frowned


I nodded without looking at him. I opened the suitcase and start filling it with my things.


I looked over at him "You helping me or not?"


He sighed in defeat and stood up. I told him to pack things and went to closet to get more.


I walked back and placed the clothes on bed.


"How will you manage your expenses? I can give you money if you want" He offered as he was folding my clothes.


"Nah, I have enough." I already had a lot of cash that I got from Gunner by running his illegal errands.


I went to bank to open an independent account since I was already at legal age and deposited everything I had.


I couldn't fly with a lot of cash.


He nodded and looked at Addy "Should we wake her up?"


I checked the time and nodded "My flight is in 2 hours so yeah"


He walked around the bed, grabbed a bottle of water and splashed on her face.


She screamed and jolted up. I tried to stifle my laughter.


David started running off to escape pissed Addy. She was cursing at him and chased him downstairs.


I smiled and raked my fingers through my hair.


It was fun to watch.


I continued to pack my things and checked all the documents for school transfer again.


My parents were already transferring me to Paris, thought I should choose for myself.


I decided to go Oxford for my further studies. But til then I'd finish my highschool in England.


It was the only option left. Mine and Ashley's parents won't listen to us. That's for sure.


My parents were so determined to send us Paris and start a family there. There's no point in doing that.


It made no sense to throw away my life so my parents could expand their companies.


Octavia cheated on me, Ashley didn't want me, my parents were using me, what's the point in living here?


David travel around the world for his dad's work so he said he'd visit me from time to time with Addy.


Addy cried and hit me on shoulder a lot when I told the news. It took a while to calm her down.


She told me she'd apply for college there too and move in with me.


David was right. When Addy loves you, she'd love to death and definitely very emotional.


I thought about Ashley. Would she miss me? Would she ever realize how much I love her? Would she ever love me again?


I remembered our last conversation. It still managed to burn me deep inside. I took her love for granted and now paying for it.


Maybe that's why Octavia cheated on me. Life was trying to teach me lesson, to let me know how it feels to be cheated on.


Everything seemed mixed up inside my head. I have no desire or motivation to deal with anything else.


It was better to just pack up and leave, start a new life that stay here and jumble everything up.


Mental health should be top priority.


The noises from stairs pulled me from my thoughts. They both entered the room without going down eachother's throat.


"Wait, what did your parents say about this?" Addy asked as she come forward


I rubbed the back of my neck and looked down "I...I didn't tell them"


"Oh no no no, you have to tell them" She argued


"Yeah, so they could just lock me up here til the wedding" I scoffed and side glanced at her.


"They will file a missing or kidnapping report." David made a valid point.


I sighed, took out a pen and a paper.


Dear Mom and Dad,
                 I won't make this long cause I don't want to think anything. My head is full of wandering thoughts.
I hate you guys for selling me into a marriage for your business. All I wanted was you to understand me, to receive love and attention which I never got. So yeah, I'm leaving.


~Alex


I finished writing and showed them. They read it together.


I didn't hear anything from them as they went silent, so I finished packing.


My parents weren't home as usual to it was good time to escape. I was thinking to meet Octavia and Ashley for the last time but I didn't had time.


David and I took my things downstairs and eventually in driveway. He was supposed to drive me off the airport.


I placed the letter on the countertop and looked around. It was little overwhelming.


I went outside and saw him throw my suitcase in the trunk and handbag in the backseat.


I looked over at my house and Octavias' for the last time.


Damn why was it hard to get over someone..


I shook my head got into backseat. Addy called shotgun already. We all talked the entire ride and eventually pulled over the airport.


I got out and leaned against the hood. I held my suitcase on the sidewalk of airport dropoff.


My mind was telling me to go back and beg Ash for forgiveness. But I knew deep inside that I wasn't ready to love someone. It wasn't fair to her.


Maybe one day I meet her again and get her back.


I felt Addy jumped on me and tighten her arms around me. She was sniffling "I'll miss you"


I kissed her head "I'll miss you too"


We pulled back and I wiped her eyes. She pulled me in and peppered my face with kisses.


I laughed cause it tickled.


"I'm definitely moving in with you in few months" She sniffled


"I'll be waiting for you Addy" I held back my tears and managed a smile.


I looked over David, his eyes were glistening.


I walked over him, he reached my hand and held it. "You'll find someone I'm sure. There must be one girl out there who can make you fall madly in love with her" He patted my back in reassurance


I gave him a real smile and hugged him. He wrapped his arms around me. I pulled back and looked at him "Maybe"


I heard the announcement for my flight and bid goodbyes to my bestfriends.


I gave them one last hug and turned around.


I wiped my eyes and let out a breath as I was walking away.


But the tears won't stop same as the ache in my heart.


                    ~~~~~THE END~~~~


That's the end of this story. I originally thought of a poly ending, last chapter being Alex's wedding with Octavia and Ashley as her brides and second option was to end up her with Addison. I love happy endings and never really thought I'd end it this way.


Alex need to find herself first before getting involve with someone. Maybe she'd get what she wants in future.


Thank you for reading this book.


I'm writing another book so stay tuned.


~A

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