2 days from now it'll be my brother's one year with his girlfriend. I'm happy for them. They were able to make it through even though they only see each other once a week. But then there was us. You wouldn't bother trying for me, and you ended up cheating with the girl whose heart you supposedly stole while flirting with me again. I let myself get played by you, but I am not allowing it to continue. Sometimes I feel the urge to tell that girl that you're just a waste of time, that he'll just play you if he isn't doing it already. But, the bitch sent you pictures while you and I were dating and tore us apart, so fuck her. She can get her heartbroken by you, but I'm not that stupid anymore. I'm not gonna fall for your sweet smile or soft touch, not again. The devil was once an Angel too. But you already knew that since you were the religious one. But that being said, I'm in desperate need of affection. Not any of that "you're beautiful" bullshit, I get plenty of that by pretty much everyone. I'm talking about relationship kind of affection. A soft kiss on the cheek, rubbing my back when we hug, gentle lip kisses with your hand on my cheek. I don't want a relationship anytime soon, I don't have anyone in my life I'd consider dating material, but I just want something like a relationship. Like friends with benefits in a way, but no sexual things just kisses and hugs. But I'm not gonna rush into something just because I'm cuddle deprived because feelings can be a bitch. You taught me that and I'm taking that lesson to my grave before I consider dating someone like you again.