The sound of music was blasting through my headphones, blocking out every other noise from outside.

The sunny day made the sky looks bright. I was laying down under the tree with my arms under my head, looking up the sky.

It was lunch and I decided to stay in school to talk to Ashley.

I looked straight in front. Ashley. I could see inside cafeteria, it had a huge glass wall facing the ground where I was lying.

She was sitting in school cafeteria with her friends, chatting and laughing.

Here I was sulking and she was having a great time. Does this not affect her? I sighed and looked back upto the sky.

It's been few days since I told her about Octavia. Ever since then she started to avoid me.

She blocked my number and didn't even acknowledge my existence.

She couldn't just move on, could she?

Nah. Love doesn't just fade in few days.

I didn't know what to do after Ashley stormed off the other day. It was devastating. I couldn't live with the thought of her leaving me.

My friends told me to give her space, cause I was constantly spamming her with calls and messages.

They concluded that it was my fault. Well it was my fault but I just couldn't choose between the two of them.

They both are perfect.

I took out my headphones and switched off my Walkman. It's been a while since I used it, luckily it came in handy today.

Octavia wasn't here in school. She didn't tell me she was on leave. My phone's battery died so I couldn't call her.

It was a shitty day.

I don't know what I felt anymore. Why do I still feel lonely even though I have both of them?

I would never know.

I heard the bell ring indicating the end of lunch.

I got up and entered the building, looking for Ashley. I spotted her friends near locker.

I ran to them "Excuse me. Can you please tell me where I can find Ashley?" I asked as I pushed the rim of my glasses up.

A brunette came forward and crossed her arms, a failed attempt to intimidate me "What do you want from her?"

"Uh, we are partners in a project so she asked me to find her after lunch to talk about it" I lied

She believed the lie and told me to find her in parking lot.

I ran fast to catch her before she leaves.

I reached quickly and saw her putting down the things in back seat.

I walked to her nervously and cleared my throat. She turned around to face me.

I looked at her. I couldn't get over the fact how beautiful she was looking.

She frowned and rolled her eyes ignoring me. She started to walk off but I stopped her.

"Ashley, please talk to me" I pleaded

"I don't think there's anything left to talk about" She said quietly with her head down.

"Ash" My voice was almost inaudible. I was struggling to breathe.

She looked at me, her eyes were teary. The sight made my heart ache.

I reacher to wipe her eyes but she stepped back. She wiped her eyes harshly "You should go Alex. Now." She said coldly

"Bu-"

"I will talk to you when I get into right headspace" She got into her car and drove off leaving me into dust.

"Ugh!" I stomped. It was so frustrating!

How much time did she need? It's already been so many days.

I groaned and walked up to my car. I looked around and saw the whole parking lot empty.

I wonder if she missed rest of her classes. I shook my head and got inside my car.

I inhaled and exhaled to collect myself.

I took out my phone from pocked and dialed Octavia's number.

This time it was ringing but she didn't pick it up.

Then I texted asking her if she was fine. She might be sick or something.

I placed the phone back in my pocket and drove off to home.

I still didn't know why the hell told her everything. Everyone says honesty is the key to a long-lasting relationship. But when it is the only thing that breaks it, then what's the point.

I thought about myself for a moment. I don't think I'm capable of relationships when I couldn't even realize the concept of loyalty and honesty.

Maybe I wasn't even in love with Ashley. Maybe I thought I was cause somewhere deep inside I was craving for it and she loved me for a long time.

I couldn't understand myself. It's good ourselves from other's perspective. I'll ask Addy for it.

I reached my home and parked my car in driveway. I got inside the house and saw my parents watching TV together.

I announced my presence and walked to kitchen. I opened the fridge, grabbed some fruits and soda.

I was not hungry but my stomach was craving something sweet.

I closed the fridge and sat down on dining table. I opened the can, took a sip and a bite of apple.

I glanced over the TV, they were watching news.

I don't know why people even waste time on it. It's okay to see from few minutes to know what's going on but for hours...no. It spreads toxicity and dampens the mood.

I hate politics.

Dad didn't talk to me so maybe mom didn't tell him yet. I can't even begin to imagine how messy it would be.

I continued eating but suddenly stopped when I saw my mom sitting just across me, staring at me.

I raised an eyebrow. "I'm happy you did what I said." She said with a smile.

"What exactly I did?" I asked confusedly.

"Don't play with me Alex. I didn't tell your dad cause you ended with Octavia and I hope it stays that way." She stated firmly.

"Uh, how did you know?" I asked nonchalantly, playing along

She chuckled "I saw Octavia and her boyfriend together so that concludes it. Right?"

I fake smiled "Of course mom. Why wouldn't it be"

She nodded in approval and went back to dad before taking a bottle of water from refrigerator.

What she said started to bother me. Did she really see them together or was she just playing with me?

I stood up and washed my hands. I didn't want to make the same mistake again by coming to conclusion without talking to her.

I looked at my parents, they were engrossed watching TV.

Maybe I should go for a walk.

I grabbed my phone from the countertop and went outside.

I saw a car in the driveway of Octavia. It was Ricks'.

I made my way over to her door. I knocked and waited for a while but no one came. I leaned on door to hear anything but the door opened.

It was unlocked the whole time.

I shook my head and entered the apartment.

There was no one in the living room. I looked in the kitchen and saw two empty glasses and a bottle of wine on the countertop.

Paranoia was getting me now. I knew what this might mean but then again, no conclusion til I talk to her.

I walked to her room and stood in front of door. It was also unlocked, I could hear moans and her calling out his name.

I stormed into the room and saw my worst nightmare.

They both stopped their activity and looked at me while shamelessly covering their naked bodies with the duvet.

I could believe what I just heard and saw. My whole body was numb. I couldn't even cry.

"A-Alex" Octavia was shocked by my presence.

I was looking at her. I trusted her with my heart and she screwed me over.

Her teary hazel eyes striking into mine. Guilt and regret were all over them.

Suddenly I felt like there were millions of knives stabbing me in my heart. I felt my tears falling down.

Octavia stood up holding the duvet and reached for me. I raised my hand and walked out the door without saying anything.

I knew better than to listen her excuses. There are no excuses for a cheater.

Technically I was doing the same but you never realized until it happens with you too.

Karma is bitch.