Bakugou put his bag back down and walked to you.

He was glad you asked him to stay because he didn't want to go home yet, and really didn't feel like leaving you alone tonight, but he didn't know how to say it.

He had never been good at expressing emotions, and even less at comforting. So just knowing that his presence helped you, that you wanted him to be there by your side made his heart jump.

All he wanted right now was for you to smile again, for you to see yourself the way he saw you because in his eyes you were the most irritating, amazing, and beautiful person he knew.

Sure, you would annoy him to the point where he had to hold back from screaming or punching you, but you also made him laugh, feel like he could be himself around you, finally feel like he has someone who was willing to listen to him and who understood, who didn't deny the way he felt like many other and accepted him for who he was.

Bakugou never admitted it out loud, mostly because he thought it made him weak, but he truly and deeply cared for you, maybe more than he ever did for anyone else in the world.

It often scared him. But all the worries were washed away when he saw you walk into class waving at the other students, when you ruffled his hair, when you taught each other new moves or when he would catch you staring at him, the way you quickly looked away pretending he had never noticed always made him laugh.

And now he stared down at you, looking at the same girl he cherished so much Katsuki felt helpless.

Kind of like back at USJ, when Kei attacked you and Katsuki couldn't do anything.

You felt a warm hand lift your chin up as Bakugou started wiping the tears away with his thumb, a sweet smile on his face, his eyes looked somewhat sad though.

"come on let's go rest, you looked really tired," he said, analyzing the dark circles under your eyes. You nodded and walked into the bedroom.

Whilst he took a quick shower you changed and got into bed, curling under the covers.

You felt so much and so little at the same time. You were exploding with emotions but also felt so numb. The only emotion you could pinpoint was a disappointment.

Every single time that your fight with Momo flashed into your eyes you felt weak, like you were somehow falling back into your old habits before Aizawa had helped you get back on your feet. You not only disappointed yourself, but also your friends, your teachers, and Bakugou.

He had told you that nothing had changed, that that wasn't you, but it was. Even if for a second it didn't feel like it, it was still you who hurt someone.

Fine, Momo had pushed you to get angry and lose control but you kept thinking that if you weren't strong enough to manage your emotions that meant that it could happen again, especially now that you were in such a fragile state.

Even if you tried hard you couldn't shake away the feeling that all the progress you had made was lost, or that maybe it was all a facade, that what Momo said was true.

Maybe no matter how hard you tried you were never going to change, even if you truly wanted to.

You felt the door to your room open and close, and the bed dip slightly as Katsuki laid next to you. You turned around to look at him and soon regrets it when your eyes quickly met.

So many thoughts raced in your mind:

why did I ask him to stay

he probably doesn't want to be here

what if he is scared of me

"Stop that"

You looked up at him confused,

"I can feel you overthinking from here, it's annoying" he answered, his voice slightly sleepy,

"I know I'm sorry I just-"

"y/n," he said, interrupting you, there was a long pause before he shifted closer to you, much closer. You felt the heat radiate from his body and if you focused enough you could probably hear his heartbeat. It was unexpected but comforting. Reminded you that he was there. "You know you can talk to me right? about anything"

"I know Katsuki," you sighed, taking a deep breath, "I just can't stop feeling disappointed in myself, and I let all of you down as well, I'm sorry"

"I told you to never apologize to me. And why would I be disappointed in you"

You let out a breathy chuckle "Cause I'm weak, I can't even control my emotions or my quirk"

"She had it coming, first of all, and second, you aren't weak, you are one of the strongest people I know. How could anyone be disappointed when they see how hard you train, how much time you put in to better yourself. Everyone knows that"

"People were scared today, everyone watching..." You started rambling on, running a hand through your hair

"hey" Bakugou tried to interrupt, but you just kept talking,

"...my quirk is dangerous..."

"hey," he repeated,

"...what if I lose control, what if I hurt someone again..."

"HEY" he finally said loudly, grabbing your hand and placing it flat on his chest, right above where his heart is.

Your eyes widened, you felt the beats under his skin, the energy pulse through him, you tried to tug your hand away slightly but he kept it still,

"I have gone through my whole life knowing what it's like to be feared, people are afraid I'll hurt them since we can admit that my quirk is not the most hero-like, so I understand" he took a long pause as if it was hard for him to talk about this thing, pressing your hand even harder against his chest, you felt his heart rate increasing slightly "I'm not afraid of you. I know you would never want to hurt someone"

The gesture was so simple but it proved so much to you.

Placing your hand, what controlled your quirk right over his heart, in one of the weakest points of his body, knowing damn well you could so easily hurt him if you wanted to. He didn't hesitate, his warm hand wrapped around yours.

Bakugou had always been there for you, he was never afraid, he understood your past and accepted it.

You looked at your hand over his heart and then back up at him who was just inches away from you, staring into the same familiar crimson eyes which brought you so much comfort.

You felt strange as if you were on a rollercoaster ride that took a sudden dip. Butterflies in your stomach. maybe even a little lightheaded. The heat on your cheeks, neck, and ears became so strong you were afraid he could see.

You were so annoyed at how cliche this moment was but when you looked at him it like you just forgot how to breathe.

"Katsuki" you said, staring into his ruby eyes, lost in your own little world, not even thinking about what you were saying, "I think I lo-"

When his eyes widened and his breath halted you felt as if you had just gotten slapped in the face, you couldn't believe what was about to come out of your mouth. You swore you felt his heart stop for a second as the words left your mouth.

Panicking you spoke fast, looking away and pulling your hand away from his chest.

"-look very tired. We should probably sleep"

Bakugou took a second, swallowing loudly before answering before his breath finally came back.

"yeah ok," he said softly before watching you close your eyes.

You felt his shift in the bed, expecting to feel him move away from you but instead, he was now close enough that your head perfectly rested under his chin, tucked into his chest, you felt a palm caressing your hair and a kiss on your forehead before his arm moved to wrap around you and pull you even closer to him.

"Goodnight Icy"

You tried your best to calm your heart rate, which was now racing and focused on getting some rest.

Wrapped in his arms it wasn't hard to fall asleep, and before you even knew it you were dozing off.

Bakugou woke up during the night when he no longer felt you in his arms. He opened his eyes lazily and looked around for you. His gaze fell on the clock on your bedside table.

2:47 AM

Grunting he stood up, rubbing his eyes with his hands.

He saw the light come from the bathroom and heard the water running.

He stood up from bed and walked up to the door, wanting to make sure you were okay even though you were probably just getting water or couldn't sleep.

When he opened the door his heart dropped.

Red.

Everything was red.

AHH YES ANGST
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