Soldier Field Stadium.

This was the last concert of the tour . The second last day of being in America.

I would say I'd miss the time I got to spend with the boys. We got way closer than I had expected I would. The amount of site seeing we did.

I was glad Jungkook scold me that night or I wouldn't have made the close connections I had.

The show was coming to a end and the members once again handled there own speeches.

"I'm so happy and glad we could spend time and put on this performance for you ARMY , I will miss every purple heart in this stadium." Jimin said his eyes glistening with a wide smile on his face .

I stood watching the screen backstage on the break of tears as I smile with joy.

"I really enjoyed it here and I promise to come back and do it all over again," Hoseok said with a huge raw coming from the audience. " and I am soo thankful for all of you because you ARMYs make us BTS."

I stared at the screen looking at Hoseok. He looked so happy smiling widely . I felt -the only way I could describe it as- my heart turning.

A sudden wave of emotions passed over me and I didn't know what it was but seeing him happy and smiling made me happy.

I couldn't have any feelings for Hoseok. I won't allow myself to have any. I can't let what happened last time happen again.

What would we even be after we go back to Korea? I would be busy with work ,going on trips barely having time for myself and he would be busy with schedules and everything else after that , he has people around him 24/7 and not to mention the beautiful woman constantly around him . I couldn't allow myself to get hurt again.

I don't know what to do with these feelings inside .

I heard the boys running backstage and I fixed myself , getting rid of those thoughts.

I walked to the dressing rooms as they were handing over their mics and thanking the sound engineer. I waited with the stylists, make up artists and camera men .

They came in extremely loud talking about their performance and then they stood in a straight line and bowed to us and thanked us.

I smiled and felt really touched by that.

They stood in a circle and hugged each other. I could hear a few sniffles .

The door opened and the venues managers' head popped in. "Hi , there are people who'd like to see you."

"It's probably them, you can let them in." Namjoon said to the manager.

"You good?" Charles asked walking infront of me .

"I'm okay, it was just really nice to be here and experience everything with them." I said reminiscing about the days where we went out and had fun.

"Me too. I , personally, very personally have a few stories to tell you when we get back home , I think you have a idea of who it's about though." He said smiling and acting all giddy.

"Oh my God, what did you do to him?" I said leaning in so I could whisper.

"I didn't to anything! It was a team effort but I'll go into more detail later, we should probably help with the guests."

He turned around still blocking my view of the boys . He turned back quickly putting his hands on my shoulder.

He looked at me with shock and I was completely confused.

"I don't think they need help." He said pushing me back.

"Why? Is it someone Korean? Jackson?" I couldn't understand why he wouldn't let me see who it was.

"Are you gonna be okay?"

Was it someone really famous?

I took a deep breath and composed myself and nodded. He hesitated before unblocking my view.

We made eye contact.

We stared each other down.

I couldn't move , I couldn't speak. 

I just stood there looking at him.

I felt my heart turn ,not in the way looking at Hoseok did but in a way that made me sad and angry.

"Y/n." He said as his face broke out in a smile.

I bowed a gave him a blank stare even though I felt like crying and punching him in the face, but I kept it rigid.

"Mark."

I kept his gaze, we looked at each other for a while , no words just people looking at each other.

"Good to see you again." He blurted out trying to make it less awkward.

I scoffed annoyed that he would even think that would be okay.

"I'm sure it must be." I said not believing this whole situation.

"What's with you guys? Didn't you end on good terms?" Jackson asked as the boys stood around them .

"Jackson-"

"Far from it actually " I said pushing my way through them and exiting the room.

I walked away furious, afraid I might cause a scene if I stayed longer because something in me just wanted to grab him by the throat and watch as he loses consciousness .

I walked and walked until I came to the end of the corridor,  I took deep breaths trying to calm myself down and catch my breath .

"Can I talk to you for a second?"

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