I was eating slowly, trying to delay the talk I was about to have.

I was dreading.

I asked mom to finish the food first before tell her everything. Luckily she agreed. I was hungry before but suddenly lost the appetite.

My mom already finished her food and was waiting for me on couch while I was finishing food.

Finally I forced down the last bite down my throat.

I took the plate and placed it in sink then washed my hands. I looked over mom, she was sitting on couch while going through some magazine, waiting for me.

I never had 'the talk' with mom. Never. She was too busy to mind my business so this was new to me. I never saw her angry, I don't have a single clue how she might react.

I just wasn't ready to be questioned about who I was dating.

I sighed and dragged my legs towards her. She looked up and motioned me to sit down. We both were sitting across eachother, at the end of couch.

She crossed her arms and raised an eyebrow, looking at me.

I knew it was my cue to speak.

I looked down at my hands which were on my lap and took a deep breath.

"I'm dating Octavia" I said without looking up.

"What?!"

"I said I'm dating Octavia" I repeated, quietly

"I heard you for the first time!" This time I looked at her. She was fuming.

"Mo-" she cut me off

"What the hell were you thinking?!!" She shouted. I flinched. She saw that and her face softened a bit.

I saw her calming herself down as she was taking long breaths. She slumped down more and placed her head on her palms.

I didn't know what to do.

I stood and ran to kitchen. I opened the fridge and grabbed a bottle of cold water.

She needed to calm down.

I ran hurriedly and gave bottle to her. She gratefully accepted and drank it.

I didn't know why it was bothering her so much.

I sat back in my place, looking at her as she was thinking, maybe taking in.

She cleared her throat "What about Ashely? I thought you both were together"

Help me lord.

"We are together" I muttered

"Let me get this straight, you're dating Ashley and Octavia both?"

I nodded.

"Does Ashley knows about it?" She asked coldly.

I shrugged.

"And Octavia, is she fine with you marrying Ashley and have an affair with you?" She was grossed out.

"Uh, about that" I chuckled nervously "She might think I'll call off the wedding. I never explained her anything"

"ALEXANDRA! I DIDN'T RAISE YOU TO BE A CHEATER" She yelled loudly as she stood up.

I flinched. I don't remember her raising me, or being here for me.

But I couldn't just say that to her.

I suddenly stood up "I'm so sorry mom but I'm in love with both of them."

She crossed her arms and stared at me "End everything you have with Octavia. I won't call off the wedding and definitely won't let you ruin our reputation." She started pacing around. "Affair with someone who's 10 yr older than you, what goes into that head of yours?" She scoffed. "Did she took advantage of you?" She asked quietly.

"No, I'm still a minor so no." She let out a breath. "She won't take advantage and I have Ashley" I blurted without thinking.

Ah huh

My mouth just couldn't shut up.

"What do you mean?"

"Nothing"

"I asked you something Alex! Don't you dare lie to me"

I didn't know if I should share something like this with mom.

I looked down, staring at nothing "I wanted to be with Octavia for... a night but she declined obviously so I thought I have Ashley"

She was quiet. It truly sacred me.

I looked up at her, she was shocked.

"Just when I thought it couldn't get more worse, you surprise me. Do you even realize how disgusting that sounds?"

Disgusting? How?

I wanted to ask but I kept quiet.

"You want Ashley for sex! Who are you? You couldn't be my daughter." She shook her head in disbelief.

What? No.

Then it hit me. The way I worded definitely sounds disgusting.

"I didn't mean it like that."

She raised an eyebrow at me, searching for something. It's better to explain than let her assume things

"What I meant was I won't cheat on either of them if I ever have the need to...you know." I muttered the last part quietly.

It felt so weird talking about it with her.

"I don't know about that but it won't change the fact about what you said. Use your words wisely!"

I nodded.

She sighed and rubbed her forehead as she sat down again. She leaned forward to grab the bottle of water to drink.

"End things with her and don't tell anything to Ashley for a while. I have to talk to you father first. We need this alliance, you better not mess this up Alexandra" she pointed her finger at me.

I didn't know if I should feel anger or guilty or maybe both. But I was disappointed for sure. All she thinks was alliance.

I couldn't do anything.

I just nodded and she left just after, leaving me behind.

I ran upstairs and cried in my pillow. There were so many emotions. She never acted like a parent, now suddenly she was.

End things with Octavia? I chuckled.  There's no way I could do that.

What was I gonna explain things to Ashley and Octavia? There were so many unanswered questions.

The thoughts were interrupted by the ringing of my phone. I wiped my dried tears and grabbed it.

It was Ashley.

I cleared my throat and answered it

"Alex!" She said from the other end.

"Ashley" I replied

"What's wrong?" She was concerned

"Uh nothing, why?" I lied

"Your voice sounds different"

"Oh, I was sleeping so maybe that's why" I chuckled

She hummed "Oh, I'm coming back tomorrow!" She said excitedly

I laughed. She was really cute.

"Great! I was waiting for you."

"Can you come to pick me up at airport?" She asked nervously.

"Sure, but won't your mom be with you?"

"Yeah but I'll go with you"

I smiled. "I will be there. Just text me the flight details"

I heard her sigh in relief.

"I've to pack now. There are just so many things mom bought for our wedding" My smile faded.

Wedding.

"Uh sure. You pack, I'll just nap again or something"

She laughed and said bye. I hung up before replying her.

I looked at my phone and saw a text from Octavia. I opened it.

When are you coming over?

I totally forgot she asked me to come over.

I replied her and got up to put my phone in pocket to go the neighbors'.

Ashley was coming back, maybe it's time to come clean.

I sighed and locked the door.